Topic: My transcendental Aya expreience
OK, where to start. I think I will be going over some stuff that I already covered in the Ayahausca visions post but here goes.
My experience with ayahausca was one those things that can't be conveyed using words. I entered states where I couldn't understand the concept of linear time, where I laughed at the absurdity of our concept of past and future, were I was unable to distinguish whether I was the person full of Ayahausca laying on the beach, or the memories I was traveling through, or even if I was my parents. I would try and discover who I was and each time I would notice that I was more. Until I realized that I was the whole universe and everything in it.
I saw and understood the aspects of the matrix. I saw multidimensional beings in the sky. I saw the world built of florescent pulsating eyes. I saw beings sitting around me on a deck who were not really there. I saw these human like entities beckon to me through a tear in reality that entered into another dimension. I went to a place that I call the fringe reality. It is the border between this reality of logic and consequence and the reality of total chaos. In the fringe reality there were fairys, and elves and fairy tale creatures, and it must have been in a 4th dimensional reality because the arrangement of things does not make sense to me now.
Through most of these journeys I remember being absolutely terrified, and knowing I could never return to my life talking about houses, and baseball and girls if I remembered what I had seen with any detail. I remember cycling through my fears, like what if I go crazy and I answered my self "It doesn't f*&^ing matter". What if I get fired by my job? "It doesn't f*&^ing matter" In this place an absolute realization of the pointlessness of our day to day worries was astoundingly apparent. Why do I say this? Because at one point I remembered being eternal and how things used to be, to where the life I live now was so distance from my thoughts I almost forgot I ever lived this life.
I am fairly sure that "DMT" opens up your third eye. And by opening up your third eye, I mean allow the soul, or mind outside of the body. It makes sense to me that the turning off of the third eye was the fall of man. It was when man lost it's connection to the infinite and began believing it was the human creature that it inhabited. This is when we became fair game for all the other entities that feed off of us. With your third eye open you can see them right in front of your face, taunting you prodding you, angry that you can see them. They are really nasty devils and their presence is just awful feeling. The feeling of them is the feeling of panick. Like the external energy of a panic being forced upon you.
Unless you find a way to naturally turn on your third eye, this experience seems to be the best thing you can do to understand those things you've read about but just don't make sense to your simple human brain. It's because as long as your limited by the thinking power of your brain it becomes impossible to see multidimensionality. A very interesting thing I noticed is that how everything that was seen during the trip was slowly forgotten as you came down because I was no longer capable of comprehending what I saw. I came away with an absolute terror but a genuinely good feeling at the memory of the wonders outside of this place. All the creativity has been sucked out of our human experience. It really is dismal in comparison. Having your third eye is like being able to experience any story or concept rather then to watch it premanfuactured and sterilized on a telivision.
A nice little catch phrase I came back with: "Our minds do not exist inside this universe, the universe exists within our minds" By mind I do not mean brain, and by our I mean Gods, of whom we are all a part, everything in existence is of one being and there is nothing that is not.
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