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altamash I know you don't want advice so I won't give it but I will comment (without all the beautiful flowery words and images that some are able to do so well.

A few good people have taken the time and effort to try and connect with you in some way but you have chosen not to respond as a simple fellow traveller in all of this but rather with an overblown ego-driven mind purge. I thought I had stumbled on another Miles me me me thread. This to me is another example of why I find myself staying further and further away from these type of forums. There are so many early twenty-somethings out there who just think they have it all figured out - first line quote from you -----My life has become worse and worse ever since i learned about everything there is to know.
Reading Cassiopean and Ra material or any other channelling for for that matter, anything that is well written and crafted no matter of it's origin, does not lead you to the point you think you are at now. Combine the thirst for this type of material that you had at one point some years back with a lot of pot or any mind altering substance and all you have done is move further away from the connection to your soul and instead enhanced the mind, the ego and the dellusional belief that you can know all that there is to know just because you have awakened to the dark side of our 3d reality and its cycles and all the manipulation, sto sts spirituality for dummies blah blah.
I would never preach about stepping away from the crack pipe or whatever ( I have seen many friends go down hard in that direction much to the delight of the manipulators of this world), but your response to Google's fine arrangement of words tells me a lot. I hope that is not really how you feel but if so I would say -- get a friggin grip on your ego and stop believing the bullshit it keeps telling you and realise how small you (and I) are in the bigger picture. We are but pinpricks of light in the whole ball of light....although some are just pricks. The choice is up to us. 
Peace to you and All.

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FreeSpirit wrote:

altamash I know you don't want advice so I won't give it but I will comment (without all the beautiful flowery words and images that some are able to do so well.

A few good people have taken the time and effort to try and connect with you in some way but you have chosen not to respond as a simple fellow traveller in all of this but rather with an overblown ego-driven mind purge. I thought I had stumbled on another Miles me me me thread. This to me is another example of why I find myself staying further and further away from these type of forums. There are so many early twenty-somethings out there who just think they have it all figured out - first line quote from you -----My life has become worse and worse ever since i learned about everything there is to know.
Reading Cassiopean and Ra material or any other channelling for for that matter, anything that is well written and crafted no matter of it's origin, does not lead you to the point you think you are at now. Combine the thirst for this type of material that you had at one point some years back with a lot of pot or any mind altering substance and all you have done is move further away from the connection to your soul and instead enhanced the mind, the ego and the dellusional belief that you can know all that there is to know just because you have awakened to the dark side of our 3d reality and its cycles and all the manipulation, sto sts spirituality for dummies blah blah.
I would never preach about stepping away from the crack pipe or whatever ( I have seen many friends go down hard in that direction much to the delight of the manipulators of this world), but your response to Google's fine arrangement of words tells me a lot. I hope that is not really how you feel but if so I would say -- get a friggin grip on your ego and stop believing the bullshit it keeps telling you and realise how small you (and I) are in the bigger picture. We are but pinpricks of light in the whole ball of light....although some are just pricks. The choice is up to us. 
Peace to you and All.

Free Spirit......you took the words right out of my mouth, I'm not even kidding, from the Miles reference, to how he responded to google's post and everybody's in general so far who've just been trying to help, down to the early twenty-somethings bit and what you said about avoiding forums because of people behaving like this.  Word for word!  My mouth is at a loss, looking around for its missing words!!!  lol  I had composed a post that addressed every single one of these points but I held off on posting it because I'd had a left ear tone ringing earlier, which for me is usually a sign of FRV provocation....and I was indeed feeling a bit irritated at how Altamash has responded to the people who've taken time out of their days to invest their energy in him.  I sensed something last night about the direction this thread might go and so removed my own advise post shortly after posting it and just stepped aside.  But amen to your post.

"Life's journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out, shouting "Holy shit ... what a ride!"  - Anonymous
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"I get by with a little help from my (higher density) friends."
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I don't know if there's anywhere else this thread can go.   It looks like now we're all just giving each other the sheets.

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yep!! bilal its me..nothing with hiding identity there is no way in hell you wouldn't have guessed... First of all dude i feel you on all that shit but seems like you really broke on thinking between sts and sto's and what not.....Now that you realize that you are a holographic impression of the ONE why not just try to be the ONE...why even care about STS's or STO's amean do whatever feels right and learn to feel without the influence which would be to quit drugs and all those things that make you from your daily routines and all that.

