Acting on Synchronicities.

Calling the agony aunt in you all, Mahatma has a problem. This isn't easy for me to explain clearly but I'll do my best. And it could become rather pathetic in parts but I can't help that.

Friday I walked into a music store and instantly the song Everlong (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4H0BMfqFP9c) appears on the radio there. The song reminds me of a woman i used to know and sums up my situation well. I hadn't heard it in a long time, so I went home and search through all my Foo FIghters mp3s to find the song then listen to it about twenty times over the next few days. Today I took a music quiz on facebook and the first question was 'who sings this song?' Of course the song was Everlong. Not a spectacular sync but a sync imo.

This woman A* i find on facebook, her profile is private so I can't contact her without clicking 'add to friend' or 'send a message'. Well the crux of my problem is whether I should hit that button or not.

I think I'm getting clues in the form of the synchronicity I had and the Tarot cards I'm pulling from the deck. Over the last two weeks I've pulled a crazy amount of Wheel of Fortunes and Ace of Wands. Way more than would be the average considering that there are 78 cards in the deck. I once was drunk infront of my computer and considered pulling a card while asking about A*. At first I didn't want to but then I felt i tingling sensation at the top of my head, so I drew a card and it was The Sun. Yesterday I considered clicking the 'add to friend' button and drew another card in relation to it, the card was Strength.

Here is the best description of card meanings that I've found: http://www.taroscopes.com/to_card_meanings.html It's the creation of Michael Tsarion.

Without knowing any more, would you use the information available concerning Everlong and Tarot cards to influence your decision? If I click 'add to friends' and she rejects me, knowing full well what I am asking of her, then I have gained and lost nothing. However, she rejected my advance  in 2005 and I didn't take it well at all. Something in me likes having a little bit of hope to live off, extinguish that and my life has often gone to shit.

Although she rejected me in February 2005, I was playing football with 4 friends in June at the local college and what I can only understand as her car pulled up next to the pitch for 1 minute. I recognised the car as I've seen her driving it once. At the time when she stopped, the four other people looked over to the car and not recognising who was driving the car, played on. I was about 30-40m away and could not recognise her either, so I ignored her and kept playing (which she could have seen as me rejecting her, since when she rejected me 3-4 months earlier she did it by walking straight past me when I asked to speak to her, as if i was shit on a shoe. I didn't take that well and could easily harbour a grudge against her forever for what she did and the way she did it).

I may sound like a 14 year old with a crush, but this is damn important to me. Thanks for reading and i'll answer questions if there are any.

ps she was in a relationship in Feb 2005 hence the ignominious beat down I took.