Greetings all,
I haven't posted here in quite a while, so I figured it was high time for me to make an appearance. This thread is of particular interest to me, because it hits on several issues that I've spent the last several months contemplating, and admittedly I'm not getting very far along with any of it. Zarg makes some interesting comments and observations, although with such arrogant assertion that I sense a belief system is being defended somewhere along the way. Still, it provides a strong catalyst for meaningful debate.
For the last several months I appear to have been suffering from a general disillusionment with any and all things "new age" and/or "woo-woo". Due to the sheer volume of information now available, both on the web and in print, it is becoming harder and harder to sort the wheat from the chaff, as it were. My ability to discern fact from fiction, information from disinformation, sense from nonsense, seems to be at an all time low, resulting in such high degrees of frustration for me that I've all but lost interest in making any attempt. I seem to end up spinning my wheels for nothing, and getting caught up in endless contradictions and cross-theories. Calls to simply '"go with whatever resonates for me" are usually nothing more than a license to simply take whatever information fits best into my existing belief system, rather than an unbiased way towards the ever elusive truth. The old questions still remain, and the only thing that I know for sure is that I know bugger all.
Is this world a prison? Or is it a spiritual school? Are we being held here only by layers of well placed deception and manipulation, both on the physical and non-physical levels, or is there some purpose to our being here at this time? Is the world really controlled by reptilians from another dimension, or is this all just another smokescreen designed to steer us in the wrong direction? How much of this reality am I responsible for creating, and how much of it (if any) can I actually change? All these and more are questions that I cannot answer myself, and those that would profess to answer such questions for me I no longer trust to tell the truth (whether by willful deception or ignorant misinformation).
It seems like anyone, even somewhat intelligent folks like Zarg, can say absolutely anything these days and pass it off as the unequivocal truth without offering the slightest bit of evidence to back it up. This is most frustrating, especially for someone like myself who possesses an engineer's mind and thus demands some semblance of evidence to back up lofty claims. Let's start with sourcing our information for starters. If you think that Stuart Wilde, David Icke, or Neale Donald Walsh are not worth listening to, then at least offer some explanation as to why you think this is so. Simply stating that something is "crap" doesn't help anyone here to decide whether this is so for themselves.
Still, I sometimes feel that investing so much thought into these matters is nothing more than intellectual navel gazing. As we sit here pondering and reflecting upon these things, the world outside continues to go to hell in a handbasket. More wars, more debt, more poverty, more suffering, more taxes, more "terrorism", more corruption, more lies, more controls, more bullshit. Everyone that I speak to nowadays seems to be tired, disillusioned and pissed off - myself included. When I look towards the future I see only the inevitability of our present unsustainable society's collapse. There is so much writing on the wall I can no longer see the bricks.
And everything feels completely messed up to me right now. The things that once mattered no longer seem to hold any relevance or importance, and I'm finding it harder to motivate myself towards being even remotely sociable. I would consider the possibility that I am merely depressed, except for the fact that I am not particularly down or unhappy. But it feels now as if the world is splitting in two, and I am not entirely sure which one I am living within. A part of me is still attracted to the old ways of living and working, perhaps because it's all I've ever known in this lifetime, but the other, larger part of me finds it all quite mundane and repulsive.
Perhaps Zarg is right in some of the things he's said. Perhaps we are right now in the 4th density of conscious experience upon this planet, but are being held back by those who would maintain an illusion of 3rd density for their own selfish benefit. Perhaps that's why everything feels wrong, or feels like it's splitting in two. Perhaps we are occupying two worlds: one that is being born, and another that is dying? An interesting possibility.
That's all for now.
"Fear is the great barrier to human growth. Unknowns create fears. When these Unknowns become Knowns the fears diminish and disappear, and we are able to cope with whatever confronts us." - Robert A. Monroe