Dude i have been going thru the same B/S for like 2 years now. But I live with one hope that is LOVE ....I think love has a lot of power infact its love that is the sate of creation. Its the love of the mother that brought you here in the first place...its the love of the ONE trying to teach us what ever we are trying to learn and we are writing our own lifes...and destinys all these forces they can't force you to do anything but you yourself decide what to do and thats how things happen and i can understand its easily said than agreed cuz i know i agree with this but its not easy to convince myself on that but thats what the hope is for the change that will bring us peace.

This is what i feel about your situation since we were class mates and back then I was too childish and so you were and at this point I have no friggin psychic powers to know wether your situation is true or untrue cuz am victim and predator to the same system that we all are playing on. Now, from the point where my understanding starts which ofcourse has nothing to do with the STS's or STO's even tho! i respect the idea but i don't live the idea. I take what resounds my mind and is practical in my situation i don't live on these rules living outlaw is my life ..for me there is only one law that is love and truth and if you can't speak and fell that i don't give a shit about no one i don't give a damn if you are in 4d 5d or the fuckin be stronger than me... What makes us is our blieves in ourself. I thought I would have been dead long ago and look at ma ass I have been rolling with death righ everywhere around me as if death is what holds me and in death am riding this life...and I wait patiently to become what i want and thats what am diong but at the same time...dude your situation is more like a friggin choice to me...another way to reach the mind of mine and even tho! i want to believe it am having a hard time but am just gonna lay something dude.... quit drugs...and believe in love dude... and suffer ..suffer...suffer....

See, am friggin dead I really have hard time feeling. And feeling is something that I need and I suffer to feel myself too dude. I have been so close to friggin death that my heart vibrated like a friggin vibrator when i was under intense psychic attack at some function here and ma mout dehydrated like shit...I mean i could hear my tissues sucking the left over liquid from my body...you jsut smoke dude...I got so pissed off on my life I have done every drug there is to the extreme and still the death didn't take me...then I understood that it is me who is going to decide when and how I want to die if i want to die..and it is me who is control in my life and do whats right..and I have started practicing meditation and I abstract from drugs  and all the negativity like masturbation and all and am just living my dream..Cuz my dream is to see myself as an enligtened being like the Buddha or Christ..and am going for it...and I believe am not too far...even if i don't make it thats my dream to live in a pure love of the creator and I will live my dream.

Anyways, bro I think thats what you need to do try to awaken your kundalini and get more spiritually evolved to make a concious choice rather than agreeing indirectly on things which is how our will is bent every second of our life we live. You are lucky to be living in Canada believe me you woudln't want yourslef living in the colony of ants where you can't even find a friggin place to meditate and even if you meditate at 2 or 3 in the night there are always people to disturb you by coughing and cats fighting and dogs barking and if not then mosquitoes appear from no where...and you know this happens only in India..neways dude i still love doing what am doing...and i KNOW i WILL make IT.....

lemme know if you do end up making any achievments beyond what you are trying...and treat your soul like your g/f...a love don't end up selling your soul to the Devil...and don't take anything serious in a world that is made on ideas and concepts. Know that you make then and they don't....good luck dude...

" Love is the understanding and unspoken bond between you and the creator "

"Loving is an art that is the state of creation"

..........Lyrically am suppose to SHINE.........
..........I am the ONE that makes you  BLIND........
..........And am that darkness that lets you SHINE.........

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You just need to hold on and not let the "Poo" take over. I used to feel very similar and wondered why I was even seeing things like I did, for 3 years I pretty much fantasized about blowing my brains out, then things just changed... Can't explain it really, and it's only happened within the past few months so I am still sitting in awe of it all. Look at it this way, the fact you are still alive is pretty much a big answer in itself right there. If deep down you really felt that the universe was all just PooVille and pointless then you would have left a long time ago. You have way more control than you probably realize. And yeah it is kind of messed up because if YOU have control then so do your opposites but that doesn't mean that one destroys the other, it just makes the battle more complex and hard to deal with. It only takes over and wins if you let it. Maybe this is where some forms of evolution come from....

