• Registered: 2006-12-02

Re: Why don't they leave me alone?

Hey ya'll.  I just printed out the replies from last night so I can read them away from the computer screen, but I wanted to comment on the last one (just because it was easy to read, being the last one!).


Blue wrote:
What I can do (I hope) is provide the link you wanted ..

Blue, thank you SO much!  That's it!  I couldn't find it last night to save me.  The exact thread that I'm referring to is this one:

http://www.thewomenwarriors.net/phpbb2/ … .php?t=205

Now, I'm not saying that this is exactly what my problem is, but when I read it over, a lot of things were--not clicking, really--rather, it sounded familiar (no pun intended).  I really really hope that this isn't like my situation at all. Maybe my twin is just a big ole funny character and doesn't mean any harm and isn't anything like what's described in the above thread at WW.net.

Blue wrote:

I am not saying to totally ignore what is happening to you, but what you need right now is peace, so you can build your strength back up, and live to fight another day. I would also ask you to consider dropping the muscle testing just for now, you can always come back to it later.

Thanks so much for your kindness.  I agree that I do need peace for that reason.  I often wonder:  "If someone really does learn the truth, and nothing but, do they get unplugged?  Or do they 'Ascend'?"  Good question, IMO.   Oh, and no worries on stopping the muscle testing.  Like I said, it's been stopped for me.  Either by the 'bad' guys or by the source directly, or by some part of me.  But then I thought, if it's my higher self that cut me off because I wasn't getting correct answers, well why would my HS also beat me up and take away my balance and grace?  I don't think it was 'god' or my HS that did it.  Who knows....


Okay, so I'm going to go have my coffee and wake up some more. I just wanted to link directly to that thread for now.

  • Registered: 2006-12-02

Re: Why don't they leave me alone?

Again, thanks so much for all the wonderful advice, everyone. 

Montalk----Could you tell me what kind of recording device you use?  I was looking at them and wondering what would be best.  I would think that a cassette would run out too soon since I'd be recording all night.  So that's out.  Then I saw CD recorders, but again, I imagine there's a time limit.  Which brought me to digital recorders.  The thing about those, for me, is the cost and the fact that I can't find too many that don't require batteries only.  That would get really expensive, if I went thru a set of batteries each night.  Is yours digital?  Does it have an AC adaptor?  I thought I read in some thread that you use a voice activated model. Is that correct?  Thanks so much for your help and advice. 

I honestly think that my 'abductions' are on a soul level.  Can you hear anything weird on a recording if only your soul is leaving?  What would you hear? 

It is really hard to keep my vibes as high as you all seem to be describing.  It's not like I'm afraid or angry or anything most of the time.  I have just in the past 6 months learned how to control my emotions and thoughts (the last one is hard!)  How do you keep up your vibes when you're learning about the crap that's going on?  Am I raising my vibes by becoming informed or does that have nothing to do with it?  Am I cancelling it out by having emotional reactions to the information?

The emotion I have to work on most is sadness. I am not native here. I cannot handle the negativity in this sphere.  My heart is wrenched by all the messed up things that are happening to people. I can't help it.  I do try to keep a lid on it, and it works most of the time.  But the times I fall off the wagon are when I'm trying to figure out what the hell I can do to help out the situation.  I feel so helpless, and that's where my sadness comes in.  I know I can't save the world, and maybe I'm being unrealistic.  But the other sad times come when I find a "truth" and I feel the knowing in my soul.  I am a very old soul, and I've seen many many bad things.  I know things on a soul level that my conscious level would not be able to handle. 

Capitan, Vajra, Blue, Zen:  Thank you, all.  Your kindness means a lot to me.  Very good information and advice.  I'm still mulling it all over in my mind.  Trying to decide whether to expound on it here in this thread or start a new one.

Espavo, my friends...

  • From: England
  • Registered: 2005-04-20

Re: Why don't they leave me alone?

For nightime protection have you considered burning insence in your bedroom prior to sleep?
A powerful combination is Frankinsence, myrrh, organic tobacco (amercan spirit) and rosemary
oil.
A consecrated knife or sword kept under the bed, the negs dont seem to like iron/steel.
Australian bush flower essences:
Angelsword: realeases negative held psychic energies
Boab: Helps release and clear earthbound spirits from space and environment
Fringe Violet: Psychic protection.
These 3 in a spray will clear a space of negativity

Dog Rose: by releasing the fear of something you will stop attracting it
Grey spider flower: For fear of supernatural and psychic attack

Its not like we are fractions of the whole but rather versions of the whole.
  • Registered: 2006-12-02

Re: Why don't they leave me alone?

