Re: Synchronicity, the month of November, time loops and stuff "on pause"

tenetnosce wrote:

Could you expand a little bit?

Basically in the book Steiner is proposing various exercises that one can perform to hasten their development of certain latent faculties of perception which exist within people (dormant chakra centers).   The idea though is that since these are not physical senses but spiritual ones, their development requires a steady and pure state of spiritual being, and things like focus on "success," "powers," "getting there" etc will hinder one's progress.   Mental stillness and clarity of focus are the key, while wishes and impatience are a stumbling block.   These same ideas are contained in a lot of teachings out there, and this particular book is nice for it's simplicity of language, conciseness and the fact that it sticks to essential points and examples of those without getting sidetracked by speculation or unnecessary digressions.

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tenetnosce wrote:

I know there's something more.  I know there's much more.  I know this can't be "it".  But what's next?

Hi tenetosce,

I know what you mean, and recently I was asking myself the same questions.  In reading the Stuart Wilde and Carlos Castaneda material especially, I formulated some ideas of what the next step could possibly be.  I'll pass the ideas along to you. 

When you read those books, they have several things in commen, namely, the idea of existing with a foot in two worlds.   One foot here in the physical, and one in the non-phyiscal "other", whatever it may be.  They talk about being able to go to these other realms at will....it's something Stuart does, and it's something that Carlos was supposedly eventually able to do, without the use of halluncinogenics.   Visiting other realms is something that's very "Toltec" you could say.   So that's one idea.

Another is developing abilities that are beyond 3rd density to be used in your every day world.  Psychic stuff (reading people, looking into the future, or across timelines, tuning into stuff, whatever it may be) reality manipulation, and everything else that would fall into that category.  Develop and hone those abilities....wield them around while you're existing in the mundane world of 3D...thus transforming the mundane 3D world into something above and beyond!   Basically, begin to get more "4D" while you're still here in 3D.  Bring as much of 4th to you now that you can.

Which is also Toltec, now that I'm thinking about it.

So I guess what I'm saying is, one possibility is to go out there and become a Toltec Warrior Sorcerer!  big_smile big_smile big_smile 

I highly recommend Stuart's book "Whispering Winds of Change" if you haven't read it already.  There's a chapter that pertains to you, to a T, called "The Fringe Dwellers."   It's specifically about people like you who are detached from the normal aspects of 3D and looking to move beyond, with a foot in two worlds.  (Kind of like morningsun's location:  "In two worlds", and my title of "Fringe Dweller"...it's all related, it's all the same thing.  smile  )

Instead of being disgruntled and impatient and disatisfied with 3D, look for ways that you can tailor 3D to be more interesting for you.  "Ask not what I can do for 3D, but what 3D can do for me!"   Wait...that sounds kind of STS..... big_smile  haha

Try to have fun with it, is what I'm trying to get at I guess.   It's all in what you make of it.  If you put out the intent that you want to move beyond, stuff should come your way and fall into your lap to make it happen.   It may be subtle, so pay close attention.   It may not appear like fireworks in the sky you know.  wink    Ask, and you shall receive!

"Life's journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out, shouting "Holy shit ... what a ride!"  - Anonymous
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.....btw, forgot to mention earlier that I thought this was a really neat idea! :

whywhywhy wrote:

Look around and you will notice that everything appears to be presented to us in a periodic/cyclic manner.  Respiration, blood circulation, cell performance, heart contractions, etc...  Is it possible that time loops are caused because of the periodic innate nature of the universe?  A certain vibration would produce a specific pattern assuming everything else remains constant.  To change the pattern (or get out of the time loop) one must change the vibration at which it is being observed or sensed by the physical body.  But, how is this vibration change accomplished?  Could it be that the soul is the entity that determines it is time for the vibration or sensing mechanism to be changed so we can move on to better things?  I honestly do not know but Mr. Jenny statements were very interesting.

I don't know, but it's definitely interesting!

"Life's journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out, shouting "Holy shit ... what a ride!"  - Anonymous
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34 (edited by quantumsurfer 2005-11-23 18:31:51)

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Wow, I have been inspired and been compelled to think "loops" as well... since Oct.!

How many of us do you think there are who are being compelled?

I have been writing and speaking to others all month and part of last month about loops as I have been compelled to.

Goodness, I had to come back and re-edit my edited post after reading more posts because I replied after reading just the first post, and here I see a fascinating thing, my "loop" revelation regarded doing it all before, over and over, and how we have no memory of it and believe it is the only one. And people think reincarnation means a different life in the future as someone else or a different before as someone else, but I got the distinct impression I was to understand it is the SAME life over and over.