"I never look at it this way, but maybe kittens are harmed synchronistically when people of the dark side masturbate." - titmouse_

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I usually don't like to chime in just for agreement's sake, but FreeSpirit, you rocked it down. cool Your comment was a delight to read this morning. I guess the red flag for many was:

My life has become worse and worse ever since I learned about everything there is to know.

I thought, "Everything there is to know? Then what's this guy's problem? Why is this person depressed? Who can begin to offer consolation or advice to one who already knows everything?" Then I scanned a little further and saw that some sort of reliance on mind-altering substance was involved and my eyes just rolled up into my head. Well, who hasn't been there at some stage of the game? I wonder if there isn't a point at which the influx of information exceeds that of real-life experience, discernment, and general common sense? Often, the greatest harm that can come to us is the harm we do to ourselves without the want for any outside influences to bother with manipulation.

I remember early on in my "awakening" or whatever that's called when I was wandering around like Madame Rosa saying, "I see all." The universe has a funny way of presenting at least me with beings and situations to let me know, "You think you know. But the reality is, you really don't know anything at all."

I think it's kind of funny, how some here just don't seem to have the patience for extended "woe and suffering is me" stories. Especially when those sufferers won't take a step outside of their self-imposed exiles to help themselves, or see that there are those in the world who have real problems. The questions that come up in my mind when I read those stories are, Yes, this may be happening to you, so what are you going to do about it? Are you in some respects a contributor to what seems to me an inability to rise above? Or are you just going to sit there in a haze of pot smoke and the distortions of channeled materials from beings who don't even live here and take what's being given? I'm one who loves to shop at Ra for new ideas to wear, but I realize that it would do me not the least bit of good to buy everything in the store.

There are real tigers here, and it makes me smile to see that wonderful fiery, indomitable human spirit articulated so well as FreeSpirit has done.

"Oh where have you been, my blue-eyed son? Where have you been, my darling young one?" - Roxy Music (B. Dylan)

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Altamash, my particular knowledge that is hard to live with is different than yours but I can relate to the sentiments you express.   Sometimes I feel like Neo who took the red pill, but oops he doesn't get disconnected from the matrix he gets to be conscious stuck lying there still hooked up, no rescue crew in sight.    I know too much to have the peace of ignorance about my life I once had, but I don't know enough to truly change my situation.    I'd like to think that for you and for me there's got to be a better choice than just waiting it out until the world changes or we pass on.    The only thing that occasionally has brought me peace or hope about this situation is that every now and then something happens to show me that there is still a lot that I don't know.    So no matter how much it looks like being stuck in a box with no way out the reason you believe that is based on imperfect senses and incomplete knowledge, and it is in that shadow of doubt that the light comes in.

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altamash wrote:

The sto are no better then the sts...

Sometimes, when I hear a christian complaining that their god did not answer their prayers, I say "Yes He did. And the answer is NO."

Of course, I have no idea what 'god' is doing. I only say that to shake them out of the notion that their well-being depends on the actions of some diety.

STO doesn't owe us anything. If they intercede to help us we are grateful. If they stand back in silence - we keep moving. We continue in our own journey. Furthermore, I believe that STO sometimes operates just as covertly as STS. The very instinct of self-preservation in you may have been guarded by STO (you are still alive).

I made a comment in my last post (in another thread) about STO helping me. Two utility bills were mysteriously paid in full. Although I have no trouble paying my bills, I was having trouble with my mail. I was also distracted by constant harrassment and so I was falling behind out of sheer confusion. The mystery of the bills was solved (incorrectly sent to a relative's home where I vacationed - relatives paid the bills).

Did STO help me? Doesn't matter. The experience was positive. One less worry. I send a check to my relatives. I become stronger. I say 'thank you' and I keep moving. I don't look for shadowy figures of light and darkness.

The war games going on beyond your perception are not your concern. You are not a pawn awaiting a hand to move you. Move yourself.

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Ocean wrote:

The war games going on beyond your perception are not your concern.
You are not a pawn awaiting a hand to move you. Move yourself.

Beautifully Put, Ocean!  Simply Beautiful!

The Energy of One WILL Change the World!
One by One by One!

