Neomatrix wrote:Greetings all,
I haven't posted here in quite a while, so I figured it was high time for me to make an appearance. This thread is of particular interest to me, because it hits on several issues that I've spent the last several months contemplating, and admittedly I'm not getting very far along with any of it. Zarg makes some interesting comments and observations, although with such arrogant assertion that I sense a belief system is being defended somewhere along the way. Still, it provides a strong catalyst for meaningful debate.
For the last several months I appear to have been suffering from a general disillusionment with any and all things "new age" and/or "woo-woo". Due to the sheer volume of information now available, both on the web and in print, it is becoming harder and harder to sort the wheat from the chaff, as it were. My ability to discern fact from fiction, information from disinformation, sense from nonsense, seems to be at an all time low, resulting in such high degrees of frustration for me that I've all but lost interest in making any attempt. I seem to end up spinning my wheels for nothing, and getting caught up in endless contradictions and cross-theories. Calls to simply '"go with whatever resonates for me" are usually nothing more than a license to simply take whatever information fits best into my existing belief system, rather than an unbiased way towards the ever elusive truth. The old questions still remain, and the only thing that I know for sure is that I know bugger all.
Is this world a prison? Or is it a spiritual school? Are we being held here only by layers of well placed deception and manipulation, both on the physical and non-physical levels, or is there some purpose to our being here at this time? Is the world really controlled by reptilians from another dimension, or is this all just another smokescreen designed to steer us in the wrong direction? How much of this reality am I responsible for creating, and how much of it (if any) can I actually change? All these and more are questions that I cannot answer myself, and those that would profess to answer such questions for me I no longer trust to tell the truth (whether by willful deception or ignorant misinformation).
It seems like anyone, even somewhat intelligent folks like Zarg, can say absolutely anything these days and pass it off as the unequivocal truth without offering the slightest bit of evidence to back it up. This is most frustrating, especially for someone like myself who possesses an engineer's mind and thus demands some semblance of evidence to back up lofty claims. Let's start with sourcing our information for starters. If you think that Stuart Wilde, David Icke, or Neale Donald Walsh are not worth listening to, then at least offer some explanation as to why you think this is so. Simply stating that something is "crap" doesn't help anyone here to decide whether this is so for themselves.
Still, I sometimes feel that investing so much thought into these matters is nothing more than intellectual navel gazing. As we sit here pondering and reflecting upon these things, the world outside continues to go to hell in a handbasket. More wars, more debt, more poverty, more suffering, more taxes, more "terrorism", more corruption, more lies, more controls, more bullshit. Everyone that I speak to nowadays seems to be tired, disillusioned and pissed off - myself included. When I look towards the future I see only the inevitability of our present unsustainable society's collapse. There is so much writing on the wall I can no longer see the bricks.
And everything feels completely messed up to me right now. The things that once mattered no longer seem to hold any relevance or importance, and I'm finding it harder to motivate myself towards being even remotely sociable. I would consider the possibility that I am merely depressed, except for the fact that I am not particularly down or unhappy. But it feels now as if the world is splitting in two, and I am not entirely sure which one I am living within. A part of me is still attracted to the old ways of living and working, perhaps because it's all I've ever known in this lifetime, but the other, larger part of me finds it all quite mundane and repulsive.
Perhaps Zarg is right in some of the things he's said. Perhaps we are right now in the 4th density of conscious experience upon this planet, but are being held back by those who would maintain an illusion of 3rd density for their own selfish benefit. Perhaps that's why everything feels wrong, or feels like it's splitting in two. Perhaps we are occupying two worlds: one that is being born, and another that is dying? An interesting possibility.
That's all for now.
Hmmm...
I've always been interested in the mysteries of "Why it All Is?" and have become even more so as time has gone on, and as I move through different patterns/stages of life. I've been blessed with a lot of growth, (which I define as the length of time you revolve in where you realize that everything you know is wrong, and you need to find a new way...) and as a result, I've found that some things help in these sorts of transitions. The problem posting is that I go heavy with intuition, so most of the things I use are strictly individualized internal works, and are very difficult to translate.
I think that it started when I began to ask "why?" I know that at a very early age that something was definitely not "right" with the world, and I seem to have been born with this silly compulsion to find out why. Somewhere along my journey, I figured out the "why" but quickly became overwhelmed, since having figured out the problem, attempting to find a solution while trapped in this form seemed unlikely. This seems to be where you're stuck right now.
To be perfectly honest, I don't read that much and I haven't read any of the authors mentioned here, and only have knowledge of the Wave, Ra, and the Casseopians from online sources, so my apologies if what I'm saying has already been said. I don't come from any particular faith/religion, (as I was raised outside of my indigenous culture) and my exposure to different faiths has been unequal, but I've always been able to discern out what I know to be true and accept it while discarding the rest. My ability to do this has improved over time, and I attempt to apply this with all things.
Critical in this is an internal establishment of enlightened principles. This is very hard to describe in concrete details, but the simple breakdown is to treat others the way you'd like to be treated. Conscience and compassion are also essential, but so is restraint in realizing that some situations/people just need to run their course. Time is an illusion, but energy and intent are known and quantifiable. These are things that you'll have to figure out for yourself, but remember that sometimes the best way to find the path is by accident, when all other ways have failed. Later you'll see how it wasn't really an accident, just a difference in how you saw it than before.
Each person will come to their own conclusions in time, but my own understanding is that this world could be seen as both a spiritual learning site AND a prison planet. The reality isn't as important as making it work for you is. As for the Lizzies running the show, even if it was true (which it isn't) it would only be in a limited, transitory way. The reality is that humans already possess the tools and could free themselves right now, but we're impeaded by STS interference and internal stupidity generated in this world by the yet-untreated social diseases of greed and fear.
There are other factions out there, some of which make the Lizzies look like small fish in a BIG pond. What they don't want you to know is that each human is a divine being that exists far beyond their comprehension, and once you realize it and can assert it, there's very little they can do except weave more illusions to try and put you back to sleep.
I believe that humanity is a whole lot more than what most people give us credit for. We only believe ourselves to be weak and ineffectual, because that is how a successful tyrant stays in power. The truth is that we still possess the ability to evolve at the species level, (which is something they lack) and I think that a large part of the key is figuring out how to accomplish this. This is also why there is so much TPTB focus on the negative in media and culture. Their STS handlers realize that their version of time is running out, and are starting to run their endgame scenarios in order to pull the wheat from the chaff.
-3G
--that whatEVER we see played out on what is seemingly OUTSIDE OF us ... is actually a reflection of something -- some vibration --that is within us... So it is only for us to 'sweep in front of our own doorsteps.' 
