I was wondering when the crickets were going to disappear after your post Kato3
. I was working late nights all this week, and so didn't have the opportunity to do that powerful post justice with a proper response. And then I logged on here and low and behold LightningEye resonated to and shared some of the exact words out of my head:
LightningEye wrote:And thank you so much for your tremendous post, Kato3. I think it benefited all who read.
A big thank you from me too for what you shared, it had such a clear pristine force to it. I've noticed when reading things you have written that there are certain words and phrases in there that seem to trigger a deep... almost contemplative silence where I am experiencing many different levels I was previously unaware of. I found myself doing that a lot in this one, as there was so much meaning behind meaning, layer upon layer, and, I guess the best term I can think of right now is that it was a true multi-dimensional experience.
What you posted on stabilized perception was awesome.
Kato3 wrote:I also note that there is a lot of stabilized perception going on in this thread.
(This is a term I read long ago in a book by Peter O. Erbe called “God I am from tragic to magic”)
The way Peter used this term and idea was that we get trapped in loops. “I believe what I perceive and I perceive what I believe.” There is not a lot of room for growth in this process. We do it all the time, we have this set of limited beliefs that we are always attracting proof of in the outer, we empower the outer physical reality as the real one, never owning it is our sole (soul) creation and hence all this proof we are attracting serves to lock us more firmly in our limitation. These beliefs are already held in place by genetics and social programming so add the three together and it is no wonder the majority of people are completely trapped in their own minds never getting out from underneath the weight of the loops they themselves are empowering.
That is bang on. I realize how often I limit myself with stabilized perception; put things into a box, only seeing what I empower and allowing that to add force to my sponsoring beliefs, and limiting my experiences of those around me... it really is something to be continually conscious of. I thought it was so interesting in terms of this thread, and I picked up on this stabilized perception before your post and afterwards. I found the silence after your post was truly deafening, and was thinking that there were so many levels and layers, that our beliefs and perceptions were the limit to what we would experience from what you shared... so in essence that silence made perfect sense, because it was such a different feel from what had been previously posted... thus those looking or fixated on the previous resonance would pass their eyes over it, sans comment or maybe even notice.. and it would and did take time before anyone addressed it. It was like you were invisible
, and I was almost relieved when I saw Lightning posted today haha 
kato3 wrote:I am the most grateful for those in my life who have gladly held my not so golden shadow. I love them fiercely for it because they own and hold what I clearly have not been able to. I have learned more through contrast (until recently) than I ever do by hanging around those people I adore.
This is such a powerful thing, as we are so often drawn into the trap of making everyone and everything wrong and outside of ourselves, creating enemies, instead of really looking within and seeing where we might be able to choose differently; to choose love, to choose to end the patterns we perpetuate, to choose to stop our enemy patterning. Also, that you have gratitude to those who don't hold the yummy and easy to love parts, that instead of making it wrong, you understand how difficult it is for them to hold this for you; that's beautiful. This is so true in my family, where I have to remind myself that they are holding these things for me to look at, and it's causing them pain to hold it for me, in the same way it causes me pain to experience what they're showing me, until I process it and release us all. Obviously as your post read and LightningEye just shared, one needs only to flow from their heart and out of resistance, be authentic and present, and those that can and are willing make the shift will join, and the rest seem to gracefully fall away. That's been my experience of it for sure. Thank you for sharing that paragraph, it had beautiful lessons in it.
Kato3 wrote:My emotional addictions and their physical counterparts as my drugs of choice. The addiction filled most readily by the inferior dance. How does it go? Abandonment by being judged and proven as separate feeds me rage covered sorrow with a grief aftertaste all made worth it, by a smooth creamy filling of lack of worth that brings the whole cocktail home. These perpetuated dramas are better than crack for those neuro- receptors that crave it. The other side of the coin are the various “I am better thought forms” These are like a designer drug, all white and gleaning but quick and euphoric in their power. Some of my favorites are “only I see the bigger picture so let me help illuminate you”, or oldies but goodies, I am much smarter, prettier, richer, thinner, better dressed, more loved, celebrated, talented, powerful, ah there are so many. A girl has her patterns and peptides of choice I suppose.
That part cracked me up. It’s spot on too, the whole bit with the designer drugs, hah. I would have to say as a fellow junkie myself, I could recommend you a batch that has served me well in the past. Loneliness sautéed in a heavy oil of alienation, battered in an, oh so special blend of "woe is me" breadcrumb, lightly spiced with self dislike, and let's not forget my favorite brand of dipping sauce, the downward spiral, for that added hint of flavor that does you right for the next week or two. Shoot up friends! 
Much Much Love, DasMoooooooose
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