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altamash,
We are on the cusp of awakening into a higher consciousness but there are forces at work trying to keep us on the lower frequencies. Distractions Abound! You are constantly bombarded by subliminal messages in tv, the net, magazines,  radio etc, to distract you from realizing your full potential - videos games are great when we are really bored but what they do is have you submit to their "platforms" or reality. They suck your soul right out as I suspect computer monitors do as well. Situations of social withdrawal are symptoms of the "shaman, warlock, priest,..etc.) trying to escape, yet in the age of information it is hard to train within the proper context of soul shamanism. Each area of the globe has it's own strengths and weaknesses. This dilemma has spawned the "Technoshamans" which is an eclectic shamanism that combines the current technologies with ancient rights of passage.  Tho these technoshamans have not actually been trained in the ancient arts, they take written material from multiple fields and through a process of trial by error they build their own personal systems of technoshamanism.

Your soul is dying to get out.

And the whole 'what is the point of a family' & 'I can't change the world' bit ...( or along those lines )

This IS the point!

Pass the seed. Raise intelligent minds and empowered, spiritual souls.

But... there is always a but...

Between the industrial revolution, think tanks, monopolies, foreign powers, intelligence agencies, public schooling, mass media, internet, wire taps, social planning, identification numbers, radio, gamma, x and a host of other rays, mind control and 4 to 5d manipulations, deceit, and down right rotten and evil people...

WE ARE NOT ASCENDING NATURALLY. We are at war here and it is not in Iraq or Iran.
This is why you are here. To find the glitches in this matrix so that you can show others where the ladder is. And by expressing your well written piece here, you have essentially edited your reality as well as the reality of all others who read it. Imagine ripples in a pond. You ARE progressing and if you tend to think that you are not, that is because you know you should be progressing faster but you are not, for various reasons.

Keep your head up. I was raised Christian and served in the U.S. Military in the War in Iraq and call tell you that there is nothing "wrong" with being Muslim. There is a lot of Opposition towards Muslims but I can attest that the some of the nicest persons I have ever meet were in Iraq and just happened to be Muslims. Don't let that shit drag you down man! You are obviously a soul that needs to shine - so you better do it!

Hyperdimensional Blogging

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Hey altamash,

All I can say is Hogwash. Oh I know you believe what you wrote but it's hogwash.

Your "knowledge" sounds like the little kid that saw the cistene chapel and said "whoa I want to do this." So you go and read all the books you can on art and about the "masters". You accumulate all this "knowledge". Then first time you go to draw something you draw a stick figure.  "Damn that isn't anything close to what I had in my mind." So you try again and get sauage fingers and spaghetti arms and legs and your like man this is crap, I should be able to do what I saw in that chapel."

Or perhaps your like the guy that tries to pick up the guitar you stum and it sounds like crap, you take lessons from a teacher and again read all the books you can but can't get te lessons down, so you tell yourself, I 'm capable of learning in the system, I'll just do it for me. A few months later even as you practice you say " Man I sound like crap" and give up. Maybe IF you give it a bit more time you figure out YOUR SYSTEM. Maybe the guitar isn't for you, maybe it's that harmonica or drums, you give up on the experiences, searching and you never know - it's when you give up that yea life is the sh*ts.

Seriously what do you "do" with all your knowledge. Do you love your parents in all their  "Orthodox" ways. Do you examine your freinds and try to figure out what they want from you? Do you love your "significant other du jour" inspite of their lumps and help them through their lessons(because they have lessons too you know) Do you see a complete stranger and give them more than a few bucks, do you try to significantly impact their life does it even cross your mind you can invite them into your house?

A person you know for less than 4 months, do you go (tens) thousands of dollars in debt to help them. Then a few months later they get diagnosed with cancer and die, not paying back a single sent but expressing regret. Your not sure how your going to pay for the debt, the money you owe or how you're even going to put food on the table and make your house payments but you love and  forgive that person regardless. Then Less than a year later the same circumstances come up with another person. Do you loan the person money or pass because "man I got screwed last time?"

Do you know yourself well enough to even know what lessons you need to learn or HOW YOU EVEN LEARN?

