Doubts even here... (Page 4 of 5)

Then you have to leave the ocean. See my earlier, lengthy post regarding this:

YES!!!!!!!!  This is fantastic.

Oops sorry it is Zonabi, but tilli put it where I could see it.

That thud was me being laid out by the 2X4 that hit my head. What a buffoon. Thanks

I was speaking to a friend of mine who used to own his own business.  We discussed this very problem.  He said to me, "Thinkers are hard to employ.  As an employer you want people to come in, do their job, not try to control things, just fit in their place."

He himself recognized how messed-up this fact is.  He got frustrated with this and dissolved the business.  He left the country to go travel and is making money through trading so that he has more freedom.

I have had similar frustrations in my jobs.  Hard to bow down to people I cannot respect.  Hard to pretend that they can really manage me when we both know I am more intelligent!!!

First off,

THANK YOU ALL for your contributions to this forum.  It has shifted so much energy around in me and given me great strength.  How delicious!

I’ma write stream-o-consciousness style, hope that’s OK.

“There are worse things than being alone.“?
Charles Bukowski

A few years ago I began to realize that the time I felt most lonely was when I was in groups of people….

I am fortunate to know individuals with whom I can communicate quite deeply and feel connected.  But whenever large groups come together we sink to the lowest common denominator….so many systems of wisdom caution against hanging out in crowds for this reason.  I avoid large groups now like the plague. 

I really enjoy one-to-one exploratory conversation, deep exchange with another who is not communicating thru ego but thru heart.  How fortunate I am to have some of these friendships!  Also I don’t mind smaller groups when all involved trust each other and the vibration is open and nurturing and joyful.

But large groups–only when I absolutely must, like family events. 

However……
Recently at Thanksgiving I had an opportunity to introduce some ideas that were completely foreign to my relatives.  My sister actually said, “You know, that just really made something click for me.“?  This was nice.  Others were more subtle in their reactions.  Others teased me for the next few days about my ideas.  But I really do think that, by approaching the topic slowly, gently and smoothly I actually got my foot in the door of consciousness.  This gave me a bit of “hope“?….a dirty word, I know, but it was encouraging.

I try to be loving while still protecting myself.  I try to stay open in case opportunities for communicating a deeper truth arise…..

I also learned that the best way to create this kind of exchange is to be the first to open the door.  By embodying openness, I encourage others to be open.  By dropping my mask, by saying, “Hey y’all, let’s quit playing games and just be real“? I help others to put down their swords.

I accept who I am and that I am different than most people, although it has been a long journey to reach this acceptance.

The article on Montalk about OPs and STS people confirmed that I had made the mistake so many times of assuming that others were basically like me.  It took a really bad relationship with a possible OP (or at least a not-fully-souled man) which left me feeling guilty and completely drained of energy, frustrated and confused (“Why is he acting like that, I just don’t get it?“?) because I assumed he and I shared the basic human trait of empathy.  I believed his big talk that he wanted to grow and become more realized…..but all he really wanted to do was feed off my energy and then make me feel guilty when I needed to be alone and recuperate. 

My codependent relationship with my parents (I feel that I spent most of my growing-up years nursing their emotions and making sure my mother in particular felt secure) made me prepped and ready for such an attack.  I had mis-learned that love was about control and so this OP’s behavior didn’t strike me as so bizarre in the beginning. 

As for the question of spending time alone, it might just be a necessary habit for those who awaken, until such time as the society is, as a whole, more awake and therefore less draining.  I visited Ermolai’s site, http://www.reclaimyoursoul.org .  It features excellent articles about schizophrenia and shamanism.  Many on the path of awakening (and learning to bridge the different dimensions) have felt a deep need to be alone.  We need that space to figure out what is real and what is illusory, who we are, where our free will begins and ends, etc.

Perhaps we just need to cycle through alone times and “public“? times. 

I have always enjoyed spending time alone.  I remember as a child relishing it. I find that some people take my need to be alone as a rejection of them.   They cannot see that instead it is an affirmation of my Self.  Nothing to do with them…that’s the whole point!

If I had grown up in a different society, a more traditional spiritual society, I would have been recognized early on and raised in a way that developed my skills for the benefit of Truth.  Instead I was labeled “gifted“? which meant I had to be pushed through the Matrix Machinery so that I could become the ideal peg.  I jumped through the hoops for years…

Not because I was stupid, but because of a fear, a co-dependency, a fear of being separate.

I remember even in high school recognizing that if I really, really became who I truly was, if I really went for what I knew to be true, I would have to really detach from most people I knew.  This scared me.

