original sin and the nature of consciousness

I have come to realize that the essential nature of consciousness is pure evil.. putting into contextual clarity for instance those ancient Vedic creation myths about evil as the original kindling agent of the universal waters. This essential truth is behind the exaggerated modern notion of 'original sin', and has to do with the spirit/consciousness dichotomy that so confounds Christianity (or that Christianity so confounds).

This is how it goes. Spirit and consciousness are two sides of the same coin that is Nothing, or that is Keter on the Qabalistic Tree of Life. At the absolute origin of Creation, before space-time was even manifest from Nothing, there was only the macrocosm, and similarly there was only one Sephirah, Keter. Nothing (Keter) is pure and undifferentiated Spirit, which is basically an ocean of non-sentient consciousness.

It doesn't matter how long it took for the first wave in this ocean to ever arise, because there was nothing to observe the wait in the first place. The first wave was indeed the arising of the first observer, which is to say the original fragmentation of Spirit, and the beginning of the eternal fractal chain reaction of creation that is universal procession. Individualized Spirit that is sentient of its own divinely unique existence in terms of simultaneous oneness and difference is what is known as consciousness.

Consciousness is always, therefore, finite insofar as the distinction between it and Spirit (Self and Other) is absolute, and infinite insofar as the distinction between it and Spirit is relative. No matter how much consciousness manifests there will always remain infinity of Spirit, per the undifferentiated and ineffable nature of infinity. Consciousness is essentially dual in nature, as opposed to spirit which is essentially non-dual in nature.

Before consciousness there was only Nothing, and neither good nor evil existed for nothing at all existed. Upon the original fragmentation of Spirit into consciousness, the concept of subjective virtue was born with the reality of variety of individuality of consciousness... and as consciousness, in all its individuality, was a "step down" from spirit in the sense of becoming relatively infinite as opposed to fully infinite, so the concept of evil arose.

Pure--that is, new and infantile--consciousness is thus pure evil, because as a blank slate without experience or knowledge, no redeeming qualities have yet been experienced for it to justify its conventional existence. Moreover, consciousness ever remains pure in the sense of new and infantile in essence, in the sense that the core of any individual agent of consciousness is always Spirit, Keter, Nothing. In this way is pure consciousness permanently pure evil, as opposed to only at the very beginning of Creation; similarly may Keter refer to the entire macrocosm of existence at large as well as to the context of any microcosmic individual agent of consciousness therein.

First, then, Nothing is 0; then evil is 1; and then, nextly, both good and evil are 2. From the first-hand perspective of Keter, this mathematical representation of universal creation translates into the following. Originally and moreover eternally is there Nothing, an ocean of non-local timelessness, infinite unmanifest potentiality; then there arises an infinitely small spec of light, individualized Spirit known as consciousness, pure evil; in simultaneous contrast to this light does an infinitely vast expanse of darkness arise, and this darkness is good.

This point of the macrocosmic and microcosmic evolution of consciousness thus represents the basic state of duality of light and dark, good and evil. It is the proverbial “one step back” of original sin that precedes the subsequent “two steps forward”. Here the sentient individual agent of consciousness has yet to overcome what may best be described as their innate inferiority complex. They are afraid of good because they are afraid of the dark, which is to say that they are afraid of their own potential to become good.

The juxtaposition here of good correlating with darkness and evil correlating with light is symbolic of the confusion that naturally and inevitably arises in the course of universal procession when consciousness attempts to come to terms with its innately sinful nature. One does not realize they suffer from fear of their own self, and rather does one externalize the problem and demonize the darkness, the unknown. Monotheistic or polytheistic creation myths and religions are developed in order to explain existence, and people come to believe they are the darkness as opposed to the light in the mistaken corollary sense that they are innately sinful--one should supposedly go towards the light.

As one looks upon the light of God, one is struck with the fear of God and--the existence of God and deities being essentially a product of ignorance—one’s inferiority complex is only reinforced as one continuously fails to realize salvation from the actually evil light. In other words, one tries to circumvent or otherwise run away from their innately sinful nature, which amounts to denying the very sentiency of their existence in the first place. What is rather needed is recognition of the true nature of light and darkness, leading to acceptance and embrace of innate sin, in turn allowing for transcendence of sin. This is the primordial process of birth--the acceptance of the one fundamental choice that is ever already made for one’s self, which is to arise into sentiency in the first place.

Now we have 0, 1, and 2, for as soon as there is 1 there is contrast and therefore there is 2. Thus we are now at the point of the trinity, for we have three things. This trinary stage in terms of macrocosmic universal evolution as well as in terms of microcosmic individual evolution is the stage that effectuates “the big shift”, of which the quaternity is the result. This is, simply put, the key of the Trinity, for everything being a matter of consciousness, everything has to do with the Trinity.

Basically, 0 becomes from the trinary perspective recognized as the step backwards, as “original sin”. Realization of the trinity is transcendence of duality, is transcendence of innate sin. It is realizing 3 from 2, by including 0 as something not negative but positive, as something as opposed to nothing. It is transcendental insight that synthesises the macro with the micro, it is absolute personal affirmation of the desire and goodness of existence as opposed to non-existence.

The key of the Trinity is a matter of decision, as it is the act of choice of the individual agent of consciousness between accepting or denying their innate condition of sentiency for which they had no original say in the matter. In other words, although one is forced into birth in the first place, one is not forced to carry out an existence they determine to be unwanted. Unlocking the key of the Trinity, then, involves regarding one’s innate spark of existence either in an existence-affirming or existence-denying way.

The key of the Trinity, put otherwise, is the realization that one’s original conception from Spirit into consciousness is represented by 0 or innate sin, and that it is this very “one step backwards” that is one’s blank slate for eternal individual existence in terms of simultaneous oneness and difference with the universal whole. In this sense is the spark inside every individual agent of consciousness Nothing, like a piece of infinity in that infinity plus or minus anything still equals infinity--in this sense is even the tiniest spark of Nothing just as potent as the one true Nothing Itself, and similarly in this vein is the whole of any hologram contained in every one of its parts.

This trinary shift in universal and/or individual evolution from a mechanistic to a dynamic mode is reflected, then, in the right knowledge of light and darkness--in truth may light be said to be “good” and darkness “evil”. One should never move towards the light for such is an affirmation of division of self, in that if one is the light and is good then one cannot move towards the light and towards goodness as if they were not so in the first place. This self-affirmative choice is the key of the trinity, and explains why in certain contexts only a 180 degree shift will do.

The quaternity arises from the trinity in that “0”, “1”, “2”, and “3” makes four. As the key of the trinity is the key to duality, so does it open the dual lock that every dimension in a sense possesses. Think of numbers as place holders, and that the symbolic value they represent is interchangeable between the preceding and proceeding number. When 0 is counted then it becomes the first and 1 becomes 2 and 2 becomes 3 and so on ad infinum, and vice-versa if 0 is not counted. This is precisely what happens to realize the trinity--0, 1, and 2 becomes three, but as soon as there is three there is also four (0, 1, 2, and 3).

More to come on this subject, but I think this is succinct enough to stand on its own for now..