I ask these not judging you or making pressumptions but because I have some friends who have all this "knowledge" but aren't really applying it to their life - contrary to what they say. They tell me they have peace - but find solace in the bottle. they tell me they are self realized but are different people when they drink. I ask this because many have this knowledge in their heads but haven't experienced it and worked it into their lives. Trying something once or twice isn't really experiencing it. That's not being committed to what they know, that's dabbling and testing the water with their toes. Do you milk each encounter and experience for what it's worth or say' "well I learned this or that and that's enough?"

When you "learn" all you have, you can't hold people to live according to what you have learned. Your going to get dirty. But do you let the dirt roll off/ keep yourself clean or do you let their sh*t stick to you? Do you follow the wisdom from below/ the lower wisdom of your emotions or do you say "inspite of all that is before me and what I'm feeling on the inside...this is what needs to be done" Do you then do it? Do you even hear or see a second choice beyond "I'll do what feels good to me?"

Maybe things happen because of your choices, do you man up and say "yup that was a poor choice, how do I correct it and get back on track?"

When I hear people say"I hurt or kill people in my mind...but I would never do that in "real" life." Those are the people I find don't really know themselves. The image of themselves mentally is different than the way they feel themselves in the heart. Be the sculptor of your life and widdle away the things that detract...become that person you want to be.

The lowest common denominator in your life is you.

For what it's worth.

Peace,
Teddy

"It means the Matrix can't tell you who you are" - Trinity

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at the end we're all just idiots learning, making mistakes to learn again. Maybe I'm already a poineer in my negative field. Which makes sense as when it comes to being selfish we all 'know' HOW

My lessons are complete. I know what there is to know. You wanan think im stupid, go ahead, I know im right for my being.

Whats left is ACTION. Either i polarize towards positive or negative. Which in my case, after all these years i have a feeling i was already in control. Feel like my power already existed and that i've already 'done that'.

Time for another analogy:

Im sure many are familliar with MMORPG games here. What happens is excatly what happens in life and the universe.

There are levels. 1 to could be 80 or 100 or any max lvl. Now beings come to play. Some want to get high and mighty fast. So they would do ANYTHING to get there. I know cuz i have. I spend as much TIME as i can. I use OUTSIDE HELP by buying Cash Shop items which give me an edge in my game. By spending more TIME you learn everything there is to know about that particular environment. By getting OUTSIDE HELP you are either calling the sto or sts for help. Now imagine i describe the negative way of playing. Priorities are:

Be the highest lvl possible cuz seriously there is no point being low lvl, too many problems to list when you have limited skills

High lvl also means less competition. You have less to worry about your own kind. Easy to manipulate, Enough said.

And im sure there are many other things we can describe about the negative way.

But like all negative beings. There comes a time when you're so ON TOP OF YOUR GAME that you get BORED OFF YOUR MIND.

This is when people quit their characters cuz they're like max lvl and nobody to compete with. The only thing left to do is:

BECOME POSITIVE or Continue being bored and do what you do.

Positive beings have the advantage of getting somewhere, BECOMING and helping lower levels reach the top. So basically you ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING TO DO.

Now i feel like I may have been one of those negative lords who may have reached max lvl i.e. sixth density. Makes sense now when you think about REVERSING POLARITY. I thought we do that in the level we're in, but i guess not. We downgrade again and restart it seems.

We're all renegades dont forget, No one needs to teach us how to be negative, we already know and are masters of our skills. Our job simply seems to be CHANGING to POSITIVE which is the hardest part.

Letting go is not easy my friend, You guys talk like its such a simple thing. Dont forget some have spend countless incarnations just to come to this point. Just because you struggled in your past and have it easy this time around doesnt make you special. Im suffering now because my way of learning is very spectacular. Yes 'spectacular' if you walked in my shoes you'd be like 'holy shit' this guy is still 'hanging in there' after all that. Nothing is easy which is why its a challenge.

My way of learning is very crazy, I need to go head first into hell and come back out each time dealing double damage. And i obviously need a healer to constantly heal me or i'll be KO very soon. What happens if you dive 'splat' in water. Obviously water ressistance is huge and you will hurt yourself. But lets say if water was sts and you had a healer to heal you, You go spat, hurting yourself and the 'sts' while the healer keeps you alive. Makes sense ? thats how i learn.

Sure it may seem like im either 'doing nothing' or not getting anywhere or 'waiting for something to happen'. But in 2 ways that is right and wrong. If i do 'nothing' then i go back to what i always WAS. And if decide to do something, then the game has just started for me. All this was just practice.

