Anyone else having ear problems right now? Other strange experiences? (Page 3 of 5)

This is so interesting!  A little over a month ago I had one of the bumps you guys are talking about, too.  It was also on the back of my left ear.  Here's a pic that shows how huge and disgusting it was (tis gross) - and I took that on March 17th.  By that time the bump had grown very large but it was there at least a couple weeks before that just as a small, hard, barely detectable bump.  I think after I put something on it (some type of oil or face mask, who knows) that's when it blew up.  It also felt hot, uncomfortable - obviously... and just foriegn and weird compared to the type of blemishes I usually get.  In fact I've never had anything like it.  I'm pretty amazed to hear so many others had something sorta similar. 

After reading this thread I realize my ear tones have also seemed a little different as of late.  I respond to them differently, normally I would just casually observe them, but they seem to be generating a different feeling for me lately.  It's hard to explain but I'm going to start paying closer attention to it.  I just recall lately a few times the.. hm frequency? of the tones has gotten my attention in a different way, and I even remember kinda holding my head on both sides a few times after noticing the strangeness of the tones.  They also seem longer, or... hm I'm not sure.

The April 13th negative shift things is ringing possibly true for me too.  I haven't experienced nosebleeds or physical symptons like that but I had something strange happen that day that has been having a big effect on my state of my mind since.  I'm definitely gonna looking for other physical effects now though!

I thought maybe I was just going even more crazy than before. Starting on the 13th, I have been an emotional mess. For three days straight, all I could do was cry. Every day. Thinking that I was losing my mind. I was so depressed. Just thinking about how f*cked up the world is and how I feel so helpless to effect a change. So I cried and cried and hoped to find an answer.  Then I came here and read what Tom (montalk) said about negs coming in stronger starting on that day (I think he mentioned that on the Virginia shootings thread). I swear, that has to be it!! My ears have been buzzing off the hook. Mostly just the normal low-pitch ring that I have when I'm reading about intense stuff. But lately, usually in the middle of that ring, another will come and it takes over the first tone. It's very loud and high-pitched. I don't know what they mean. I think the low pitch ring has to do with my awakening, and the high pitch one....well, I haven't figured out if it's a type of listening of my thoughts going on, or maybe it could be THEM making it happen thru waves/sounds/whatever.

I read on one of SiriArc's thread somewhere about a hum. I've been getting that in the past couple weeks also. It's very low pitch, not a ring. There is definetely something going on. I can feel it all around me.

Maybe the rings and hums aren't a part of the STS program for us. Since most of the NR folks have the same thing going on, I'm beginning to wonder if it's not some other source that has to do with all of us awakening and preparing for the next wave. Maybe they're trying to get us all on the same track to attune to whatever is coming.

All I know is that it feels like shit is hitting the fan. The birds, the bees, the shootings. It's all culminating to a head.

The worst part (for me) is that I'm basically alone. Trying to deal with this with only the help and information of the fine people on this forum. Everything really sucks right now. I'm trying to keep my head above water, but it sometimes feels like I could drown at any moment. Just one wrong move...I'm trying so hard to find something good to keep me from going under. Every day I struggle and look for happiness, but it's so damn hard.  And by being sad and confused, I'm letting them get the upper hand. They're so smooth, and there's so much going on in the world that it's easy to get depressed about it. So I am taking it one emotion at a time. Wondering if there's anything that can be done. Is this how it has to be? Is this the planet of sorrow? Is there no changing it because that's just the way it is? Can anything be changed? Can I make change by myself? Can I use the LOA to help? I just want to help and I don't know how. I don't know what to do or where to go....

Sorry to be such a downer, guys...

Ears are tuning forks? You know what I do when I get down? I watch Mystery Science Theater 3000. It is a happy pill. Try it.

http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=mst3k

Don't bother trying to fix the world on your own or feel you are responsible for it. I've been through that. It sucks and it's great at the same time. Let it be. Try and find your bliss. Don't focus so very much on the negative when it comes your way feel it but don't get caught by it. If you get caught and that's all you see or tune into well they got you!

I’ve had some sleeping issues lately.  Last weekend it was all I could do to stay awake.  This week it’s all I can do to fall asleep at night, although last night was better.  And a couple days ago my kid's nose started bleeding out of the blue while she was doing her homework.  She’s not prone to nosebleeds.

PS - There you are, Seeking! (or should I call you Hiding? )  Bob called and left a message while you were out, so here you go :

Yo, I love you guys.  I was prompted to offer up the following.  A lil pep talk if you will.  Now, I know I'm in no position to say **** to anyone but I really do love you guys and I say it because of that.  So if you feel me then let it flow.  If not, just say no. 

Forget the negs for a minute.  This ain't about them.  It's about YOU.  Each of you.  The massive energy waves are coming faster and stronger now.  It's clearing out the old heavy energy within us.  I had one of those uncontrollable crying spells earlier this week as some of this latent inner muck was surfacing to be transduced.  So cheer up fellow gods.  The old system must fall apart before a new one can be born.  The desparate last attempts of the dark are pretty well nothing in the face of what must be.

Now don't me wrong here.  I don't see positive outer changes either.  Because there is none.  99% of humans are still clinging to our old system (I still do to an extent).  It's the inner that is important.  Vibrate to that place you want to be at.  Want to ascend out of here?  Think about what an ascended master would do in each of your daily situations.  What would be their thoughts?  Become that master that you are.  It's all about the inner.  If there's one thing that spans all trully spiritual texts it's "concentrate on the inner".  That's the narrow gate.  You are the gate to the next realm.  Vibrate there.  Take each lifeform in on and around this planet into your heart.  That's all we can really do.  It's not our place to take away their catalysts for growth.

