Re: implants
Wow, Proto. That's some heavy stuff. I've had similar terrifying experiences, and they're no fun. You said you now wonder about Sylvia Browne. Do you feel there is any connection between saying an affirmation found in her book and your nighttime visits? It makes me wonder that even if the particular words are benign, that if the intentions put forth by the person writing them are of the darkness, they can be harmful. I'm very suspicious of Sylvia Browne myself. I just get a creepy vibe from her.
Hey Lono. Yes, there was a time in my life when I was younger (from about 16 years old to 20 years old) I would just eat up anything Ms. Browne would write. I got into her because I saw her on some Pay Per View special and was going through some tough times like a scarring break up, dropping out of HS, loneliness, etc, so it made sense for me at the time to cling on to something like that, especially when my parents rarely spoke about religion (which is great when I come to think about it hehe). I'm like you, I just don't get a good vibe from her anymore. Anyway, I said one of her "Affirmations and prayers" about surrounding yourself with the White Light, including other color lights that were specific to other things (i.e. yellow for hapiness, silver for protection, etc) and got mixed results. A few times, I was high as a kite, then next, just utter confusion and sulleness that when I look back, I really had no idea what I was getting myself into. It was blind faith and that blindness got me into that "little guy" situation. I don't mean to sound funny, but when I see those psychic books like Sylvia Browne and John Edwards, I just think about those classless whiny Long Island women with the typical LI accent, no fashion sense and just trash, just showing off to everyone their "spiritual" side when they have those books on their little coffee table, but it's anything but a superficial surface of one.
It's awesome how you brought up her intentions and how it seems the words seem benign, but it's probably not. I also thought about her "spirit guide" is cloaked under something positive/heavenly, otherwise, why did I have that experience? I used to go to psychics like a spineless being, but now I don't go to them and question "where is their source coming from?". I'd rather figure myself out and work on myself instead of someone implanting false information such as "you will have a career in music!" Ha.
I haven't had those experiences since, but I do sometimes get that paralyzed feeling when I'm half awake or when I'm snoozing and snap out of it, I get this outer pressure to just go to sleep, which creeps me out. Maybe "they" have a better game plan instead of freaking me out with their materialization in hopes that I would be naive and just pass it off as "normal".
And yes, I will agree with you on your last paragraph. I believe too, it was for my best interest that I finished that book, despite all the distractions because I can be easily distracted at times, but I just kept on with it.
PleiadeanHealer,
Thanks for sending me that thread. At first, I was trying to read "Excuse me, your life is waiting" but couldn't read it for some reason and figured to read "Oh God" first. I think now that when I got back to reading "Excuse me", it would make much more sense, especially knowing that she went through her illness and her explanation of it. It was an easy read and loved it. I will say those 4 things on sunday, since I will have more free time and will feel more relaxed than tonight and tommorow. I'll let you know what happens.
– Carlos Castaneda