Hey BF doc!  Thanks so much!  I don't really think I can do the burning incense right before I go to bed, because of sleeping arrangements. My 6 yr old is still sharing my bed and his dad reads to him for a while then he goes to sleep.  Then I go to bed later.  Good suggestion though.  Maybe I can do it during the day?  How do you make an incense using different types of material?  I have powdered myrrh.  Will that work?  And what form of Frankinsence are you talking about?

A consecrated knife or sword kept under the bed, the negs dont seem to like iron/steel.

I can't believe you brought this up!! Dude, that is so synchronistic.  My husband often comes home with things that--at the time--do not make sense to me. Like when he brought home a laser printer and 2 boxes of binder clips when our ex-employer shut down.  I was like "what the heck do I need a laser printer for? And these clips?"  Of course, he had no idea why.  (he's like very easily programmed, me thinks, or something...)  Anyways, a month later I found Noble Realms and very quickly realized why he brought those things home.  I have printed out ream after ream of information since I've been here!  And I've had to buy 4 more boxes of binder clips since I ran out of the 2 he brought home!   

So anyways, a few weeks ago he comes home from a visit to his brother's place, who collects and sells knives.  He has this BIG old knife with him this day.  I'm like, "What the heck? What are you going to do with this?"  Again, he doesn't really know. He just brought it home.  Honestly.  Then he said something about using in for knife throwing practice. I told him he was crazy since it's so big, but that's the size that he and his friends use for practice!  But that's not the reason he brought it home.  I know now this.  You have made my confirmation, sir...

So, by consecrated, do you mean that I need to like dedicate it to service or something similar?  I know that with my crystals and stones, I have to program them to get the maximum benefit from their use.  Is it kind of like that?

I have one other question for you.  My boy is really have a hard time.  He is quite sensitive, and I think he's being messed with also.  He is having a fear complex.  He's scared to be in the house alone (even though my garage where I smoke is only 20 feet away and he has a phone to call me), and he's also afraid of the dark.  And he won't sleep alone.  I can't hardly blame him.  If he's being abducted, which I suspect for various reasons, then I can say that his fear is well placed for a child.  I try very hard to teach him that his fear is making it easy for them to win, but it's not working.  He loves scary shows and books, though.  Isn't that weird.  He's reading 5th grade level Goosebump series books, and absolutely loves Scooby doo, but then he has all these fears.  I told him it's not good for him to read those and watch that stuff, but he LOVES it.  What is he doing to himself?  Is it subconscious? 

Anyways, sorry for going on. I was just wondering if there are any essence remedies for fears such as I've described above.

Thanks again!

20 Reply by Barefoot Doc (edited by Barefoot Doc 2007-09-26 12:12:24)

  • From: England
  • Registered: 2005-04-20

Re: Why don't they leave me alone?

Hi Seeking

Seeking the Truth wrote:

Hey BF doc!  Thanks so much!  I don't really think I can do the burning incense right before I go to bed, because of sleeping arrangements. My 6 yr old is still sharing my bed and his dad reads to him for a while then he goes to sleep.  Then I go to bed later.  Good suggestion though.  Maybe I can do it during the day?  How do you make an incense using different types of material?  I have powdered myrrh.  Will that work?  And what form of Frankinsence are you talking about?

The powdered myrrh should be fine and granules of frankincense, i think they are more potent in "smoke" form but you can get them as essential oils as well.
I just buy the small charcoal incense burners to burn my incense on.

Seeking the Truth wrote:

So, by consecrated, do you mean that I need to like dedicate it to service or something similar?  I know that with my crystals and stones, I have to program them to get the maximum benefit from their use.  Is it kind of like that?

Yes basically, you can invent your own ritual that you are comfortable with, maybe annoint the blade with frankincense oil or something similar and speak your intent aloud.

Seeking the Truth wrote:

I have one other question for you.  My boy is really have a hard time.  He is quite sensitive, and I think he's being messed with also.  He is having a fear complex.  He's scared to be in the house alone (even though my garage where I smoke is only 20 feet away and he has a phone to call me), and he's also afraid of the dark.  And he won't sleep alone.  I can't hardly blame him.  If he's being abducted, which I suspect for various reasons, then I can say that his fear is well placed for a child.  I try very hard to teach him that his fear is making it easy for them to win, but it's not working.  He loves scary shows and books, though.  Isn't that weird.  He's reading 5th grade level Goosebump series books, and absolutely loves Scooby doo, but then he has all these fears.  I told him it's not good for him to read those and watch that stuff, but he LOVES it.  What is he doing to himself?  Is it subconscious?

