Topic: Dr Feel Good
A few days ago I experienced the unusual .
For half a day I was completely overwhelmed with a "feel good" factor.
Fear was non-existent, I mean really, I had absolutley no fear or thought about mortality, bills, the future, what people thought of me, etc.
I felt love for all.
This was effortless.
It was as if as soon as a negative thought entered or attempted to enter my thoughts, I kicked in and said "get out", there is no place for you here, there's no need for worry today.
It felt like it wasn't me, like an external or force outside of myself was causing myself to feel this way, that some kind of break-through had occured.
Of course, when I woke the next day it was gone and I was back to my stressfull self.
Worry about work, bills, cars, what people think etc returned.
I don't live a virtious life and am wondering is this a chemical reaction occuring inside, a form of self-control, external forces, the Cosmos/Higher Self or something else?
I mean it so bloody frustrating, I say to myself today, there is no need for worry or fear, everything will take care of itself, why worry about life when it will take care of itself, death is inevitable, your bills will be paid, everything is going to be ok, there's no need to worry about a single thing but I feel as if some kind of dampening field, that was temporarily lifted, is returned because no matter how hard you try to reinact the events when things/feeling were good, it cannot be relived.
Until, ofcourse, the next time, when, unexpectantly, I'll wake up and half or all of the day will be a joy to live.
What do you think is causing these periods of "feel good" and are you experiencing them yourself?