In the end its all up to me either i rise with my own strength or say hello to my friends who will visit us soon.

All my posting here was just another wake up call to those who know what im babling about, THIS IS THE LAST TIME MY FRIEND, AND I THINK YOU ALREADY KNOW THAT, LAST TIME I TRYING THIS FOR REAL. IF YOU FAIL ME AGAIN THEN PLS DONT CRY.

My argument is the way sto's teach is not right. If you think there is a flaw with the way you teach me then plz fix it cuz im trying from my end. Its obviously not working.

As for things like drugs and what not, In the end you all are abusing drugs anyways dont deny it. You are all high on drugs when you're watching tv, listening to music, FEEDING, Making fun of others etc.

What matters is wether you let the drugs take over you or not. TELL ME DO I LOOK LIKE WHO CANNOT RESSIST ? Cuz if im already 'controlled' i wouldnt be talking here. My agenda is not to change YOU.

Weed makes me lazy, which can create other problems, which is why i've cut it down to doing it only 'sometimes'. Too much weed and you become sts prime. Sit there all day only thinking about your next high and what you will have to do to get it.

I came here with an open mind obviously to pull out others of my kinds to give me their opinions, in the process i became more negative because of other infuences in my daily life. Yet love comes again and again. Lets see what happens.

*If some drugs let you actually become ONE with the ONE and for a moment you are ONE then you obviously 'BEEN THERE', 'DONE THAT', KNOW EVERYTHING THAT IS TO KNOW*

....FOR A MOMENT. then you forget

Thats why i came to you, Bring me back, remind me of what i've forgotten. Cuz UNITED WE STAND, DIVIDED WE FALL

All for One and One for All

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btw nice to see you here sameer, always good to know that someone i know is working on the path aswell.

So have some of you reached the point of knowing how selves operate ? lol maybe i'll share that.

I wouldnt be surprised to find out some of the people i've met in real life maybe simply be 'ME' in simultaneous mode.

Where i fail, my other selves save me.

Some of you posted some nice positive feedback, I respect your energies for that. I came harshy against some of you, i apologize for that.

I wouldnt know how it feels to be hurt, till i hurted someone.

talk on msn sameer, im still using same id

All for One and One for All

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yep!! I will do that.... Now, I was reading an article about self realization...what is it....and the writer who wrote the artice made some sense lets see if I could make sense the same way as he did and if you could make sense out of this what am bout to blow...

When we are awake and lets say am typing right now this is my EGO. A cover over my  base conciousness but I use the term "I" to respresent myself so, this is my first I. Now, when I was sleeping I had a dream and in my dream I died. I wake up in the morning and narrate the dream to someone and say I was dead in my dream. But the EGO "I" was still lieing down and sleeping but how that "I" died in his sleep?. So, that says We have a differen way of precieving ourselves in another way too. which is in a dream state. Now, when am in a deep sleep and people say thats where the real spiritual dreams come from everything else is whats been feeded to us is reconstructed to form dreams that we dream either they are our own creation or if we leave the doors open anyone can jack into your mind and produce these dreams basically these dreams will be of those theta wave streams where your soul is awake. Now, when am in deep sleep right I have a dream or I might not have a dream but then thats the true I. because the EGO flattens itself on that level and the illusional I of dreams also dissolves with that I.

To, say the self realization would be to learn and be aware of all the possible conciousness of yours wether be it in your dreams or in your ego making yourself ONE is just like that. And then one could say he had a self realization because he is aware of himself and his conciousness in all the states that define his I thats Is ONE.


OKee, dude that was something in my own words i can't pull out the whole article that I have read in a newspaper ditto..but i did my best to say what i really meant and it should make sense. Now, let me ask you Bilal do you have control over your dreams..do you have lucid dreams. OR are you aware in what state do you sleep. Cuz personally thats what am working on and I get the answer that am always stuck in the theta wave patterns or RAM and never get to delta but I dream a lot every friggin night if i sleep 8 hours I will dream for atleast 6 hours and everytime I would open my eye I would be in some dream. Just yesterday, I smoked weed after a long time and guess what happend I saw some UFO could be stars moving or could be UFO's or some LIGHT KITES cuz of the festival but some did went like stars zoom and very well could have been matrix trying to trigger the theory of UFO's into my mind but I was aware of myself who I was the weed didn't take over me. Now, when i went to sleep i ended up encoutering a UFO myself.