I think a lot of kids just like things like scooby doo and goosebumps i know mine do so there may or not be a connection there but i suspect kids are targeted via tv programmes.
From my repertory of bush flower essences under fears:
Dog Rose: For fear generally, niggling fears eg fear of the dark, anxiety
Grey Spider Flower: For extreme terror immobilsing panic ,phobias,nightmares, terror that comes on suddenly, fear of psychic attack
Green Spider Orchid: For nightmares from past lives
Bauhina: Fear of new situations
Fringe Violet: Works hand in hand with Angelsword, Fringe Violet heals breaks or holes in the aura while Angelsword realeases energies or entities that have entered while the aura was open
Boab: Breaks karmic ties, clears ancestoral and family negative patterns

Confidence

There is a combination remedy called Confid-essence
Which contains Dog Rose, Five Corners, Southern Cross and Sturt Desert Rose:
Brings out our true inhernet positive qualities od self esteem and confidence and resolves negative subconscious beliefs we may hold about ourselves.

Here is web site of flower essences with a repertory that you can click on to see which you feel may suit your son the best and read more about them generally.
http://www.flowersense.co.uk/

Australian Bush flower essences
http://www.ausflowers.com.au/

Its not like we are fractions of the whole but rather versions of the whole.
  • Registered: 2007-07-22

Re: Why don't they leave me alone?

Seeking the Truth wrote:

The emotion I have to work on most is sadness. I am not native here. I cannot handle the negativity in this sphere.  My heart is wrenched by all the messed up things that are happening to people. I can't help it.  I do try to keep a lid on it, and it works most of the time.  But the times I fall off the wagon are when I'm trying to figure out what the hell I can do to help out the situation.  I feel so helpless, and that's where my sadness comes in.

STT, it may be a small thing toward long-term prevention of the kind of interference you're currently experiencing, but one of the easiest methods of, as Montalk writes, "changing your mind" out of a mindset of helplessness, of victimization, is changing your language. Begin by telling yourself, even by writing it down on a Post-It note or slip of paper, or typing it out on your keyboard, is that you can handle the negativity in this life, within this sphere, that you are not, nor will you become, overwhelmed. Instead of admitting that the emotion that you have primarily to work from is sadness, because that's a vibration that keeps you locked within a narrow range of possibilities, of opportunitites, write instead that it is the love you have for your husband and your children, and the hope you keep in your heart for a full life of positive experience and learning for them that you have most to work with. As you write it, you'll begin to think it, and then believe it because this always was and now has become again true. It's a small thing, writing silly affirmations on Post-It notes, but combined with some of the more practical measures mentioned here, this practice might begin to open doors to things, to ideas, that weren't easily accessible to you because you were mired in perpetual sadness.

The scary shows your child seems to enjoy can only be a contributing factor to the turmoil that's being created and extended within your home. You're feeling fear, your children are feeling fear, there's a television on broadcasting fear. It's like a big fear factory, and it's practically intoxicating to the beings you're trying to shield yourself from.

Seeking the Truth wrote:

I know I can't save the world, and maybe I'm being unrealistic.  But the other sad times come when I find a "truth" and I feel the knowing in my soul.  I am a very old soul, and I've seen many many bad things.  I know things on a soul level that my conscious level would not be able to handle.

The change you want to see in the world must start with you, with the peace you will bring to your home. The world doesn't require you to save it. The world can take care of itself. It always has. Save your Self.

"Oh where have you been, my blue-eyed son? Where have you been, my darling young one?" - Roxy Music (B. Dylan)
  • Registered: 2006-12-02

Re: Why don't they leave me alone?

Hey Doc.  That's sweet.  Thanks for the info!

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Shukaido--Thanks for the reply.  I can sense that you mean well.  I know all about the positive talk and affirmations and stuff. I have been applying them, somewhat erratically, since I started reading the many good books on the subject.  But I've come to find that a happy-go-lucky attitude is not always appropriate, or enough. I'm more realistic now about things. I keep a positive attitude, but sometimes I have a slip in thought or tongue that shows how 'unenlightened' I really am.  Ah, but I'm working on that. 

