Hi Seeking the Truth - You're right, I'm not looking for pity. Some might wonder then...why put in the Appendix in there in the first place if I'm not looking for pity? Well, I felt it had to be in there. After compiling the book and mentioning so many of my own personal experiences and the connections I've made because of them (of which included my family members) I realized....people are going to wonder what my childhood/teen years were like. After reading all of that and seeing that I obviously have "stuff" going on the natural next questions to ask me are, when did it start? Did you have indicators in your childhood? What about your family? Is stuff happening to them too? And if so, is their stuff connected to your stuff? It had to be addressed, no two ways about it, only because again the entire foundation of the book stemmed from my own research, connect-the-dot-observations and personal experiences. If I'd written one of those neutral, detached, pseudo-academic uninvolved third party books then of course, there'd be no reason or place for it. So, I wrote the general gist of what it was growing up and what the parental units were like in case it does ring a bell for others, and to answer the inevitable questions that would be on most readers' minds.
After reading your post I do have to chime in my 2 cents that it seems like you very well may have "stuff" going on in your life, maybe even abductions, even though you believe you don't. Now, I'm not one of those crazy people who tries to make people think they've got weirdness in their lives simply because I do
BUT....based on what you described, somethin' was happening to you, no doubt. The mere fact that you were interested in reading my book and the subject matter interested you possibly says something. I've noticed that non-abductees have little if any interest in reading or talking about aliens, UFOs, military abductions, MILABS, etc. They can't relate, and it's simply not interesting to them. So for those who are drawn to it, it means they probably have a higher than average chance of having that sort of thing in their own life. Also, you experienced some wacky interference when getting to Part II of my book. I mean, your story of your printer inexplicably stopping and refusing to print once you got to the exact first page of Part II still takes the cake as far as the weird stories I've heard!
So, that seems to be telling.
Also, little kids don't sleep between the wall and their bed on the floor, experience really bad dreams out of nowhere that they have to block out, wake up with something akin to iodine going on down there, wind up reversed in their beds and so on if something isn't happening. Just the fact that you were sleeping in the space between your wall and your bed.....that really says some things. I didn't mention it in my book, but I did on my website in my write up called "The Vortex" but my brother had a very similar thing as a kid. For years he was terrorized by "breathing" in his room at night; there was an incident when he was nine years old and we all woke up to hear this thumping and banging going on in my brother's room, only to find him in a state of absolute terror, trying to get out of his room because of "the lights! the lights!" That's all he could even get out. The lights. He tried to flee the lights and kept running into his closet door repeatedly, not able to get out of the bedroom door to the left of that. By the time he was 9 and 10 years old, just before we moved out of that house, he was taking his sleeping bag and sleeping in the closet. Wouldn't even sleep in his bed anymore, just tried to scrunch himself up in the closet and hide from whatever had been coming around him for years.
Anyway, these things mean something, and I think your stuff does too. I don't know if it was "abductions" per se, but something seems to have been amiss when you were young. Hate to say it, but possibly even some sort of abuse? I don't know. Might be something worth looking into, see what else you can remember.
"Life's journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out, shouting "Holy shit ... what a ride!" - Anonymous
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