In my dream I was watching this UFO up in the sky that was like pale yellow coloured and it was too small it wasn't even a space shit but a small computerized UFO like saucer that  had a red light on its top it came down and people were scared to go near it and I wanted to know the truth so i went ahead and it came up on my face and lowered itself and I touched it and said howz it going my friend? and then it made some kind of strange sound that was like some kind of wave that went right into my brain and I was like what? and I seriously was smiling all the time and then thought may be it talks in terms of waves or something or my ears are not capable of picking up its frequency so I tried to read on it and it was something written on it in english and right then it just flew away from me. strange isn't it..now I have two self explaination on this dream one is that it happend due to the smoking weed and watching those lights and  the whole dream is self explainatory to me in my own mind thru why and how everything happend. Now, my problem is when am in my EGO the present state of conciousness am aware of all the things but am still unconcious at that level but i show the same kind of intellect to look into things and truth and most of these dreams break away everytime i start thinking and showing signs of intellect and fearlessness. Which then explains me someone really keeps records of what I dream and it cancels these dreams so that I don't get too confident and stuff but if I act dum believe me the dream would go very long like a friggin whole new life and a new story for hours... 

I am pretty sure you might have read the book the Teachings of Don Juan...I would suggest you should read it...it really show how one becomes a man of knowledge some of the wisdom is in metaphors but most of it is very well written to show you the path and am right now trying to make that knowledge practical and one of the main steps is to set up dreaming basically lucid dreaming and am having hard time doing it....but am still trying...

" Love is the understanding and unspoken bond between you and the creator "

"Loving is an art that is the state of creation"

..........Lyrically am suppose to SHINE.........
..........I am the ONE that makes you  BLIND........
..........And am that darkness that lets you SHINE.........

Re: Why do they do this to you ?

yeah, yeah read it all been there experienced it lol.

Dont forget the REAL YOU is the 'SILENCE BETWEEN YOUR THOUGHTS'

Ego wont be fed if you keep an open mind and not submit to any form of belief system. Then again my understanding of EGO is completely different, I dont put my EGO in a problematic spot. EGO exists, its part of me. There is not 1 EGO but there can be thousands. Like i said how we truly are the silence between our thought in that sense all that really matters is what you polarize towards. If you feed your ego negative thoughts, your ego will support you there, feed it positive, notices how it starts becoming quiet. Because in the end the only being you should be really hearing is the ONENESS OF ALL THAT IS.

As for UFO, while i probably never seen on in real life, i've seen plenty in my dreams with shapes that is truly unique. Whoever is responsible for this is obviously only making themselves known and not getting any closer. In my case it can simply be a sign of alliance. Negative 4d beings do come to ally if you truly want to become sts. Dont forget some incarnees here came from 5th and 6th densities. Having allies with such being should they become negative could be really advantageous for the negative sts 4d beings. So this may be their sign of 'i am there, want to join us ?'

Lucid dreaming/astral projection/Sleep paralysis, pretty much experienced it all at some point in my life. I did notice however that i have 99% chance of dreaming if didnt smoke weed the other night. For me weed has only 25% chance of dreaming and 10% chance of remembering that dream. So need to cut it down to only when you want to unwind or want some 'extra' information from the other realms and obviously it will come distorted and its up to you to disect the truth from the lies.

Some say Dream/Astral plane is 4d, WRONG. Dream/Astral plane is 'Time/Space' whereas our physical reality is 'Space/Time' and they both exist on 3d. It is said that before we jumped into the human form, 'WE' (consider group souls when i say WE) existed in Time/Space and because of our lack of physicality we were manipulated by the 4d sts (lizzies as the c's like to call them since they're reptelians who graduated from 3d and now in 4d) to jump into the human form which was later edited and most of our dna was 'turned off'.

A lot of people would describe the 'point of us being here' in many different ways. But the simple truth is we are not evolving naturally anymore. We've been 'hacked' and now only a very few get a chance to raise our level of awareness to such an extent that we can finally graduate and leave this never ending cycle. While some of us may have come from higher planes to assist in this transformation. We all take the risk after entering this system. Some of us may not make it and therefore will have to repeat this cycle even though we've already 'done it'.