The scary shows your child seems to enjoy can only be a contributing factor to the turmoil that's being created and extended within your home. You're feeling fear, your children are feeling fear, there's a television on broadcasting fear. It's like a big fear factory, and it's practically intoxicating to the beings you're trying to shield yourself from.

I don't know....I guess I must sound very fearful to everyone??  This is not how it is. I do not sit and cower in fear while learning new stuff or finding out about possibly being a genetic experiment or whatever. Granted, I do get shocked by the hard core stuff, but it passes and I don't have an overwhelming fear in me about anything. Last year...oh yes.  But that was before I found out how harmful that emotion can be for people. I've been slowly dropping my fears as I face them.  And the stuff I learned last summer wasn't nearly as scary as the stuff I've learned since December. Actually, I'd say I'm taking this all in rather decent stride. I've learned to balance my sadness with laughter, and I do well most of the time--although I slip sometimes.

Now, my son does have his fear.  But seriously, what 6 year old do you know who hasn't at some point been afraid of the dark, or the monsters under the bed.  I don't believe that my family is engulfed in irrational fear.  Quite the opposite.  I give my son plenty of ammo to use against night-time invaders, and what-not.  I don't promote fear, it's not prevalent in my home.  I discourage him from renting Scooby videos and scary books, but he's adament about them.  He's old enough to make his own decisions, and he's very stubborn, so there's no use in me forcing him to stop.  I just try to balance it by giving him ideas on protecting himself during his dreamtime.


The change you want to see in the world must start with you, with the peace you will bring to your home. The world doesn't require you to save it. The world can take care of itself. It always has. Save your Self.

Ah, yes.  I should be more literal. I know that the world or Gaia doesn't need me to save it.  I've heard this many times, so I should've known better than to say that exact phrase without quotes around the word 'world'.  I have come to find out that I cannot save her, and she doesn't need saved.  Got it.  Right, well, what I really meant--and should have said--was that I can't save the people of the world.  Cuz that's what I'm supposed to be doing.  Save myself?  Okay. Done.  But I do believe that I'm supposed to be saving more than just my ass.  I don't know why, I just do.  Programming?  Instinct? Mission from another density? Making up for bad karma?  I'm not sure, but the plan is not for just me to be saved.  And yes, I do realize that everyone has the responsibility to save themselves, I cannot do it for them.  But I can at least extend my hand and give the offer of hope that there is life on the other side of the fence.  That's what I came here to do.  To help people wake up.  And that's why they f*ck with me...

Namaste

  • Registered: 2007-07-23

Re: Why don't they leave me alone?

Just agreeing here...I love those Australian Bush flower essences - I've personally used boab, fringed violet, and angelsword and found them to be very effective.

24 Reply by Blue (edited by Blue 2007-09-27 02:52:14)

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Re: Why don't they leave me alone?

As well as a physical sword, there is also the metaphysical sword of St. Michael to consider.....

(This quote was created by Zenden in the Stuart Wilde fred page 9)

The Mighty Zenden wrote:

ASCENSION CLASS #20,  "Michael's Legions - How To Pull Your Sword"

Michael's Legions has to do with ascension... and stuff about pulling swords and that kind of thing. So this lesson is going to be concerning Michael's Legions. Michael is the one that you may consider the "protectorate" of what we refer to as the Divine Blueprint. And this comes in many forms. Michael's Legions, in your third dimensional thinking processes, number in the millions... the hundreds of millions. Michael's Legions, approximately 1/8 of them walk upon this planet right now.... embodied.  This will gives you a little idea of how many of Michael's Legions are walking upon the face of this planet right now. For you see, out of all the universes, out of all of Creation, this planet, right now, is 'on stage', the spotlight is on Her. She has a vast audience and she has a vast crew backstage. She is giving the performance of her lifetime, and brother Michael and his Legions are here, on and around this planet at this time, to make sure that she has no 'hecklers'.

Now, there are many wonderfully enlightened Lightworkers walking upon the face of this planet right now that, in their own minds and hearts, they refuse to see 'evil'. They claim there is no evil. And, in a way, they are right, But also, in a way, they are wrong. For you see, all of Creation has been within polarity and we have discussed this in several of our classes in the past concerning the 'split-aparts' and how opposite those split-aparts have been. At one point in time, we even looked at you and asked you to imagine in your own mind, what your split-apart would be like if it was your total opposite. We will get more 'down and dirty' with this lesson. If you are righteous, and if you are good of heart, and if you are pure of thought, then what would your split-apart be like? Now, we are not asking you to look upon yourselves and see the evil that you could be, but we do wish you to realize that that's what evil is. Evil is the containment of the opposite of what all strive to be. Therefore, the more enlightened that you get, in most circumstances, the more evil your split-apart becomes.

