Okay!
Did the date with SallyD. I had about a gram of 10x 'incense' - enough for five doses. Thank you to my good friend who gave it to me!
Let a few friends try it before I did. None of us had done it before. I showed up at my friends around 12 midnight, they had been drinking beers, I had a couple beers before we decided to initiate the session. We used a regular sized glass water bong. Here's how it went.
First I let Bo try. All I told him was what I had heared - take two hits, hold it in as long as you can but not so long that you don't have time to take the second hit before it 'hits' you. I asked him if he wanted to place any 'stipulations' on what I would and wouldn't 'let' him do after it hit him. He told me no except to not let him go outside. He understood there was a possibility for 'exit' and a possibility he might move his body without full 'coherence' thereby possibly doing something harmful to himself or his surroundings. I acted as his 'sitter'. And we all understood someone may need to take the bong from him or make sure he dosen't drop it. Loaded him up with a couple hits. He opened up the chamber and flooded it with more smoke than he could take in so he just held what he had and covered it. Let that out and finished the rest. Don't think he really held in the second at all because shortly after hitting it the second time he 'popped' and spit up a bit. We took it from him he layed back on the couch. He began to laugh and then would stop laughing and begin again. We all watched him silently: Frank and I standing in front of the couch, Bubba sitting next to him. Bo looks at us and proclaims, "What the #&$% is going on here!?" About this time Frank made a hand gesture around his head and proclaimed, "Aliens . ! . " Bo was semi-coherent in his presence, I could tell because his attention would 'vere' off and back again, he would talk to us briefly and then trail off again . . . He stood up and started looking all around the room like WTF and he was asking us, "What the #&$% are you guys doing!?" When he stood up he acted a bit dizzy and even looked like he might fall through the window beside him so I came closer to steady him but he caught himself and stepped into the room and began looking around, into the dark dining room, we all watched him - he seemed very confused like he was utterly perplexed about what was going on. He may have proclaimed something like, "you mother#&$%ers!" He was looking at us like there was something very wrong and I told him, "It's okay, it's cool" He went into the doorway to the lighted bedroom past the wall in front of the couch and looked inside asking, "What the #&$% is going on in here!?" he went and smacked the wall with his hand and layed into it before he turned back and towards the front door to go outside. I let him open the door as he would, knowing I would watch him closely but that he would be fine. He stepped into the doorway and looked outside and then stood in the doorway looking sideways before coming back inside and walking through the darkened dining and into the lighted kitchen. I followed and he turned around, came back and began talking to us as he was beginning to return. He said that it was, "#&$%ed up" and that he could still feel it in him but that he was starting to 'come out'.
Bo said later that what happened to him was that he felt everything shift and slowly bounce off to the lower left and go, "whoh-whoh-whoh-whoh" then to his left he saw the veil of reality where _this_ reality ended and on the other side of the veil was only darkness but not even darkness but just a 'void' of nothingness. (so he had to go investigate the darker dining area where he had seen this veil of reality) That there was a condition of reality he found undesirable and that this condition led him to go outside and look to see if it was the same out there - he was looking for relief, not from the inside but from reality itself.
Then we lit up Bubba after he asked us a few questions about it. He took his two and layed back on the couch. He began laughing almost immediately, first thing he said was, "Legos baby" Then he continued laughing and proclaimed "All I know is all I saw was shopping carts and legos" and "I don't wanna get up off the couch" and "I can't get up off the couch" The after a minute he got up and walked around started talking to us like he was coherent again. The inference was that he had seen everything in reality put together like blocks or legos.
At this point I wasn't entirely sure I would even do it myself but Frank was like, "Your turn!" So I decided it would be pretty silly to just watch them and not participate since I knew I wouldn't really have a true 'benchmark' unless I did.
I didn't really prepare myself at all. I had had a couple beers and I was fairly relaxed - all I did was take a deep breath before I smoked. My first hit was half the bowl - I held it in for only about 12 seconds before blowing it out and taking the second. I knew about how fast it would hit me from watching the others. After the second I put it down and layed back on the couch and closed my eyes. Right then it hit me and I felt myself drifting up and away - not really drifting but _traveling_, away from this reality. I felt a spiral within my own conciousness and I felt it as being vertical, perpendicular to my spine, going up, out and away. By closing my eyes I had begun to let go of myself and this was the natural direction she sent me - along this path of my own conciousness. When I felt that my entire being (my conciousness and everything else in this reality) was being spiraled out and away from my body I felt that there would be some possibility that I would never return (at the beginning of this spiral I realized that I was percieving my own conciousness as being the same thing as this entire reality - this was why it was both myself and this reality that was 'spiraling out') My conciousness was imploding into itself and at the same time spiraling up, out and away. This was a little scary so I opened my eyes and had to 'catch' myself in 'mid spiral'. I had to 'straighten myself out' through my own will power. I resisted the spiral by making myself straighten back out in the opposite direction of the spiral. Then, with open eyes, I looked straight ahead and saw the room I was in but I was a little bit 'bigger' than myself. I was still feeling myself as being _everything_ in my reality which included all matter - the house, furniture, everything. But what I saw was that reality (being physical matter we were in) was all completely and continuously being divided by 'lines' of percieved connection (or division). These lines 'came from' the left and 'moved' naturally to the right (of my perception) and they were all flat and thin 'surfaces' (each laying flat, perpendicular to the floor) dividing reality itself. Within these lines was a thin 'light of nothingness'. I understood that what I was percieving was only matter and that IT WAS 'NOT REAL' but only a 'form' of ourselves. I knew that the real 'us' (our conciousness) was not physical matter and I even thought of the whole world as mere toys. Now, when I percieved these 'lines', it was something undesirable - BEING IN THIS PHYSICAL REALITY was something undesirable. I had a flash of knowing which felt like a feeling of 'community' with physical reality and a knowing that physical reality was just something we created. I felt that the lines might cause me harm in some way and so I wanted to _remove_ myself from or escape intersection with the lines. So I got up off the couch and walked to another part of the room while trying to avoid the lines but the lines intersected everything (all matter in the reality, including our bodies) so I quickly realized that it's all connected and that there would be no escape by merely moving my body anywhere. But the lines were still there and interstecting me and everything and I began to fear that I would never return to 'normal'. So, in search of relief, I returned to the couch and burried my head in the pilow beside me - it felt slightly comfortable but I still wasn't 'back' and was still feeling the lines and the 'twisting off of reality' feeling. That whole time my conciousness felt a bit 'swirved' in the direction of the spiral like as if I hadn't completely straightened myself. Pretty sure I got up again after that and went walking into the next room and into the dining so as to examine physicality and it's intersecting lines but my perception of the lines had begun to fade. I still felt pretty woozy but I soon began talking very fast to my friends about what it was that had happened.
I knew that none of us had achieved 'break through' but was pretty sure I would have if I had not resisted the spiral. I was sinking into an abyss within my own conciousness. The 'route' was within my 'center' but it felt like it was leading into another dimension and that I would not return. In retrospect, I feel like I could have been fairly certain that I would have returned. But in that moment I was certain that I would never return had I followed the spiral. It felt like it would have been death. Not painful but just a removal wherein I would have lost all perception and knowledge of the 'me' that was my body in physical reality.
Now, eight hours later, I feel my perception has changed forever. There can be no doubt now that my conciousness is a spiral through infinity and into this physical reality.
I am as is Void.