In a sense you're all Neo from Matrix and your job is to save the world by leading the way. To find glitches in the system and tell everyone else about it. But obviously our manipulators have created a very powerful system called 'RELIGION'. Most ex-muslims will agree its nearly impossible to teach a muslim about higher understanding. Their belief system is such that 'if its not in the book' its false. Now imagine why me and you incarnated in a muslim family. Obvlioulsy to find flaws within that religion, and let me tell you I have. When i started this i was such a noob i couldnt convince anyone. But now i've reached a point where is very easy for me to express what i want to say. Not so long ago i had a chat with some of my friends, Sameer remember Munzer ? yea him and 1 more friend of mine and i was explaining them the levels of the universe. Guess what for the first time they listened intently and at the end of my conversation, both of them had nothing to say. Ofcourse i did not attack their belief system i just stated the obvious:

The fact that 2 polarities exist, how they feed, and whats 'really going on here'.

I have a feeling that when the time is right, I might be able to convince some muslims. Meanwhile i still need to find more glitches and flaws.

Joke for the day:

What happens when you smoke weed ? Smoke goes thru the lungs, into your bloodstream, passes the blood/brain barrier, reaches the THC receptors in our brain....Oooh did i say THC receptors or Cannabinoid receptors.

The Endogenous Cannabinoid System

For any drug for which there is a receptor, the logical question is, "Why
does this receptor exist?" The short answer is that there is probably an
endogenous agonist (that is, a compound that is naturally produced in the
brain) that acts on  that receptor. The long answer begins with a search
for such compounds in  the area of the body that produce the receptors and
ends with a  determination of the natural function of those compounds. So
far, the search has yielded several endogenous compounds that bind
selectively to  cannabinoid receptors. The best studied of them are
anandamide and  arachidonyl glycerol.  However, their physiological roles
are not yet known.

A smart person should already know that Marijuana is a gift from god, dont ever disrespect it. If we can have THC specific receptors in our brain, then its obviously there because its 'allowed' or 'accepted'. And like i stated how most of our bodily functions are 'turned off' doesnt that make sense ? Our bodies naturally produce Anandamide which is chemically similar in structure to the THC compound.

So if weed is a drug:

What happens when you drink tea or coffee ? Injested thru the stomach, reaches that bloodstream, passes the blood/brain barrier. (I couldnt find any more details after this) But its obvious that after it reaches the brain we are rewared with hightent sense of consiousness, more alertness and overall, being more aware.

Similarly other 'herbal drugs' like lyra suggested in her post which she deleted, and yes i read that before you deleted it.

After all they are all NATURALLY OCCURING PLANTS. Seriously im gonna slap the next guy who disrespects weed. I dont care if its crack/heroin/lsd/pcp/dex/uppers/downers whatever the hell that was synthetically produced, THEY are drugs. But even they have a a purpose and obviously should not be abused.

Time for another analogy:

Who made us, plants and animals ? (open-minded) answer: NON-HUMANS

Who made Buildings, Cars, Aeroplanes, pharmaceuticals: HUMANS with the help of what already existed.

Humans have the capacity to MAKE or BREAK. If something is DONE RIGHT it will FUNCTION RIGHT. But ofcourse we are limited to our level of intelligence. With the right knowledge we can/have (already exists) technology that can cure any virus. Anti-gravity technology, Time-Travel technology, Trans-Density Portals. Thank the suppressors for not releasing such information.

Imagine if we had such technology. Lets say i have a machine that can a) feed me b) make me all kinds of high c) take me anywhere i want, trans-density even d) heal me or even ressurect me if i die

Dont forget anything is possible even that. Imagine what kind of lessons we would have then.

But here's the kicker for everyone:

Service to Self beings (negative) rely 'OUTSIDE OF THEMSELVES' using technology to manipulate.

Service to Others beings (positive) rely 'INSIDE OUR SELF' and technology is replaced by intelligence and innate skills.

It is said that there are beings that can destroy the universe simply by 'THOUGHT'

...more food for thought later, *ask and ye shall recieve*

All for One and One for All