It was so bizarre and away from mainstream that I shared with only my husband who looked at me like I had seriously lost it, but that is what I was compelled to consider...that we have been stuck in this time loop, and I felt I was being nudged to come to a realization that could help me out of this loop!

I have never shared this revelation with anyone as a matter of fact a few I have been mailing and chatting with elsewhere I told them I would rather not go into it because I didn't really understand what I was "getting" regarding my loop revelation, and that I needed to chew on it and wait til I get more, but from everything I have been reading in this thread I am like holy crapolie, I am not the only one hitting around the periphery of this very thing, with slight variences I agree, but pretty darned compelling likenesses!

Anywhooo...my revelation was basically we are living many many lifetimes all at the same time and that we or all our lifetimes being lived in the now as there is not past or future, all is happening now, we are stuck in a loop because we have been dumbed down, fooled, deceived, etc... I could go into detail but it would take forever, I just got that the otherworlds of our pasts and futures where another aspect of choices and/or timeline are all ocurring at the same time, and all these are ocurring in a loop...thats the bottom line of the revelation.

I got this in Oct. and have been afraid to share with anyone thinking I was making it all up! But I got it and had some very heavy synchron's happen since then which really support my revelations, which I could go into if anyone was interested.

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lyra wrote:

Another is developing abilities that are beyond 3rd density to be used in your every day world.  Psychic stuff (reading people, looking into the future, or across timelines, tuning into stuff, whatever it may be) reality manipulation, and everything else that would fall into that category.  Develop and hone those abilities....wield them around while you're existing in the mundane world of 3D...thus transforming the mundane 3D world into something above and beyond!   Basically, begin to get more "4D" while you're still here in 3D.  Bring as much of 4th to you now that you can.


I highly recommend Stuart's book "Whispering Winds of Change" if you haven't read it already.  There's a chapter that pertains to you, to a T, called "The Fringe Dwellers."

I have this feeling that 4D is not all that it's cracked up to be. . that's the title of my next article if I ever get around to writing it. . .

But in the meantime I trust your recommendation and will get Stuart's book as soon as is humanly possible.  Till then my humble request stands. . .

It is not for us to understand love, but simply to make space for it.

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quantumsurfer wrote:

And people think reincarnation means a different life in the future as someone else or a different before as someone else, but I got the distinct impression I was to understand it is the SAME life over and over.

Anywhooo...my revelation was basically we are living many many lifetimes all at the same time and that we or all our lifetimes being lived in the now as there is not past or future, all is happening now, we are stuck in a loop because we have been dumbed down, fooled, deceived, etc... I could go into detail but it would take forever, I just got that the otherworlds of our pasts and futures where another aspect of choices and/or timeline are all ocurring at the same time, and all these are ocurring in a loop...thats the bottom line of the revelation.

great ideas, thanks!

i have not think of reincarnation in terms of time loops, but it makes a lot, a lot sense. wow!

in matrix reloaded the architect says we are in version 5 (or was it 6?) and they are very experienced in destructing the matrix. in nearly all holy books there are scenes from the future and they're all described as already happened. another hint for loops. and as you've said we're dumbled down, fooled, deceived by some beings who have the technology to control or may even use these loops. why? loosh farming comes to my mind...

Change we must, to live again
- Jon Anderson

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Well how's this for weird -  Right now, the November page of our calendar blew / fell off.

When Tom was trying to tell me this, I wasn't getting what he was saying, like, huh???  Because I've never heard of that happening.  In all the calendars I've owned or seen, all my life, I've never had a page just...fall out.   

It seems so trivial and mundane, but think about it...how often does THAT happen?   

Calendars represent tracking time......and it was November's, of all the pages that could have fallen out......

"Life's journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out, shouting "Holy shit ... what a ride!"  - Anonymous
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38 (edited by visavis 2005-11-24 19:42:41)

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feritciva wrote:

in matrix reloaded the architect says we are in version 5 (or was it 6?) and they are very experienced in destructing the matrix. in nearly all holy books there are scenes from the future and they're all described as already happened. another hint for loops. and as you've said we're dumbled down, fooled, deceived by some beings who have the technology to control or may even use these loops. why? loosh farming comes to my mind...

version 6... just happened to finish it again last night.  smile  He also says Neo has the choice of re-constructing the 7th civizilation by taking 23 ppl (16 male, 7 female) if he takes the door on his right...