Come on my fellow gods.  We can do it.  We can vibrate our pink asses to a new realm.  All the answers on how to do it have been given.  Ask for the understanding.  Ask for it with every fiber of your being.  It is always given to those that trully ask and are able to receive.  Ask and be open.  Look intensely for any sign of a finer vibrational energy and then focus your attention on it.  Do whatever it takes.

Anyway, my ultra high pitch ear ringing or whine or whatever is pretty much the same intensity as it's been for awhile.  It's a good thing I learned to tune stuff off back in school or it could get really annoying.  It's pretty much been a constant in my life for about 2 years now.  Sometimes moves to the left side but mostly on the right.  99% of anytime I think to listen for it, it's there.

Well, about the other above stuff.  Sorry for off-topicing the thread.  I know you guys are going to make it.  You are the fringe of the fringe.  You are the realists.  The special forces if you will.  You are the world healers.  And when you can't help others you feel worthless.  Now think about how freaking spiritual that is and rejoice.  If you can hold your inner peace, inner light, and unconditional love in this dark time then you can walk through the lower layers of hell without breaking a sweat.  What dark force could stand in the face of that?  None I tells ya.  None at all.

I understand what you're talking about, Seeking.  The first time I had one of those crying "episodes" was back in 1995.  I also thought I was losing my mind.  In the middle of the morning at work one day, I just felt this overwhealming despair and tragic sadness.  The desire to weep was insurmountable.  I tried to fight it, but I had to literally run to the washroom every 5 minutes to not make a scene in the office.  Talk about the ultimate "ugly cry".  It felt as though I was weeping for all of earth's tragedies, feeling the pain and sacrifice of all the past, present and future events all at once, and helpless to do anything about it.   I felt (and somehow internally "saw") the inevitable destiny of the world and the aftermath of events. 

Around the same time, when I'd be driving home, I'd see this "overlay" of the  possible future landscape superimposed onto the actual land  and buildings.  It looked as though there had been some kind of war or disaster, and there were no people left, only blown-apart, crumbling houses and dried, cracking earth, and the entire sky and landscape were covered by a reddish sort of haze.  I really thought I was going insane!  I mentioned what I'd seen to  my best friend in a phone conversation at the time, and she blurted out what a relief it was to know that she wasn't the only one,  because she'd seen the same type of thing  when she was driving to or from work sometimes too, and she thought she was going crazy!   (And she's not really a believer of such things, either.)

Nothing ever "happened" to fulfill these "premonitions", though, and I chalked it up to stress induced tricks my own mind was playing on me.  But now, I'm thinking that we just narrowly avoided a catastrophic fate back in 1995.  There  must have been a change in the timeline, and we were fine... up until now, that is.

About 2 months ago, I had another "episode" of crying, and it just came out of nowhere.  I had gotten a bit angry about something totally unrelated, and had worked myself up a bit over it.  (Y'know when you get so mad that you talk to yourself under your breath and stuff)  And all of a sudden, I just busted out crying, and I do mean "busted out"... it was one of those massive "ugly cries".  I immediately thought I'd finally "snapped" because they say that having strong emotional outbursts that aren't appropriate to a given situation is a sign of various psychological maladies.  The only thing was, though, that any trace of anger I had before was completely gone and replaced again with the feelings and thoughts that had accompanied the crying episodes back in '95 (and those weren't "triggered" by anything)!  I sat there, bawling, and  absolutely stunned and scared out of my mind, knowing that whatever this was, it did not originate from me, and I couldn't "control" it.  It was like when they break into television programs for "Breaking News" (except,  there was no voice in my head that said, "We apologize for interrupting your normally scheduled  program...")  I think some people who are more sensitive to picking up certain frequencies must accidentally(?) tap into some kind of information that becomes "active" in our little "matrix" world.  Well, that's just one theory, anyway. 

I really have no idea what it actually is or means.  But I can tell you, Seeker, that you're not the only one, and I doubt that you're going crazy.  If you are, then so are a bunch of other people (who you don't "know"), because we're all going crazy in the same ways at the same times.  All we can do is try to hang onto what sanity we have left,  and to try and keep our chins up and our hearts and minds focused on intending the best possible outcome for the future of us all.

That's possible too.  I wonder if it might not be a kind of "test tone" to sort of tune us individually to the appropriate frequency.  (I keep getting the image again of the TV test tone, "This is a test.  This is only a test.   If it were an actual emergency, this tone would be followed by instructions....")  Wanna hear one even weirder?  (This started about 6mo's-1yr ago)...Occassionally, when I'm near something (like my dad's old computer and huge CRT monitor) that gives off big EMF field (and I guess it must be a particular frequency, as well), I actually hear what sounds like a radio talk show, but the voices are too far away to  make out what is actually being said!  I know how crazy that sounds,  but it doesn't happen all the time, and the first time I heard it, I thought that someone had left the radio or TV on in the other room, but when I checked, everything was off!   I didn't say anything to anyone because I thought I must have just imagined it.  But a few weeks later, my dad told me that he thought I'd left the radio or TV on one night (because he'd heard the same exact thing), but when he'd gone to check, everything was off, too!  We joked about our dental fillings picking up Oprah, and also about "implants gone wild" and stuff,  but we both agree that if we start actually hearing something clear (like instructions of some sort), we're goingg to check ourselves into a nice padded suite! LOL!

Buck up, brave camper!  We all came here, at this particular time in history, to make it through to the end (whatever that may bring).  Remember, it's always darkest before the dawn.  There's nothing that the "bad guys" would love more than to take out as many of us as they can when we're in our most vulnerable "transitionary" moments.  Just remember that there are more than a few of us out there, and we're all pulling towards the same happy ending, leaning on each other when things get "muddy".  There's going to be plenty of sunshine right after the big storm.  We just have to remember to hold on and not get swept away in it.