Topic: What do you do for a living?
Hi all. I wanted to start this thread and invite everyone to tell what they do in this physical reality to make money. So this is an open thread, welcome to anyone who would like to post. (I guess all threads are that!).
So if you would all be so kind as to list your general occupation, I would certainly appreciate it.
Now here's the part that maybe nobody's interested in: my reason for starting this thread. If you could care less, please skip this part and just post your response. I'm looking to get as many answers as possible.
Since I was 14, I've worked public, paying jobs. Before that, I was helping to raise my newborn brother when I was 12. I've never not worked. Back in 2001 when I was pregnant, I figured out a way to work at home so that I didn't have to let someone else raise my son. So from then until a year ago, I was an independant contractor doing menial work from my home. Well, the company has closed shop, and for a year I've been out of work.
This wouldn't be so bad, but.....
During these past few years, I've had my awakening. It happened while I was working at home, and probably wouldn't have taken place if I hadn't been working from home. Then I got really sick, and I slowed down considerably on production. The company I was contracting for was the same one I worked at until my son was born. It was also where my husband worked. When they got rid of us, we closed his retirement account instead of transferring it to a new one (we thought we were moving out of the country).
So for the past year, not only have I not been bringing in money, we've also spent our entire savings on survival. On top of that, now I spend 3 times more on groceries and household stuff since I've gone pretty much all-natural, organic, and earth-friendly, upon my awakening.
Okay, I guess what I'm trying to say is this: How in the hell do you guys walk in both worlds? How are you able to be a truth seeker and still do the survival thing? If I had never woken up, it would be quite easy for me to just go out and get a J-O-B. But that's not the situation. I'm awake, I'm still physically ill, I can't stand to even go shopping anymore. I am a hermit. All I want to do is continue "quantumplating"--as lilmomma calls it. I have no desire to work my ass of for some multi-billion dollar corporation anymore.
My life and views have totally changed, and I don't know how to interface anymore. I feel so lost. And now we're broke and my DH is starting to show signs of getting sick of me sitting around reading, not making money.
I just can't stand the thought of going back to making someone else a buttload of money.
My problem is this. I'm stuck. I'm a jack-of-all-trades and master of none. I am having a hard time coming up with a home-based business that encompasses all of my wants and needs. It needs to make money, I'd like it to be local, it can't be very strenuous because of my health. The hardest part is though, that it has to actually have meaning or be something that helps other people or things. I don't believe in the same things anymore. This is so hard to explain. But I can't just do something to make money if it has no purpose in my life. And I mean more purpose than putting food on the table. My connection to the physical is tenuous at best. I'm barely here. How am I going to go back out there and do it all again, knowing the things I know now. How do you stay sane????
I'm sorry if this sounds like a pity-party. That wasn't my intention. I just need to get ideas from other people on how they handle the situation.
I know there are many who do the temp agency thing, but I really don't want to go there. My situation is restricted, for one thing. I'd have to work when my husband was at home (no sitter and I homeschool my son). And the biggest reason is because of their stupid tests. I don't piss in a cup for anyone anymore. I'm not a young robot, willing to do anything they tell me. I refuse to undergo that treatment so that I can work some 2 bit job that has no business doing a drug test. I'm not a doctor or pilot, for pete's sake! I will not subject myself to their control anymore. Hell, you have to piss test to get a job at a friggin video store nowadays. That's ate up! ![]()
Truth-seekers don't make much money (unless you're Icke or Wilde, I guess). What I want to do will not support me.
What I really want is to find my perfect mate, live in peace on a big chunk of land, be self-sufficient, and never have to depend on Big brother again. Yeah, too bad I have so many dreams...Too bad I'm only one of a relative handful that even have these stupid thoughts. Why can't I just be a drone? Why did I have to wake up? What? Why? When? How?
There's so much more to this screwed up scenario, but already I've blabbed enough.
Feedback, anyone?? It would be much appreciated by a scared little (older) girl....