Hi, I'm new to this forum as well. Hopefully, this is a good spot to ask this question, because I'm a little confused. I can get the idea of questioning everything, that makes sense to me, to kind of back up my experiences with some kind of standards to check with myself did this really happen, how can I prove to myself it's just not my imagination.
Lyra, maybe you have some insight on this, or anybody else for that matter. Somewhere I remember you, Lyra, recommending the author of Taken's book, Karla and her books, as a resource. My confusion lies in that I've read over and over about free will, that we have free will, and if I can figure out how to cut and paste, I would take the exact quote above and put it in the box thingy:
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"4. And this may be the biggest reason of all - it seems that the way this reality works is that the Negs can't just directly invade us and our realities and completely just take us over and dominate us. We do have freewill, which means, they need to announce what they're going to do to us before they do it, this way, if we ignore it they can't be held accountable. They fulfilled their end of the bargain."[/center]
I think one of the people in Karla's book, Ted, was it? seemed like he was saying, no he did not want to be a part of the experience, and stuff was happening against his will. I've had stuff happen that seemed to be against my will, but was it really? Looking back now on experiences that were seemingly out of my control, my naivete, my lack of experience and knowledge and my lack of creativity to challenge myself to think that there are more choices than I thought I had at the time contributed to some very painful moments.
Sooooo, is there really freewill? Because of this thread and the question posed "What convinced you?" I'm even more aware that there is "stuff" out there. Hmm, some eye openers for me, was looking back and documenting certain events that I could not explain away. For instance, I was an adult before I figured out not everyone could see those shiny things around people (auras), coming to conciousness after a near fatal car accident, looking down on my body, my daughter, and the top of the head of the paramedic and thinking, is this what being dead is like, it's not so scary, and hearing someone talking then whooshing back into my body and looking up at the paramedic and turning my head towards my daughter. Accidentally remote viewing people, figuring out I usually get what I really really wanted and what I really really didn't want, finding the weird marks on my body, and finally (thanks Lyra for that idea) paying attention that there may be more to it that requires documentation. Also just paying attention to my environment, and questioning, challenging, asking better questions of myself.
I've also done some incredibly stupid things to see what would happen. Not on purpose, not that I deliberately went out of my way to see the consequences of my actions, but I did evaluate my actions afterwards, and went oh. Then after reading Lyra's website, and book, and some of the thought provoking threads and reevaluating certain experiences, I became more aware of the idea that more stuff is going on than I ever imagined. I've also been interested in Quantum Physics and Mechanics, so if string theory is correct and there is more than 1 dimension, why can't dimensions bleed so to speak into each other. Another thing that convinced me that there is a "matrix" or stuff out there. I asked for help from someone out west to stop some of the more painful stuff that was going on, and it stopped, like magic. The stuff that didn't stop are the ear ringing, clicks, and whumps while at my house, but those noises stop when I leave the house or go out of town. The phone clicks stopped, the phone ringing stopped, the shadows that would pop up now and again, (although really, that could be explained by brain injury except that it stopped) the really weird stuff that made me think and the only way to describe it is being singled out and picked on like in junior high. But the events were extreme and totally weird, including some that Lyra described on her website and in her book. And like that, with a snap of the fingers those "nonsense" things or stuff, stopped.
I'm convinced that there is something going on, that I have a responsibility to enjoy the experience of trying to "stalk my thoughts" as it were and I quote "You cannot afford the luxury of a negative thought". Another thing that I think I have to take responsibility for is having a goal to experience peace in my life. The idea that peace and love have ripple effects, perhaps like you VajRa described, a "backwards ripple effect". Not that I succeed, but hopefully the journey makes it worthwhile.
And that brings me back to free will. I intended that the bad stuff or nonsense stuff as I like to call it that creates fodder for loosh to go away, but it didn't until I got help from someone else.
And I apologize if I didn't make myself clear, or if my communication wasn't what I intended. A side effect of brain trauma is my communications skills aren't what I'd like them to be. What I intended to say, doesn't always match what comes out of my mouth, or fingertips.