"the problem... is choice..."

also i noticed (and subsequently freeze-framed) how when the agents are taking ppl over like in the highway scene, for a few frames their eyes are all black, like an alien, then their sunglasses 'grow' out of their black eyes.  This has probably been discussed... but anyways i found it interesting. smile


...in reference to other things in this thread... maybe this is the calm before the storm, i don't know.

"The unknown does not incite fear, but dependence on the known does." - J. Krishnamurti

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After waking from my own version of "the wave dream" this morning I had full memory of it being the same wave dream I have had on at least one previous occassion before, and thanks to this thread which I believe is the cause for me to actually note the dream this morning, whereas the previous exact same dream fell from memory after waking.

So this thread was indeed the catalyst I believe to me making a mental note, and therefor the causation of me alerting myself to remember. Ahha did what I said make sense to anyone but me lol?

I do not think the versions of the wave dreams are as notable as much as the fact that we are all having versions of dreams regarding waves...also I think its interesting that all our wave dreams involve water; as did mine.

40 (edited by Craig 2005-11-25 06:41:19)

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quantumsurfer wrote:

After waking from my own version of "the wave dream" this morning I had full memory of it being the same wave dream I have had on at least one previous occassion before, and thanks to this thread which I believe is the cause for me to actually note the dream this morning, whereas the previous exact same dream fell from memory after waking.

So this thread was indeed the catalyst I believe to me making a mental note, and therefor the causation of me alerting myself to remember. Ahha did what I said make sense to anyone but me lol?

I do not think the versions of the wave dreams are as notable as much as the fact that we are all having versions of dreams regarding waves...also I think its interesting that all our wave dreams involve water; as did mine.

Well I might as well just post this: I ALSO had a tidal wave dream early Monday morning. Here is what I wrote in my dream journal:

Wave Dream wrote:

The dream started with me among a mass of people rushing to some sort of underground concrete bunker. We all crammed in to what seemed like a tiny room, but then again, there were only about thirty people. There were two thin, high up windows and an exterior door: so really, there didn’t seem to be anything "underground" or protective about it. It’s just like we had entered a concrete room, with what I imagine had thick walls.

The window glass was yellowed and blurry because of its age. It was reinforced with a metallic grid between panes.

I was looking out of the window to the left (I was in the corner), and I could see an odd looking aircraft in the sky. Its belly looked rectangular shaped with a semi-circle at the front, like an arch window shape. I could see air-vents on the bottom. It was a greyish-white colour, maybe with a blue insignia. I remember it zooming fast overhead leaving a chemtrail and I spotted a word (in blue) on the side, and asked somebody what it said. I cannot remember what I was told. I had some awareness in the dream that it didn't make sense; this made me lucid for about a second or two.

So we were watching it passing overhead, doing some pretty impressive manoeuvres; even hovering at one point. But we were all scared of this craft, even though we knew it was government built (and quite advanced in technology terms; but not publicly known).

Then it was as if a meteorite had hit, or this craft had shot something into the ground. Anyways, it had something to do with this object hitting – as if the government/pilot WANTED it to.

I then looked to my left, and a huge deep blue tidal wave was approaching. I screamed for everybody to push on this door that I was standing behind, because it wasn’t locked or sealed. The wave engulfed the concrete room, and we felt the pressure of the water behind the door. But we managed to keep it closed.

The water-level outside seemed to drop (as we were underwater for a short period), and for some reason, we could open the door without the water coming in. In fact, it was almost as if we were now floating, and it was an Ark. I looked outside and we saw an American city – it was New York – but only the skyscrapers poking out of the top of the water. I felt relieved, things seemed quite calm and I jumped out and started to swim towards the city. Other people were following me. But then, the craft overhead started to circle back towards us and started firing at us. So we had to rush to get back inside, which was difficult because of the water currents and everybody trying to get back through this tiny door.

I looked back just before entering this "Ark" again, and saw three fighter-jets (but "futuristic" looking) emerging at great speed out of the water. I had the impression that aliens were controlling these and that they'd emerged from an undersea base.

When we got back in, I spotted a laptop on a table and for some reason I shouted that the craft in the sky was a secret government project called: "Aurora" and that I’d show them an artists rendering on Google Image Search. But I kept spelling it wrong, and kept pressing the wrong keys. At one point, I actually spelt out "Orion", which is strange, but interesting: the syllable "OR" is pronounced the same as "AUR"…

So I got the picture up and I think it looked a bit different, but it was proof. As for the necessity of knowing this, I don’t know. Why did it matter??