As you are walking closer and closer into the Light, your split-apart is walking further and further away from the Light.  Michael and his Legions are here in Creation to make sure that those of the split-apart nature, that are walking further and further away from the Light, do not lose themselves completely, for they are merely doing nothing more than learning. They are learning information through experiences to take back to the Creator, just as you are. But in their walking further and further away from the Light, some of them occasionally play havoc with those that are walking closer and closer to the Light. Michael and his Legions are also here to protect those that have their mission to accomplish from those that are walking further and further away from the Light. For you see, in his mission, in making sure that the Divine Blueprint comes about and is accomplished, he also makes sure that it gets done without too much harassment from those that are walking further and further away from the Dark.

Now, each and every one of you that are of Michael's Legions, whether you believe so or not, WILL encounter some of those split-aparts that are walking further and further away from the Light. You see, it is guaranteed. For each and every one of you will have a time when you will be faced with, perhaps, not YOUR split-apart but someone else's, who will attempt to 'tempt' you away from your mission. It is just the way that things are set up. It is one of those things that is referred to as a 'test of faith' of when you decided that, yes, this is something that you wish to do, Michael will make sure that you get this test of faith. Not to prove to anyone but yourself that you are ready for your mission.

Now, when you were born into this world, or when you walked-in to this world, and you were a member of Michael's Legions, your sword had to be kept in a very protected place for you. It is not necessarily something you wish to keep lying around until you are ready to acknowledge the fact that it is there, so therefore, the safest place for this was where your soul could watch over it... which is your heart. Now, some of you may think, "I have a third dimensional heart, and you're telling me that I have a sword stuck in it?" However you wish to look at this. Some of you, when you grab the hilt of your sword for the very first time, and decide to pull it from your heart, you will swear to the Creator and all of the Heavenly Hosts that you had your hand around the hilt of a third-dimensional sword! You could feel it! That is because it is as much a part of you as anything else is a part of you. It is as much a part of you as your ego, your personality, or your big toe. It is there for you, and it has waited far too long for the hand of it's Master to stroke it, to turn on the Ray of Love that comes out of it.  Michael has seen, in his infinite Wisdom, that since so many have become dreadful of the coming times, it's seems that more and more are walking away from the Light than are walking towards the Light.  Michael, to make sure that all of his Legions awaken to their duty, has sent a 'call'. Now, this call isn't something that you would hear as a 'battle-cry'. It is nothing that you would hear as words. Everyone of the souls of Michael's Legions have a note in their song that belongs to Michael, and he sang this note... which causes your sword to become agitated if it has not been turned on yet. For you see, your sword cannot turn on its light of Love until it is removed from your heart, as it is part and parcel since every member of Michael's Legions wears armor. It is 'etheric' armor, and it is to protect where your 'wings' use to be. For that is a vulnerable spot on some. This is why your sword is to be carried on your back, for your sword, once it's Master's hand touches it, and removes it it from it's hiding place, begins radiating.  And what better place to radiate from than to those that you cannot see because they are behind you? When you see those in front of you, they can tell if you are radiating Love or not, and you KNOW that you are radiating to them at that time also. However, those from behind you are not necessarily blocked by your third dimensional emotions that show on your faces or show from your posture... they just see the LoveForce radiating off of your sword. And it also adds protection to those two little vulnerable areas to where your wings used to be attached. Each and every member of Michael's Legions DID have wings at one point in time or another, so get use to that fact. It is just the way it is.

Pull the base of your palms together, slightly, and symbolically (whether you feel it or not) pull it out... away from your body. Your sword is approximately ten feet long, so you will not be able to pull it ten feet away from your body because none of your arms are that long. It is a sword that follows your command... once you touch it with both of your hands, it does whatever you wish it to do. So, once you pull it out to where your arms are fully extended in front of you, then hold the hilt and ask the sword to 'seal' it's resting heart, it's past hiding place. There will be a hole there, and ask your sword to seal it.  Then, if you wish to admire your sword, you may look at, you may play with it, you may swing it around…just a little bit to get use to it, and then tell your sword that it's new home will be a place across your back... and for it to remain 'active' and 'on'. For, as a member of Michael's Legions, you never know when someone or you, yourself, might need Love or Protection from your sword. Then, if you wish, you may take it in your right hand or your left hand, depending on if you are right or left handed, and you may place it upon your back, and position it in an easy manner for you to quickly grab it if it is needed.  It may remain there, from behind you.  Where it rests in waiting for anytime, may be the Now. The most important step to follow is to thank your sword for still waiting for you after all this time, and still working once it has been pulled out.  Anytime, when in need, you can call on Michael and pull your sword out and turn it on. And then, above all else, thank the Creator for being in attendance, and for giving assistance when called upon.

