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I'll try to answer your questions and follow up with more details.

Yeah, they are jerks and the current control system doesnt seem likely to change.

I dont actually see the mouths moving, yes, they come from the direction of the persons speaking, but in some or many cases they seem to be in random locations from my apt complex, or from the city streets.  The voices have different intonations and dont sound like my inner self voice.

Once while with my mother and sister at a movie theater, I could hear the man behind us make statements like, "you three are cold, cold", and I asked my mother if she heard this man and she said yes, but she could not make out the exact words, a real jerk at a movie (which happens alot now adays).

At my apartment complex there is an outdoor courtyard and the apartments all face each other and when their windows are open I hear their voices (and sometimes cant make them out), I have trouble determing if the voices are from transdimensionals in invisble parallel dimensions in vans in the streets or in adjacent apartments.  While traveling and staying in hotel rooms for instance, I would hear voices from the nextdoor hotel room and when I walked out into the hallway, there was a house keeping cleaning woman, which tells me they must be in a parallel dimension in the same hotel room that the cleaning lady was vacuming.  Really strange.  One time I heard a clear voice emanate from a closed hotel door as I walked down the hotel hallway to get a soda.  He said-- "it's a sci-war, or psy-war". The voices are more intense while staying in hotel rooms.  They must be following me and they must have been wrongly told I am a threat (I'm non-violent and non-threatening, but I have got angry before at all of this and would talk out loud so the next door hotel room occupants (transdimensionals) would hear me.  At times I heard someone bang on the wall because I was talking too loud, so I stopped talking out loud as to not disturb the next room occupants.  If you've ever seen some homeless man talking out loud on the city streets, he is most likely mentally ill and on no medication, but still talking back to his voices.  I wonder how many homeless people are tragically victims of transdimensionals or earthly trapped spirits having sick fun taunting someone with ESP (extra sensory perception)?

This all reminds me of what the film industry has shown somewhat in films like Scanners (where in Canada, the main character walks into a mall and can acutely hear what the two older women are saying about how he looks, ragged and homeless).  Of course the whole head exploding bit in that movie is pure invention for sci-fi effect/plot.  In that movie they give the main character a shot of medicine and the tangled mixed voices he hears goes away (yet he is still able to mind read).  Another movie called The Next One (or Time Traveler) has a scene in it that shows the main character hearing a mixture of tangled voices talking about him.  Another movie, They Live, shows an invisble flying mechanical orb that monitors people and can only be seen with special sunglasses.

To further answer your questions, yes, I have very acute hearing.  The voices coming from actual people would be heard by others while most of the voices I make out definently come from invisible sources and cannot be heard by passer bys.

When I am bombarded by words they feel like they are actual differentiated words/voices and not my internal fualty imaginations (audial hallucinations).  They respond back when I engage in mental dialogue, but I tend to not engage and ignore them.

I guess I am hyper-keen, as you say

Thanks for the interest in my struggle.

My understanding is that I am dealing with one:

departed spirits trapped in the ethereal nearby dimensions

two:

synthetic techno transdimensional secret black ops wavelength intrusion and monitoring voices

three:

fallen angels/demons

four:

good angels occasionally (when I breakthrough to higher more benevolent realms/dimensions)

five:

purely brain dysfunction hallucinations (though rarely)

I guess you could call me a disabled psychic or clairaudient/clairvoyant (because I can also see violet spirit and angel etheric forms even when I close my eyes), or you could simply write it off as another nutty schizophrenic.

I read once in a Brad Steiger book that a preacher researched into paranormal/supernatural/conspiracy fields and then began to be harrased by them and when he traveled to Japan to give a lecture and they scanned his passport, they would not let him into the country.  It was also mentioned in the same book that there were supressed studies in psychiatric hospitals on the mentally ill that determined in some cases the sufferers were being possessed by demons and harrased by demonic voices.