I also recall looking through old pictures of myself in a photo-album. One was taken at my grandmother's house, in the hallway and the shift in perception of the world startled me. How cosy and comfortable that reality was, and how different and terrible was the one I was now living. Then on the laptop, I brought up the BBC News website and there was an article telling of a comet impact in Ireland, just off the South West coast. It must have sent a tidal wave across the Atlantic towards New York? I think Ireland was devastated by it.

This is really all I remember… It was quite a scary dream…

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visavis wrote:
feritciva wrote:

in matrix reloaded the architect says we are in version 5 (or was it 6?) and they are very experienced in destructing the matrix. in nearly all holy books there are scenes from the future and they're all described as already happened. another hint for loops. and as you've said we're dumbled down, fooled, deceived by some beings who have the technology to control or may even use these loops. why? loosh farming comes to my mind...

version 6... just happened to finish it again last night.  smile  He also says Neo has the choice of re-constructing the 7th civizilation by taking 23 ppl (16 male, 7 female) if he takes the door on his right...

"the problem... is choice..."

How weird...................I just watched the same movie last night and the scene you just described above really stuck in my mind...............  I have never seen the movie before but I knew he had to take the door on the left.  One strange thing......I wonder why Neo never asked the "Architech" what happened to the previous five "Chosen Ones".   When Morpheous gave his speech to the Zions and told them not to worry about the attack he mentioned they have been in the "Struggle" for 100 years.  Did the other "Chosen Ones" live and died in that time frame?.  I am looking forward to see the third movie.  I do not know why I waited this long to see the movies.  I started watching one of them (do not remember which) a while back and never finished it.  For some reason it never clicked.

Regards (Lyra, I believe Moralman used the word regards all the time.  I started using it a few posts ago before I realized this was the case...........How weird!)

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Consider if through developing ones spiritual self they gained the ability to glimpse the future, and let's say the normal ego driven intellectual mind would not pick up on such glimpses because they occur on such a rapid and subtle level.  So we would then have a situation whereby only people with a certain level of spiritual development would pick up on these "premonitions".  But maybe this person’s spiritual self isn't developed enough yet to fully comprehend these feelings.  So all they know is they have a feeling, along with a knowledge that something is about to occur either in that exact moment, or maybe a period further along.

Now let's further consider if this person was unaware they were in effect seeing the future (be it only one second before it occurs, or days before it occurs)…how would such a person relate to what they are feeling?  Remember our hypothetical person is only receiving feelings – maybe along with subtle physical, emotional or mental sensations.

Perhaps such a person would believe they are in a timeloop…and that it is heightened deja vu  they are experiencing.

Many of the people on these forums are continuously working upon themselves.  With this comes spiritual development, which in turn brings with it certain abilities.  But these abilities are often so subtle – that to start with we don’t even realize we have them.

Staurt Wilde, and Castanda talk about being in two worlds simultaneously.  The "Spiritual worlds" and the physical world.

The physical world is external…whilst many of the spiritual worlds are internal.  Working on our self gives us access to these internal worlds (some of which are just feelings and knowledge etc.) 

A timeloop would essentially be an external manifestation; something from the physical world – on one level or another.  Whereas perceiving the future would be an internal manifestation born from gaining access to certain inner worlds.

It seems to me that often people gain access to these worlds without even realizing they have done so.

Maybe some people are not giving themselves enough credit, and looking for an external answer…when all along the reason they are feeling these things is because they have already found the answer in the inner worlds – but just not yet realized they are "there" yet.

Some of the inner worlds aren’t at all like what we may expect before we get to them.  And it is more than possible to be in some of them without even being aware…it happens fleetingly, and subtlety.  And often it is a feeling or an awareness, and it takes quite some time before we are able to "see" that what is occurring is a distinct change within us…rather than something going on outside of us.

Next time you get one of these experiences, watch all levels of yourself very closely; I think you may well notice something…

Maybe some of us have learnt through heightened or newly developed abilities to see the future, or perhaps if time is not linear then maybe we are just gaining a greater insight into reality.  Or perhaps we are awakening to what may well indeed be a timeloop.

Thing is – does it really matter which it is?  Once you learn to "see" in this way – I think it is maybe more important to consider just what you want to do with it…and what it means for you

Where can it take you?