I know ever since I did this , I carry this sword, I feel it on my back, all the time, it gives me great strength.

A bit more about St. Michaels sword (from 'thetruthseeker.co.uk'  .. coincidence ?....I don't think so..

http://www.thetruthseeker.co.uk/article.asp?ID=2294

and more importantly (or maybe more relevant to your case) this article about 'severing the ties' using the Sword of St. Michael..

http://www.awakenedhearts.com/arcturian7.htm

Blue's Website

  • From: End of the road Arkansas
  • Registered: 2007-08-28

Re: Why don't they leave me alone?

Seeking, My heart hurt as I read your post  It was like reading something I might have said a few years ago.  Those that don't realize that they have been abducted ( and I think it's quite a few) don't understand the mental and emotional hell one goes through trying to make sense of whats happening.
I have been being attacked since 1990 that I can remember, I can't begin to count the number of books and articles I have read trying to find an understanding of why this is happening. As a parent I completely understand your concern for your child, as a father I am supposed to be able to protect my children and would die doing so on the physical level.  Knowing that they too were being abused by powers out of my control added to my frustration (depression), and anger.  For what my opinion is worth my children are now 16 and 19, one in high school the other in college and doing quite well.  I wouldn't wory about the goosebumps books or movies, let your child be as normal as his peers, but gentley guide the spritual side. 
I think Montalk had good advice that a voice activated digital recorder would be worth the investment as it only runs when a noise is made and I plan to buy one today.  As for the other suggestions besides a deep belief in the creator of all take your pick.  I know that on a day to day level if you let this it will consume you with wory, I hope you find your balance with this.  I am still searching for my peace but don't let this overshadow all aspects of my life as I did for awhile.  Don't misunderstand and think that I am compliaent or go along with being abused or used for neferious research, but had to achieve some type of normality for day to day living, and hope you find this for yourself, if I could hand you the answer I would gladly do so but I don't have it and have not found anyone else that does.  I know this really dosen't help much but know you are not alone in your delima and may God bless you and your family.
                                                                  Tinker

  • Registered: 2006-12-02

Re: Why don't they leave me alone?

Blue quoted:

Now, when you were born into this world, or when you walked-in to this world, and you were a member of Michael's Legions, your sword had to be kept in a very protected place for you. It is not necessarily something you wish to keep lying around until you are ready to acknowledge the fact that it is there, so therefore, the safest place for this was where your soul could watch over it... which is your heart. Now, some of you may think, "I have a third dimensional heart, and you're telling me that I have a sword stuck in it?" However you wish to look at this. Some of you, when you grab the hilt of your sword for the very first time, and decide to pull it from your heart, you will swear to the Creator and all of the Heavenly Hosts that you had your hand around the hilt of a third-dimensional sword! You could feel it! That is because it is as much a part of you as anything else is a part of you. It is as much a part of you as your ego, your personality, or your big toe. It is there for you, and it has waited far too long for the hand of it's Master to stroke it, to turn on the Ray of Love that comes out of it.

Blue---hello, and thank you for posting this.  I just this morning got the chance to read it.  I had printed it out yesterday, but then got busy and didn't get to it til today.  I'm a little punchy since I stayed up talking business til 4 this morning.  Strange days indeed...

Anyways, I wanted to comment on the above quote, and especially the bolded part.  When I am reading and thinking, and come across something that I feel a knowing with, it feels like there's pressure and/or tugging right at my heart.  A lot of times, that knowing is not something I want to remember, but the feeling is there nonetheless.  It feels like there's a knife in my heart.  But more than anything, my solar plexus pains me alot.  The center of my back is where my 'twin' is attached, I think.  I'm not sure.  But the sword in the heart thing you quoted sounds familiar. As I was reading your post, the dagger was definitely there, and at the same time, my solar plexus felt funny.  What does that mean?  I thought that my gut instinct was mine.  Now I'm not so sure.

