Topic: Was I manipulated/ lured into my old house?
As any of you who have read my house closing post may know, I've moved into a new house. I don't know if I've posted about this before, but my old house was just evil. I've come to believe it held a portal, and it for sure had very dark, depressing energy. Now that I'm in my new, vibrant house, it's become clear just how depressing that other house was. I know that a manic/ depressive woman lived there for years before we did. I also found some strange symbol etched lightly into the doorway to the bedroom. Was it for protection? Or was it a curse drawn in a manic state? I guess I'll never know, but there's something strange beyond the house itself.
Why did I choose it? Why? When I first started telling my husband I HAD to get out of that house about a year and a half ago, he thought I was being flighty. He reminded me that I had picked that house, and that I had been excited about it. I thought he was exaggerating how enamored I had been with the house. But yesterday, my Mom was saying, "Yeah, your Daddy and I couldn't understand why you'd been so in love with that house when you moved in." Whaaaa???? I tried to think back, and I vaguely remember saying great things about it, but I can't remember the feeling. I thought I only chose that house because it was really cheap for so much room, but other people around me are telling me something different.
This isn't like me. I normally remember every emotion associated with things. Also, choosing that house has caused me and the people around me to question my judgment. I usually make good, sound decisions, that even if I regret later I see why I made them. Now, to be fair, some really important things happened in that house. Living in the darkness caused me to SEE the darkness. While living there I saw things that made me question the light'n love mindset I'd had for years. I started reading about aliens and negative beings, I discovered NR, I sought out and became friends with Barbara Bartholic. I have changed. I don't think any of these things would have happened had I not been plunged into the darkness.
I've come to the conclusion that I must have been in a daze when I made the decision to move into that house. The question is, who was pulling the strings? Was it negative forces? Was I drawn to the dark portal in the house? Did my higher self direct me there so that I could have unpleasant experiences that forced me to look further into reality? Was I called there by positive beings to help heal the place in some small way? If the influence was negative in nature, did it backfire?
Maybe I'll never know. But has anyone else ever had this happen-- had your good judgment seemingly hijacked, leaving you later thinking, WTF?