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oceanchild wrote:

i don't think we 'connect' to our 'higher-self' in the sense that you guys are talking about - if i get what you guys are trying to describe ... i think we kinda 'transform' into our 'higher selves' by this process of self-awareness ... that's what makes us mindful - & being compassionate is a natural part of that ... sounds simple eh? well it's hard work big_smile maybe not all that hard - prolly more fun than anything - but it's a beautiful and amazing process IMO + maybe something you've been doin' all along (?)

Thanks for not holding back wink

This is a subtle point, but I think with profound implications.  I definitely needed to be reminded of this one.

I've been trying to 'raise myself up' to the level of my Higher Self, and receive direction, guidance, or whatever, and bring the information 'back down' to implement in my life.

Last night as I was falling asleep after reading your post it occured to me that one of the reasons I have been feeling blocked is because now is the time to allow my Higher Self to come through me in whatever it is that I may be doing.

Thanks again. .

It is not for us to understand love, but simply to make space for it.

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whywhywhy wrote:

When Morpheous gave his speech to the Zions and told them not to worry about the attack he mentioned they have been in the "Struggle" for 100 years.  Did the other "Chosen Ones" live and died in that time frame?.

My understanding is that the other ones lived in previous timeframes and that was in fact the 6th 'zion-like' civilization, where people were allowed to get out.  After the Architect provided an unsatisfactory response to Neo's question, "Why am I here?", Neo responded with - "That didn't answer my question" -- this is what the Architect said Neo was quicker in getting to.  Architect makes an interesting comment in the 3rd movie, I think you will enjoy it as much as the 2nd. smile

Sorry for the long post... I don't want to turn this into a movie thread but I think that Neo's conversation with Architect is so multilayered and fascinating:

The Wachowski brothers wrote:

Architect: Hello, Neo.
Neo: Who are you?
Architect: I am the Architect. I created the Matrix. I've been waiting for you. You have many questions, and though the process has altered your consciousness, you remain irrevocably human. Ergo some of my answers you will understand, and some of them you will not. Concordantly, while your first question may be the most pertinent, you may or may not realize it is also the most irrelevant.
Neo: Why am I here?
Architect: Your life is the sum of a remainder of an unbalanced equation inherent to the programming of the Matrix. You are the eventuality of an anomaly, which, despite my sincerest efforts, I have been unable to eliminate from what is otherwise a harmony of mathematical precision. While it remains a burden assiduously avoided, it is not unexpected, and thus not beyond a measure of control. Which has led you, inexorably... here.
Neo: You haven't answered my question.
Architect: Quite right. Interesting. That was quicker than the others.
TV Neos: Others? How many others? What others? Answer my question!
Architect: The Matrix is older than you know. I prefer counting from the emergence of one integral anomaly to the emergence of the next, in which case this is the 6th version.
TV Neos: 5 `One's before me? 4 3 2 What are you talking about?
Neo: There are only two possible explanations, either no one told me, or no one knows.
Architect: Precisely. As you are undoubtedly gathering, the anomaly is systemic - creating fluctuations in even the most simplistic equations.
TV Neos: You can't control me! I'm gonna smash you to bits! I'll fuckin' kill you!
Neo: Choice. The problem is choice.
Architect: The first Matrix I designed was quite naturally perfect, it was a work of art - flawless, sublime. A triumph equalled only by its monumental failure. The inevitability of its doom is apparent to me now as a consequence of the imperfection inherent in every human being. Thus, I redesigned it based on your history to more accurately reflect the varying grotesqueries of your nature. However, I was again frustrated by failure. I have since come to understand that the answer eluded me because it required a lesser mind, or perhaps a mind less bound by the parameters of perfection. Thus the answer was stumbled upon by another - an intuitive program, initially created to investigate certain aspects of the human psyche. If I am the father of the matrix, she would undoubtedly be its mother.
Neo: The Oracle.
Architect: Please. As I was saying, she stumbled upon a solution whereby nearly 99% of all test subjects accepted the program, as long as they were given a choice, even if they were only aware of the choice at a near unconscious level. While this answer functioned, it was obviously fundamentally flawed, thus creating the otherwise contradictory systemic anomaly, that if left unchecked might threaten the system itself. Ergo those that refused the program, while a minority, if unchecked, would
constitute an escalating probablility of disaster.
Neo: This is about Zion.
Architect: You are here because Zion is about to be destroyed - its every living inhabitant terminated, its entire existence eradicated.
Neo: Bullshit.
TV Neos: Bullshit!
Architect: Denial is the most predictable of all human responses, but rest assured, this will be the sixth time we have destroyed it, and we have become exceedingly efficient at it.