Michael, to make sure that all of his Legions awaken to their duty, has sent a 'call'. Now, this call isn't something that you would hear as a 'battle-cry'. It is nothing that you would hear as words. Everyone of the souls of Michael's Legions have a note in their song that belongs to Michael, and he sang this note... which causes your sword to become agitated if it has not been turned on yet.

I don't know if this is connected, but I have a feeling it might be.  When I went to Shamaness #2 the first time, I stayed at a cottage with hanging flower baskets on the porch. Well, the plants seriously needed some TLC, and since I wasn't doing anything else I decided to deadhead the blossoms and leaves.  So I'm standing out on the porch doing this and I started humming to the plants.  I wasn't humming any certain song or anything; just my own little whatever, which I have done before.  Well this time, when I hit a certain note--it was a lower one, maybe close to the aum sound?--something weird happened. Every time I came back to the note, like the inside of my head started humming. I can't explain it very well, but it was like my voice box and my brain were vibrating.  It was strange, but not bad.  I was literally vibrating. Yeah, that's the closest I can come to a description.  Very odd.  To this day, if I start humming and go to that note, I'll have a slight vibration, but not near as strong as the day that I had just came back from doing shamanistic clearing.

For you see, your sword cannot turn on its light of Love until it is removed from your heart, as it is part and parcel since every member of Michael's Legions wears armor. It is 'etheric' armor, and it is to protect where your 'wings' use to be. For that is a vulnerable spot on some.

That really gave me the chills.  My back hurts right where a set would be located.... Previously during my muscle testing, I happened to be thinking about fallen angel stuff.  The testing indicated that I am not a fallen angel, but I used to be one. I'm pretty sure I'm past that point in my soul evolution.  But my best friend who is the one who appeared in my life to wake me up--I tested that she is a fallen angel now. And guess what? She has the black wings on her back to prove it.  See, she's a dancer and her stage name is Raven. She has a pair of raven wings tattooed on her back.... I haven't told her yet that I think she might be a fallen angel....

I might as well tell ya'll about my palm.  I have taken up palmistry because I am fascinated that there is a blueprint for us in the palm of our hands.  So, I have several different books on the subject.  Fascinating, really.  Anyways, my palm is very interesting.  I have the medical stigmata, which means I'm a healer.  I also have a pagoda on both hands, which is rare.  A pagoda is an amped-up Jacob's ladder.  They believe that people with J. ladders are special in that they are seeking the truth, and may be on their way to ascending.  A pagoda is a jacob's ladder that has angled side rails. They are wider at the bottom and become narrower at the top, like the shape of a pagoda.  The references I've found to this marking says that when they have found someone with a pagoda, they consider themselves to be looking at a near-ascended master, or someone who is on their last round.   And finally, to the left of the pagoda that's on my right hand, there is a ST. George's shield, which is a warrior marking.


Again, thank you for posting this and the links.  You have been a big help, along with our friend zenden.  You know, I've printed out countless 10-25 page long threads from this forum and hadn't gotten to the Stuie thread yet.  Once more, I am being led to the information that I need in the order that I am ready for it.  I am thankful.

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Tinker--Thanks so much for your kind reply, sir..... smile  I'm very sorry that you're also going through this.  This just pisses me off to read, though, and to realize how many countless people have had to deal with this, whether they realize it consciously or not.  It's madness.... sad

Blessings to you and yours, as well.  Take care.

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wow Seeking.  u have been on many minds.  reading ur latest was the coolest--very VERY interesting.  i too put alot of stock into symbols, signs, esoteric meanings and pathways.  finding/realizing things and making connections.  ie the tatoo and the angel wings.  the fallen.  fallen angels.  worked once for the darkside?  have done that, thats for sure.  an officer of the lucerferian forces, ahrimanic army?  maybe.  theres so much for MAYBE.  just lost an entire post so will have to recap.  debated whether to do it or not, re-enter some of the tenets.  LOST TWIN AND VANISHING TWIN syndromes come to mind.  biological events that hold metaphysical esoteric answers/possibilities.  (always good to go biological first, and travel from there, but it will work going the other way around).   ur getting closer all the time.  look at ur moniker.  why did u pick that long ago?  mystery around ur birth?  confusion there?  ur mother holds keys.  what she said to u doesnt fit, unless there is old history on that for some reason.  hybrid?  maybe.  absorbed the other missing sister (Athena) and the soul is speaking to u?  thru u and ur higher self.  sadness?  can be carried within that.  the mystery of ur birth.  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Twinless_twins  check this out.  i had alot more but lost it.  and as i thot earlier--"why get her more riled up into seeking more angles", but then thot.  info to ponder while staying steady.  level.  we know u have no fear.