So this brings me to this idea of the sheep being dumb…..

What if it isn’t stupidity but FEAR?

I think many of the sheeple are ignorant but not stupid.  I think that the Matrix wants us to believe that they are stupid so we will give up, feel more alone and become elitist and separate. 

It’s the same tactic played out through race, class, religion and ethnicity.  Separate, divide, make hierarchies and conquer.  Keep communication lines broken.  Keep us all from seeing One Love, All-One.  Keep us all from the beautiful secret:

                             All Human Suffering Is The Same. 

In fighting the Lizard People, let’s take care we don’t become one!

Maybe the sheeple are afraid and therefore ignoring Truth because it scares them.

People don’t recognize the Truth because they see it so rarely.

Also, I think the principle of acting in the most beneficial way possible without being attached to outcomes is a good approach.  Plant a seed.  Don’t expect it to bloom straight away.  I know there were people decades ago trying to get through to me.  For whatever reason (prolly fear, insecurity, cynicism) I wasn’t ready to awaken, but the seeds they planted eventually sprouted.

The path of subtlety, the clever use of parables and questions, these can be far more effective.  Get in through the back door, the side door, the trap door.  Be tricky!  Be clever!  Make it a fun game!

We are all getting down.  Yuck.

Stay up.  It’s too crowded down there!

Do the best you can and then trust that goodness will eventually come from it.  Work without attachment to the fruits of your labor.

We must emulate the calmness of The Oracle in The Matrix.  She sees ALL yet remains calm, compassionate, loving, centered.   Mmmmmmmmmmmmm, nice.

NEOMATRIX quoting his Dad on Iraq: “It's nothing to do with us. After all, it's such a long way from here." See what I mean? If it isn't happening on their own doorstep, they don't want to know about it.

But sometimes I feel that we are so bombarded with these events in other areas of the planet that we cannot control that it overwhelms us….we feel powerless and confused about what to do….

While obviously what is happening in Iraq DOES have lots to do with what is happening in my life (we are all here on singular, connected, spaceship Earth after all) I do know that sometimes I feel really overwhelmed when bombarded with so much info about world turmoil that feels way beyond the scope of my control, at least in the immediate sense.  I feel sometimes I do have to shut it out and put my energy into proactive creativity.  I don’t permanently ignore it, but I can understand the need to shut it out at times….

SOLOFLECK wrote:
“We can never be alone, because we are part of everything, so loneliness is a self-imposed illusion generated by ego and emotion.  It's another effect of 3D duality.“?

Yes, true dat!!

I have spent the better part of the last six weeks isolated in the mountains and then six months ago just returned from two years spent far, far away in another country….

And it’s interesting how my telepathic connections with friends and family STRENGTHENED as I isolated myself.  We can never be truly alone, even if we try!!

SOLOFLECK wrote:
“We can't blame them for believing the same lies that we also once believed.  We can't be angry with them for what they do when we realize it's not personal.  It's not about us but about the lies they believe about themselves.  They don't know what they're doing.“?

                Forgive them Father for they know not what they do!

SOLOFLECK wrote:
“We do know and that puts us in a position of greater responsibility where others are concerned.  If they are sheep, then we are shepherds.“?

Yeah, and our responsibility now is to become the wisest shepherds we can.

              For, if the shepherd is lost, what hope have the sheep? 

SOLOFLECK wrote:
“?We automatically set ourselves apart when we stop making and participating in the emotional drama which energizes the dream of hell the rest of the world is living.  Instead with truth and love we energize a new personal dream of heaven.  Our connection with the source of unlimited true knowledge does make us more than human; hyperhuman, maybe, because we acknowledge our hyperdimensional true selves.“?

True, true.

However, our anger and sadness and disappointment are legitimate.  They are fuel, they drive us to carry on.  Yet we must always keep an eye on the larger picture, a balance. 

When interacting with someone who is asleep, I believe that although their “Waking-Life Self“? does not know, their Higher Self does!  And let us try to always contact that higher self…

Always look for the Light in another being, and attempt to connect to that, while still keeping a sharp eye peeled on their petty or dark side which might come out and smack ya at any time!

Now, as for OP’s this may be a trap, so we must remain vigilant….

But generally speaking I do believe there is light in most humans, and I look for it immediately.  I speak to that part.

As soon as we start LABELLING people as Sheeple, OP’s. STSs, we shut out our connections and commonalities.  We shut down the pathways of connection.  We shut down the possibilities of communication.

Maybe this is not the best approach?