Architect: The function of the One is now to return to the Source, allowing a temporary dissemination of the code you carry, reinserting the prime program. After which, you will be required to select from the Matrix 23 individuals - 16 female, 7 male - to rebuild Zion. Failure to comply with this process will result in a cataclysmic system crash, killing everyone connected to the Matrix, which, coupled with the extermination of Zion, will ultimately result in the extinction of the entire human race.
Neo: You won't let it happen. You can't. You need human beings to survive.
Architect: There are levels of survival we are prepared to accept. However, the relevant issue is whether or not you are ready to accept the responsibility of the death of every human being on this world. It is interesting, reading your reactions. Your 5 predecessors were, by design, based on a similar predication - a contingent affirmation that was meant to create a profound attachment to the rest of your species, facilitating the function of the One. While the others experienced this in a very general way, your experience is far more specific - vis a vis love.
Neo: Trinity.
Architect: Apropos, she entered the Matrix to save your life, at the cost of her own.
Neo: No.
Architect: Which brings us at last to the moment of truth, wherein the fundamental flaw is ultimately expressed, and the anomaly revealed as both beginning and end. There are two doors. The door to your right leads to the Source, and the salvation of Zion. The door to your left leads back to the Matrix, to her and to the end of your species. As you adequately put, the problem is choice. But we already know what you are going to do, don't we? Already, I can see the chain reaction - the chemical precursors that signal the onset of an emotion, designed specifically to overwhelm logic and reason - an emotion that is already blinding you from the simple and obvious truth. She is going to die, and there is nothing you can do to stop it.
Architect: Hope. It is the quintessential human delusion, simultaneously the source of your greatest strength and your greatest weakness.
Neo: If I were you, I would hope that we don't meet again.
Architect: We won't.

"The unknown does not incite fear, but dependence on the known does." - J. Krishnamurti

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loops...

I've been wrestling with this for 12 years (I'm 30 now). I was on an obnoxiously strong dose of mushrooms at the time, so I still question if the sensation of time loops is real or if it's just a malfunction or limitation of the brain... like, you can only contemplate so much at once before your brain hits a barrier and restarts.

First thing was not really a loop, just time distortion. I'd reach for a glass of water, and the event would be chopped up and out of logical sequence. I'd think about the water, start to reach for it, but the glass would be in my hand at my lips before I'd actually grabbed it off the table. Weird but fun in a trippy kind of way.

Then I literally got stuck in a loop. The same sequence of events, a really mundane exchange, the exact events are kind of foggy, I was sitting on the floor in a friend's room, someone walks in, says something to me, I don't understand what they say and mumble something back, then they turn around and leave the room... the sequence took up about 30 seconds or so, but it happened over and over and over exactly the same way. It felt like I was stuck in that loop for hours. I think it was kind of like an OBE, it felt like I was watching it all repeat from a distance. I'm not religious anymore, and that was pretty much the defining moment. The whole time I kind of felt that I had broken through to the true source, but all I found was a lifeless machine at the core. Everything came crashing back with that revelation. It was like I had remembered standing in the street an infinite number of times having that exact same revelation. I remembered living my life an infinite number of times, exactly the same way over and over and over. Really, really intense deja vu.

I did a ton of research on the idea and about 5 years ago discovered Nietzsche's theory of eternal recurrence in Thus Spoke Zarathustra:

"This life as you now live it and have lived it, you will have to live once more and innumerable times more; and there will be nothing new in it, but every pain and every joy and every thought and sigh and everything immeasurably small or great in your life must return to you-all in the same succession and sequence-even this spider and this moonlight between the trees, and even this moment and I myself. The eternal hourglass of existence is turned over and over, and you with it, a grain of dust."

It's not clear if Nietzsche was using eternal reccurence as literary symbolism or a true cosmic theory. People argue both ways. It can be used as a way to evolve yourself-- live every moment of every day in a way so that you will want it to return to you an infinite number of times. The person who can accept, internalize and live by the eternal recurrence theory is Nietzsche's superman.

The scientific theory takes some huge leaps of faith. First, you have to have some faith in contemporary physics. You have to first accept that time and matter are real. Second you have to accept that time is infinite and matter is finite. If time is infinite and matter is finite, then the entire universe is like a glorified chess match. There are only so many combinations of moves to play through before you've reached every possible outcome. If time is infinite and matter is finite, you will reach every possible outcome an infinite number of times.