Also from my point of view I am hyper sensitive (or sensitized, as a counselor once told me) which would explain the voices and coincidences/synchronicities I am having.

There are alot of good-non-physical-spirits, like humans, animals , etc, plants, flowers, that will support your journey, Regardless of the 'mental' feelings, you are welcome back from the War.  Period.  Now , move on, keentraveler,,,,, Love and Honour, regardless of what you have seen, been , or heard!

You are not alone, Love's energy  does support one's journey!

True enough, so you must seek physical enjoyment, physical- touch therapy, and cry, and cry,

And Behold the Child Within

It's a sticky mess, wondering if homeless people are just more attuned, thereby unable to fit in with normal society. OR, they have serious drug/alochol problems that tweak thier brains ever so slightly and then they can't turn the stuff OFF.
       You can never really tell, though I can't say I haven't considered going over 'the deep end' due to inability to just fit in these days. I'm too darn stubborn to be a homeless drunk/drug user though.
       The other sticky spot I too came across in figure out why I see and feel what I do is how much of it is 'normal' psychosis justified by all the information out there on the internet. I had to really humble down at one point, and stop playing the 'cloak and dagger, they are watching me' stuff, just to see if I was IMAGINING it all.
   This is not to say you are Keentraveler. All I'm saying is that you have to entertain all manner of possiblities and narrow down your choices based on true observations. The first thing I did in that area was go back to experiences of when I had NO KNOWLEDGE of conspiracy theories or hyperdimensional realitys. In my case, childhood. Indeed, there were enough expeirences there to warrent considering that I wasn't trying to just make myself seem even more different and important.
  A few things that have helped me immensley.
  Mediate...alot. Not for New Age mumbo jumbo reasons but to distinguish where your voices end and THIERS BEGIN. Your posts suggest that you are aware of that, which is good. Another thing about mediation that I just figured out, is don't just BE IN YOUR HEAD. Theres a spot, just below your navel where Don Juan says is your Will. I started concentrating on this just as much as my, higher energy centers and the results were quite extrodinary. Firstly, I could FEEL certain people and things tug on my will. This world is designed to exhaust you so much by day, that at night all you want is to just pass out. I found that I could dodge alot of these 'will sappers' which gave me alot more energy.
   If you join the spot of the will, with the spot in the center of your head, you have the will to turn off alot of the voices, or at least pinpoint them better. I've had a clarity of mind rarely experienced for the past few months, which increased my perceptions ten fold. It's amazing what we overlook...
  Diet.
  Diet is really important. too much crap gum's up your works and makes it harder to function. Be sure to have a well rounded diet with lots of greens. Dump sugar and especially ASPERTAME. This stuff is DESIGNED to muddle your brain.
  Exerciese.
  Not to look buff or anything. Just to cleanse your lymphatic system and keep your circulatory system tuned enough to keep everything flowing. Stagnant energy means avenues for attack.
   There are alot of people fighting with this stuff, myself included. It's not fun or easy, and most times quite daunting.
   Especially when you consider a hyperdimensional race of time traveling beings aeons more technologically advanced than you as your foe.
   One step at a time...

GreyCat:

thanks for the thoughts and advice on meditation and diet, I never was a good meditator (though i am mostly calm most of the time)

yes, i know what's happening to me is real and not an illusion of my mind, mainly because I have been dealing with it since 1990 (during my tour of duty overseas in Korea) and before the whole internet proliferation and mass disinfo mechanizations...

its way too constantly present and palpabal to dismiss, I am sure there are others out there with similar life stories (I have met some on the city streets and in Vets Hospitals), my God, just think of all those Pink Floyd lyrics and songs about On the Run, or One of these Days (were gonna get you!), or Shine On you Crazy Diamond, and Echoes, The Wall, The Division Bell, --all which I can relate to...  also the Roger Water's solo music effort where he sings of the bravery of killing someone from far away like from jets, or how much a submarine captain makes (as of a few yrs ago, over $200,000 a yr)

again thanks

Hi again,

Pamelajean,

Yes, i have a big disability when it concerns energy and concentration.  Its why I stay inside my apartment alot and am sometimes fearful of going out onto the city streets.  I go to get daily walking exercise when I can, to a coffee cafe for instance.  I try not to drive much in city traffic and only to the video store or grocery store or Vets Hospital (once every couple of months, for them to treat and monitor my condition).  I am also so dragged down by the constant litany of voices that follow and plague me.

