Why are songs the hardest thoughts/mental noise to clear? (Page 2 of 2)

hey! everyone...

   I am a little bit curious too. Herez something what I found out. I listen to music all the time infact I have ear phones plugged into my ears most of the time. The reason I do that is since, I understand most of the talk that goes around me and knowing that they are always pushing my buttons trying to trigger things in my mind or control me. I rely on my lil Ipod to keep on feeding music to it. Sometimes I lie down and listen to music without any thoughts and observed something and am just wonder if someone agree to this with me that do we have two different aspects of us in one body. Like lets say you are listening to a song that is food for your ego and you will hear when you pay too much attention that some of the words are reinforced in the background like real slow behind the real words that are spoken aloud and this will happen in my right ear. So, basically song is playing in both the ears but some of them go a lil loud in the right or the left and this whispering words are either meant to hit your right side or the left side of the ear.

And am pretty sure what am writing I have observed this most of the love songs will have whispering words of the songs reinforcing in the left ear behind the songs loud singing lyrics.

Now, even tho! I listen to ipod all the time sometimes people try to piss me off and they know what songs I hear when am mad. The other day I was walking on the street this guy just came up to me almost hitting me and I had this ear phones plugged and he is like laughing at me and shit trying to piss me off and the other dude is showin off attitude. I was still lost in the song and they jsut went by but that image of them doing what ever they did stuck in my mind and what happens next is that a song when am angry i listen to starts playing by itself. And it just proved me that even the songs in my IPOD are manipulated thru people inserting their choice of songs or to pull out a certain behaviour in me and instead of being angry in that situation i was laughing insdie of myself thinking how stupid the sytem is to think like a kid and this store keeper started sniffin and shit and he looked a lil pissed off. It fueled me more to act in myself always.

its interesting i know. What was really funny was one of my experiences in a out of town doing some drugs. I was alone still looking for answers of my sufferings and life and what happend was really interesting. I did LSD for the very first time in my life after reading some book named Uncommon Wisdom by Fritjof Kapra who also happens to be one of the author for the source of the article for nexus called soul ark 33. And I tell you who ever change songs or control everyone else also fights you in a thought battle and you give in you loose but if you carry on like a warrior remembering your priorities and what you really want out of life you could always fight back. But what happend  that time was interesting. I beat all my thoughts with positive feedback of love and peace and believe in myself and then for a little while I felt so special cuz I was sitting at a beach alone there was not a sign of life except for these small bugs who light up themselves i don't know what you call them in english. So, they were like all around where i was sitting and it was really dark around 11:30 and It was really dark with no street lights nothing on this bench and i had this small torch so it wasn't any problem for me to guide myself to the bench i sat on. Now, as I was sitting there thinking about the painting the SUN and the Moon by Leonardo da vinci and how all those thoughts arised in me were pushing me to make a choice between these two side which I call the Father and Mother.

It was a very beautiful windy night and around me were huge hills filled with greenery and the whole place was surrounded by clouds of dark grey and black clouds and there were this friggin lightning except for the place where I was sitting it had literally opened up like a dome with soo many stars that gave me a feeling of being in space cuz i have never seen soo many stars in one place that too in an opening of clouds like a dome and it made me feel really special. And then I happend to record some of my conversation with the self in my mp3 player which also records voice and it has a mic. And I remember myself saying I feel like GOD and did that sun and the moon posture thinking about why he drew that painting in anger and I recorded some conversation with self and guess what. I recorded it and I saved it so I listen to it later when am done with my trip like tomorrow. And the whole recording of mine disappeared from my mp3 player as if I didn't know what I had recorded ofcourse I remembered everything. See how deep the system goes....