read up there about ur back, "behind ur back"  comes to mind.  out on a limb.  with the birds laughing.  ur dreams of water.  baptism on ur search.  amniotic fluid.  first baptism by water, then by fire.  raising up like the phoenix, as we know it arises when things are "sick."  finding ur way to self, and self knowledge, destiny thru the flames.  seeking enlightenment  despite interference.  despite adversity.  u have been a warrior and healer, for some time.

http://primal-page.com/twiner.htm 

http://www.associatedcontent.com/articl … e_vts.html

i sent u an email on all this 2 days ago but i think it didnt work.  computer at work is barely configured.  used our sorta "new NR system email" thingy on thursday after posting wrongly on the first page of this thread, wouldnt post right so i doinked on email and submit.  if u got a weird email--its from me.  thinking of u as i have been for days.   dont like to see u distressed at all.  i hated those nighttime visits.  still affects me to this day.  put a stop to it though, long ago, but sleep with one eye open.  40+ yrs of that.  to this day.  refuse to be taken.  never again.  yes, u can say NEVER.  to hell with being prey.  refuse to be hunted.   the hunted becomes the HUNTER.  no one/nothing comes after me now, i go after THEM.  with SWORD.  and wing marks, scars.  and knowledge.  and confidence, once i was ME.  and got that straight.

Lost Twin or Doppelganger?  http://paranormal.about.com/b/a/126353.htm

read 2-3 days ago, thinking of u, and US on NR, in general; and saw that many lost twin survivors are healers, and dabble in the metaphysical arts.  still trying to find that specifically, again. 

read the angle from the parent's POV here.  guilt is big in here, from both angles--"survivor" and parent.  ie...mother  http://www.twinlesstwins.org/TwinGrief/ … fault.aspx

"Perhaps most peculiar of all in this phenomenon, is that sometimes the surviving twin has issues with relationships, loss, depression and anger; issues that are all commonly associated with the loss of someone close to us."

happy happy--found it!!!   ka-frickin' ching   http://ezinearticles.com/comment.php?Th … p;id=99747

The Vanishing Twin Syndrome
By Denice Moffat

The Vanishing Twin Syndrome is personified by certain personality characteristics, gestational features and spiritual lessons. There is a higher incidence of this syndrome in healers. The theory is that if they could not save their own twin, their destiny is to dedicate themselves to saving others in the world. Do you have a vanishing twin?
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holy of holies on THAT one!!!  had to get THIS to YOU today.  know u are loved, and protected, on ur journey.  wont belittle the point, but check out the article attached up there at that link.   wooooo.  gave me a lil' chill.  good info.  take care on all this, as u are doing.  we are with u.  its safe here, as much has been revealed, all around and the mysteries we have had to contend with keep coming to light, as the OLD world, and all the stuff we have "carried" FALLS awaaaaaayyyyy.

GNOTHI SEAUTON "Know Thyself!"

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The Mighty Zenden wrote:

i had alot more but lost it.

Z, there are a lot of good tools on the interweb, for cutting and pasting stuff you find eg Google NoteBook

You copy the page you are interested in , and it is there (when you sign in to Google), to cut and paste into wherever.

http://www.google.com/notebook/

However... my personal favourite is Scribefire (if you use Mozilla), No log in, just lightning fast pull up from your status bar icon, cut paste, carry on surfing.

*** https://addons.mozilla.org/en-US/firefox/addon/1730 ***   (*** = do it)

Sorry to waylay the fred, it's just that I know how frustrating it is when you see something and mislay it, these two, (scribefire preferentially) are a godsend.

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that's my dear Blue.  he knows.  yes indeed.  u really know dontcha.  im so bass ackward with the new stuff.  i knew there was a better way.  consider it done.  just downloaded it.  that whole dumb old fashioned Win 98 clipboard mess was always a joke.  sometimes i dont post cool stuff at all. cause its Work.  sometimes too damn lazy to open up a second browser and go back and forth.  man, its work.  and if i dont, i go back and forth and all over in one browser window going, well, that left and where's that now when im posting in our box.  sometimes have to start all over and not in the mood, after losing it traveling back and forth.  have posts on the mind for days.  dont carry thru secondary to the exact problem u noticed.  thank YOU my dear friend.

GNOTHI SEAUTON "Know Thyself!"