Topic: Hostile Dream Manipulation.
I'm concerned I may have been 'fed on' whilst in a dream state. Last night I was having a dream where I was speaking to my sister, whom I haven't seen or spoken with for nearly 12 years due to a huge falling out. The feeling was tense as I was aware of my waking state animosity towards her, then she suddenly said the worst thing she could possibly say to me (in connection to the real life fall out) and I flipped. She wouldn't stop taunting me so I began hitting her and then held her head under the water in the kitchen sink in an attempt to scare her into shutting up. When I let her up again her face had changed to a black & slightly demonic appearance and she head-butted me (good for her some may say!). At that point I half woke up (awake and seeing but with eyes closed and not fully aware of my physical body) and I sensed a towering figure standing next to my bed and leaning slightly over me. The figure was completely black and I was gripped by a distinct sense of evil. I felt scared but luckily managed to will myself awake in what seemed like a split second.
I went back to sleep and some time later I was awoken from another dream by the sensation of having been punched in the face. There was no pain but I felt the 'wham' and 'what the hell was that?' reaction to being punched from a blindside position. This has occured a few times over the past month or so, although it was usually the sensation of having been lightly tapped on the head.
However it is the former which concerns me more. Is it possible for my dreams to be manipulated into leading me to extremes of emotion such as fear or red-mist rage, upon which the emotions can be fed off as in real life? This also happened to me a few years ago over a period of several consecutive days, although it was initially far more terrifying than last night. Looking back now it is easy to see how that situation was a definite feeding opportunity.
So, what can I do to either avoid such interence or combat it when it occurs? Perhaps it's just my negative thought patterns attracting such things, so I need to work harder on myself and upgrade?
What is interesting is that earlier in the night (last night) I woke up after having another dream with no recollection of any details except for having heard a voice give me the following advice: 'a fraction of courage can dispell fear', or something very similar.
I've heard the official line about sleep paralysis inducing hallucinations and feelings of fear, etc, but I don't buy it. It was as real as someone standing next to me right now, but that said I'm open to new ideas as to what may have happened.
Perhaps at this point I should add that I'm not prone to acts of violence either against family members or anyone else for that matter!;)
'You are here for no other purpose than to realise your inner divinity and manifest your innate enlightenment' - Morihei Ueshiba (Founder of Aikido).