Lately, I have not been getting my mail, and am worried someone in my apartment complex is stealing it (a federal offense).  Someone slided my bank statement under my door the other day and it was opened and so now someone or many know what I  make each month, but I am not worried much since i dont make much.  The apt complex is labeled secure entry, but thats a joke since people sometimes leave the doors open to the outside city streets and just the other week the office put out a sheet of paper warning people not to let in strangers, and that a stranger gained access and was fooling with opening apt doors...

When you're already paranoid, things like this make it worse.

I have not received my credit card statement, so now I am worried about identity theft and those in my apt complex knowing my debt status.

As far as living an exciting life, I often wish my life were simpler and less troublesome.

I remember a song lyric by the Doors and Jim Morrison (from the song, The Movie, maybe) where he says: "have you lived a "" life?, enough to base a movie on?"

As far as writing a book, I thought I could try, and I did, but it went nowhere.  I dont have the concentration, energy, drive, motivation, or talent to.

I have not written a poem in years and feel depressed alot.  With my mother's passing, I have felt a real wake up call that I am on my own now for better or worse.  I have no relatives nearby (they are thousands of miles away), but i have chosen my particular city (which I wont name for privacy) because its the only place I feel i fit in... i have a sister and step father that i talk to on the phone weekly, but I never discuss any of the strange parts of my life because they dont want to hear it.

Thus, i began posting here again for some little consolation.

As far as the physical realm being the weakest and our bodies being subtly possessed (perhaps overshadowed as David Icke describes as demonic reptilians who take ahold of certain bloodlines and dna corrupted genes), I agree, and am one of these, though I feel non-possessed in recent years, as opposed to previous years or a few times when I was ranting and raving in hotel rooms and my apartment abodes (even being kicked out of one apartment complex due to severe decompensation).  I am 100% certifiable, yes, but basically good hearted and well meaning easy going whatever gets you through the day or night kind of  person.

Like GreyCat pointed out:

How can one defend themselves and deal with a race of aliens and human collaborators that are eons ahead of us?

Its really tough, and I am surprised I have made it this far, and some of my veteran friends are in an early grave due to all this...

Well, that's all I can think of for now,

I dont mean to seem in my threads to always get the last word in, I only mean to respond as best I can.

Antaeus,

Interesting thoughts.

There is a dualistic nature to your thoughts, predator vs prey.

But there is truth in it.

I could have possibly become the predator if I would have joined Special Forces in my military days, or the Intelligence Agencies.  Though in the end it was not my path or professional choice.  I decided to rebel instead, and now find myself to be the prey.  All with acute senses and perceptions in the hunt and the hunted.

I know some veterans who have chosen the same path as me, some Spec Forces vets, who are now on the receiving end of harrassment and surveillance. 

Our lives are based on the choices we make, and perhaps i created this situation for myself.

I do feel like a lone wolf, and have been told by other former military vets that I might actually be part Sirian wolf-like in dna and origin, though if I am a wolf, and misunderstood to be a danger (most wild wolves are not liked by ranchers and have a bad reputation of predators, but the social and nature of wolves is amazing to study and watch them in their natural environments), I am a good wolf, hunted and taunted by higher up evil serpents and wolves... maybe even the vampiric humans (I have seen them in nightclubs, they are a weird subculture in major American and European cities, who actually drink blood and believe themselves to be vampires, its a condition they're in and there are groups like Facade who exist to role play and who knows what else they malevolently do?)