Hi zonabi,
zonabi wrote:lyra, methinks so too......any suggestions on how to confirm or refute this?
Hmm...well....not smoking is probably the first step, like you mentioned. It allows you to remember your dreams, and I think your dreams might be a starting point for answers.
Let's see...other ideas...well....try meditating on the subject. Ask yourself some questions about any possible involvement with abductions, (keep it open....don't mention Grays specifically...) then see what comes to you. Hypnosis is the next big level. I've never been professionally hypnotized to get answers to anything or remember stuff I've blanked out, but I know I'm an excellent candidate for it. So that's always an option, depending on how you feel about it.
Also re-evaluate your life...some call it Recapitulation, that's the Toltec term for it anyway. The serious version of this involves going back to the beginning and literally, writing down (or typing) every single thing that you can remember, from your first memory onwards. It's hard, and a lot of work and a HUGE endeavor, but it helps people dig up things that were buried and forgotten. You could do that, or maybe try an easier version of it where you just review your life in general, looking for clues that you would have overlooked before. Any kind of strange childhood experiences or memories, places you've lived, trips you've taken, dreams, people that were in your life, unusual events, synchronicities, paranormal activity, number sightings, physical marks and anomolies, etc. Look at all of it in a new light, being open to stuff you would have overlooked before now. See if anything now stands out....many times we just take life events for granted and don't see the weirdness at the time we're submerged in it. Not until years later does it stand out. So see what you come up with!
Can't think of anything else. I mean, it seems to me that you're an abductee. I figured you were since you first got here, for several reasons:
1. You have a strong interest in aliens...Let's face it, most people don't!
And your interest is above and beyond even those with casual interest. You've read websites and books, done the research, and draw them all the time. I personally don't believe people are just interested in aliens to that extent unless they have something going on that involves aliens.\
2. You're here, at this site.
Another indicator of having unusual interests and unusual life experiences....even if not consciously remembered.....
I think all of us regulars here at NR are probably abductees, of varying degrees. There's a strong theme of aliens and abductions and military conspiracy that runs through the Montalk material, and for people to be drawn to it usually means they can relate on some level, it's something they're going through. So...I would guess that you're an abductee! Add in your clicking nostril and the odds are even greater! 
"Life's journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out, shouting "Holy shit ... what a ride!" - Anonymous
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