SednaSphere,
Thank you for the clarification. I now understand what you meant and I know of what you write about, feeling a strong urge not to do what is otherwise seemingly innocent, like a family outing, or some other kind of organinzed function. From this line of thinking, I also am successful, but does this also relate to the organized function of sleep?
I must admit Sed, I hadn't a clue one that anything of any sort might happen before I went to sleep on Sat. night, and frankly, I suppose if I was as aware as I seem to think I am, I should have... although, I am "feeling"/intuiting that I'm being a little harsh with myself here, and that "many levels of awareness in the 3D realm can be 'usurped', this is the function of 4D STS technology," and that it's not so much that something out of the ordinary happened (because--if it did--it's already happened... HA!, a what's done is done thing) as much as it is how I handled myself Sun. morning.
Not that I yet had any clue that anything funky may have happened Sat. night (I didn't realize that this was a possibility until later that afternoon, you know, it's like when puzzle pieces start coming together, and one doesn't yet know they're sitting at a puzzle table), but I woke up Sun. morning somewhat disoriented and with horrible feelings about myself, a "program" playing in my head telling me I'm no better that a pile of crap, that I'm a piece of shit! Yuck!!! (and sorry about the s-word to those offended) This went on for about 15 mins., I stopped dead in my tracks, centered and grounded myself, and called on my core-being to recognize and shine all that I AM. Seemingly this was enough to disengage the program because those ugly words ceased "covering" me. A few years ago I would've taken the bait, hook, line and sinker, and would've easily been moved to depression.
Well, this is kind of a bitter-sweet thing to write, but, I suppose I could be proud of myself for recooperating so quickly and easily, rather than feeling like a failure for having allowed myself to be manipulated in the first place. And Sedna, I'm not projecting/reflecting here that you insinuated I had somehow failed, I'm more than capable of doing this on my own
, I can be very hard on myself at times.
I really appreciate anytime other NR members interact with me, it always gives pause for fruitful thought.
My regards Sedna
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