Dear God, I am Saddened

Okay, why I should be doing this on deadline day, I don't know.  But procrastination is one of my very favorite online activities....

Today, though, I was doing what nobody should be doing -- looking up info about former friends and/or business associates and/or boyfriends online to see if Google had tracked any of their latest adventures.  Sort of checking in to see if the path they had been taking when I last knew them (or broke off with them, more like) had shifted.

The fierce athlete warrior/real estate guy who felt a "calling" in the mid-90's to move to Sedona, Arizona (capital of the world's worst ET presences,) who tried to suck me in to becoming a mind controlled "channel" of the ETs, and whom I had to fight energetically for quite some time after breaking off with him because his "critters" REALLY wanted ownership of me......died two years ago in a mysterious "heart attack."  He had no history of heart troubles, ate healthily (to the point of being a health food freak,) and all his associates were truly shocked at his sudden passing.

THIS IS HOW THE DARKSIDERS DO IT, PEOPLE.  They gain entrance to someone's field, they bliss them out with love and light and distort that person's ego (this guy either wanted to be a famous prophet or sponsor one- in the form of ME.)  And then if you "go against the grain" at any point in the scenario, the dark energies often induce heart attacks --- many of them fatal.

There is a massive anecdotal history I've been collecting of healers and New Agers from all over the world who are observing this phenomena.  Sometimes, the heart attacks seem induced by shadowy black government types (which happened to me shortly after I rejected the CIA remote viewers' attempts to recruit  me; this was when a black clothed man appeared in my room, beamed black stuff into my heart, and I had a bad heart attack which I was able to recover from in about two years of diligent work on myself. But I was "scheduled" to die that night.)

And other times the person is going along with the "program," following the New Age/holistic/metaphysical path, but something goes wrong somewhere along the way. They often get caught up in "turf battles" or local "wizard wars."  My sense is that that is what took this particular young man out.  He was in his mid-30's when he dropped dead in a suspicious way. I think one of the many, many dark sorcerors in Sedona must have been pissed at him for some reason. I don't know for sure, though.

On to case number two...a dear former female friend of mine, my "psychic sister" in a spiritual sense, who years ago began getting into channeling "ascended masters" and ET's.  She uses these energies to do healing work on people --- plus combines it with Reiki. UGH.  She's the one whose work on my honey's crown chakra flatlined and nearly killed him within about 12 hours -- and after that we had no choice but to break off contact with her.  We tried to lovingly explain that it was psychic contagion of some sort, and that this was new, we had never picked  this up from her before, and perhaps she should examine recent "initiations" she had taken (she was constantly taking one attunement or initiation after another into various modalities.)  But there was zero sense of self-examination, zero respect for what we had experienced (had I not been recently taught some hardcore survival psychic self-defense stuff, my honey would have died that night.)  She was officially possessed now.  Even the 250 page (!!!!) letter she wrote me and insisted on leaving at my apartment  after I told her zero contact was allowed from this point on due to these energy issues....even just holding that envelope conveyed such horrific energy it was like holding onto a zombie corpse.  So I ditched the letter and never read it and quietly, sadly, went on with my life.

Now she is working full-time as a healer, doing lots of remote healing work via the Internet, and has a website.  On the front page, guess who gives the glowing testimonial that she bases her whole site on?  "Lord Hilarion." And she invites you to receive healing from her particular group of "ascended masters" at all times, any time, remotely or in person. Nasty ET's masquerading as gods, every single one of them.  It's weird to see the dance of energies in her new photo.  I see the loving, wonderful woman I've known for many lifetimes overshadowed by this really sinister cabal of critters that are controlling her.

Sigh.

Very sad.

Then there is the former cult member whose teacher, Frederick Lenz, preached his own unique synergistic gumbo of Tibetan Buddhism, Zen, and his own wacky stuff.  His cult members were left in pretty bad shape back when Lenz mysteriously committed suicide years ago (wearing a spiked dog collar around his neck, kinda weird.)  The students and cult members were so linked in to him that etherically their bodies no longer had heads. Only a formless black blob hovered above their heads when I encountered them in the astral, and I often had morbid dreams of them flapping around like dying creatures starved for oxygen.  (This was years after I had briefly dated one of these cult members. I still sometimes pick up on people I have loved over the years in the etheric - whether I seem to consciously want the update or not.)

He appears to have joined yet another cult, a Zen cult in Canada, where he is from, and is sort of a senior student there who occasionally gives his own lectures.  I listed to a recording of him online and it gave me chills.  The man still isn't home. At least when I knew him there were still sparks of irreverence and humor and massive intelligence, and when I briefly intersected with him I "knew" in a cosmic way that I was sort of the last stop on the road to total mindlessness and oblivion for him. I tried to fight off the forces that had gained control over him for a while, but since he could see none of the shadow stuff I could see in his "master," I couldn't help him. He didn't want help. He had been in the cult since Lenz recruited him in California in the 80's when the guy was just 19. Now, in his 30's (when I knew him) he felt he owed his entire life, his entire life force, his entire income and personal sense of identity to this man (and his attending entities.)

Mindlessness is easier than being fully present and kicking entities' butts.  Believe me.  You have to wear your combat boots way too damned much if you plan on staying "home" behind your eyes.

So I make this post tonight with my heart full of love and appreciation for these three beautiful souls with whom I briefly walked.  I really miss them, because we had so much in common as far as our overall desires ( to improve ourselves, become more loving people, and to make the world a better place if possible.)  And I feel very sad that perhaps I could have helped each of them more, prevented the death of one, or prevented the psychic possession of the other two.  For a brief period, I had influence in these people's lives and maybe could have made a difference.

I don't pass judgment on them in any egotistic sense, because I respect all people's paths in life and know deep in my heart that things happen for a reason, we all have paths that we need to pursue, and so forth.

But these three people were SO DAMNED COOL.  And before they gave away their sovereignty, they had immense potential to be down here speaking out about their psychic perceptions, sharing spiritual wisdom, and speaking out about the other wonderful insights that they had been developing throughout their quest....and now everything they do and say is overshadowed by parasitic energies that move THROUGH their energy fields and attempt to control and shut down others. 

Except for the one guy, who is dead.  I'll have to see if I can tune in to where he is now. Maybe I can bring some light his way, but maybe I can't.  I wish him the best. He had a good heart, too.

I really wish people would stop dying --- either physically or in terms of their spiritual sovereignty -- when they aggressively investigate metaphysical paths.  I get very tired of being sad.

LipstickMystic aka Jennifer