Re: War In Heaven
this is a direct quote from a posting done by zarg and it is an excellent post that SiriArc just mentioned.
"BTW, healers have to learn that not all illnesses are healable, nor are they to remove the illness w/o the patient learning, accepting and overcoming the cause of the illness. The illness may be a way of getting that soul’s attention so that they begin to search for healing – which means seeking answers and a change in attitude (energy), and a re-alignment of self with Self, the One. When the soul has gotten the ‘message’ from their illness, internalized the ‘lesson’ it brought, the illness usually disappears – its purpose is done. Irresponsibly (too quickly) removing a person’s ‘lessons’ means you now have karmic ties to be resolved with that person… not only will they be revisited with their illness, but you as the ‘meddling’ healer also need a lesson." well--its gotta be in that ill tell ya...
yeah, well, well yeah, and starling==heres the real dilemma. try seeing anywhere from 40 to 80 ppl in a dirty indigent clinic, in dowtown slum CA town, with bums in the parking lot begging for money, while theyre lined up in the lobby 50-70 deep at any moment from 7AM til 7PM, about 5 ppl speak english and most havent seen a healer for yrs, cant read or write, much less tell u their symptioms which r in folk lanquage terms, its pitiful. some have tumors the size of grapefruits, are pregnant, have diabetes so bad their blood sugars are in the 500's (blindness at 700, coma around there and at 600, etc) and the ER doesnt want em either, and yeah, im going as fast as i can, and with as much energy to diagnose and fix as fast and strong as i can, and when im done with them theres 30 more to see in one more hour, cause were gonna close. yeah, ill take all the help i can get. try touching 40-80 ppl a day, and doing it edgar cyce style and u have me, in a nutshell. yes, me, just me. im dancing as fast as i can. i could puke when ppl talk about healing. i work miracles all alone, one by one, it about kills me tho, and why do i do it? i dunno anymore, the key to the "ME" is in that. but thanks for the suggestion.
try to tell the woman in the lobby from quatemala with the screaming kids that it'll be good for her to learn her lessons. yeah--try it. its all wrapped in this, i feel it. its the suffereing of the world i see. im saturated in it. i know enuf now tho that to have anything left of me, that i cant do it but a few days here and there. i see them one time, in less than 5 minutes and i find the reason behind their shit in seconds, that other ppl have been seeing them for for yrs, all left uncured/unfixed. dont think tho its over then, cuz they DONT WANNA HEAR the "truth" from me, yet what to do about it. its a mess. im so much better off at home and going on here, yet i am called to do it and i do dearly love it, but oh my god. didnt mean to bitch, but im in the fuckin trenches. for real, and i come out/up bloody and stinking each and every time. theyre the he aint heavy brothers, dontcha know. shit. maybe one of those transducing empaths, no wonder my gut is so huge, its all in there that ive agreed to take on from others? i was told that once (look up zarg's old wanderer and walk-in posts.
so im a medical intuitive with a real f'in license, a f'in BUNCH of em with every advanced degree to match, and i cant stand doin it for living half the time, big deal. (u could give it ur all but if u know better, u wont, u just cant. its worse than vampirism, the irresponsibility of ppl and their resistance persists. they will devour every drop of energy /strength to stay sick if u let them, the neediness is so thick, so incredible, so astounding, i curl up and sleep and forget. i cant do too many more service cycles, im tellin ya. i have paid my dues this time and more before. i want the F outta here...)
so the deal is and starcat even said it--we...I NEED concrete real deal ways of practicing opening "the escape routes" the transduction, the thoughtforms to have, to DO, to energize, we need to come up with these im tellin ya. i got some off those 2 sites i spoke about and will have to go to reality checkpoint as i said. lets get this going somehow, more specifically than ever. so its back to the trajectory thread then...im tired of ID'ing the enemy. lets do something different with em!

