Okay I am going to try and explain what I mean. I am not good at this but lets see what we can come up with here. I will try and unload my brain on this subject...First I want to acknowledge a few points that were made by others before. Yes Derek, It was an illogical statement for me to come straight away with the idea that all we experience is the light for that is true, in a sense, but to start there is completely illogical indeed. I hope to elucidate on that point for although it is all "upper light" that we experience, we experience this force through a different will and intention than the light or "Prime Creator" , whatever you want to call it has towards us...the creature or creation. There is duality, but only for the sake of correlation and to attain knowledge at first...anyway I hope I make more sense here while trying to explain the processes of creation as they were explained to me. Evil has its place....believe me. We do not all speak the "same language" but the conceptual organization of our existence must be the same. I am sure we can all agree that there is such a thing as an absolute. We just need to stop using our words as closed systems...closed from each other is what they accomplish unless we can come to a unified theory of conceptual origin.
Some of what we know is what is based on the understanding reached by the Kabbalists (so much was gleaned from them throughout the millenia and called different things)–and what they then revealed in Kabbalistic literature. They came to understand that the source of all reality is a Creator (actually any degree above a current state one is in is referred to as Creator for it gives birth to the state that is trying to perceive it), which they termed "His Essence", since they could not understand the "Him" or prime essence itself. This is referring to the ultimate Creator, or Prime Creator as it has been referred to.
The most they managed to comprehend was the following: That from His Essence emanates the thought and intention to create created beings in order that the created beings should benefit. This intention they termed "the thought of creation" or the "upper light". As such, regarding the created being, the light is the Creator because his essence is inscrutable to created beings. Rather, the Creator/created-being relationship is enacted through the Upper Light. Thus, the Upper Light emanates from the Higher Power’s essence, for He wishes to create and to benefit the created being by filling him with pleasure.
That is to say that the purpose of the Light is to create a created being who would experience the Light as pleasurable. (Chew on that concept for awhile.) Kabbalists therefore called created beings a "vessel" for the Light. The Light which emanates from the Essence, in order to create a created being is the phase of "root", as it is the source of all existence.
This light also creates the desire to enjoy it, a desire which is also termed "The desire to receive light." The amount of enjoyment depends solely on the degree of the will to receive the pleasure. This is similar to our world, wherein one’s stomach can be empty, but one can still not want to eat. Thus, the desire is the completed vessel, and without desire there is no benefit. For in spirituality there is no coercion, and the fulfillment is always according to the degree of desire.
The light, which leaves the Essence, creates a vessel and fills it. The pleasure which the created being senses from receiving the Light is called "the Light of Wisdom', and the desire which is created by the Light is "Phase 1," which is the first aspect of the future vessel. But this desire is not yet independent as it is made directly by the Light.
A true created being is one which itself desires to benefit from all the Light that comes from the Creator, and in order to enjoy the Light, the created being must of itself wish to become filled with Light. That is, the desire comes from within himself and not from the Creator. In order to want to receive the Light, the created being must know retroactively how great the pleasure that is inherent in the Light is. Thus he must become filled up with Light and afterwards be in a situation without it. Then there is born a true desire for the light. Then there is a reminicence...a re-memberance is then possible and it is an independent re-membering that comes FROM the creatuire itself.
Once again, we recognize this phenomenon from daily life: when you give someone a fruit to taste, which he has never tasted before, the person has no previous desire for the fruit. Once he has tasted the fruit, however, and experiences pleasure from it, if we take the fruit away from him the person begins to long for the fruit and its pleasure. This very longing is a new desire which he feels is his independent will. It is therefore impossible the build the vessel in one action.
Rather, in order for one’s will to know from what to seek pleasure and what to desire, one must undergo the entire developmental process. This condition is brought down in kabbalah as a law: "the spreading of the Light within the [created being’s] will to receive, and its departure from therein, makes the vessel worthy for its task of receiving all the Light and benefiting thereof".
The stages of the will’s development are termed "phases" since they are new aspects in the will to receive. And so, the Light which fills the vessel grants the created being, together with pleasure, also the ability to "bestow". While a vessel is still enjoying the Light, suddenly it feels the desire to bestow like the light does, and the reason for this is that the Creator imbues the Light with the ability to grant the vessel the desire to bestow.
Once the light has created phase #1 and filled it completely, the created being begins to feel that it would like to resemble its Creator. Since this is a new desire, it is called "phase 2." Phase 2 is the desire to give, and the pleasure derived from resembling the Creator is called "Kind Light." From here we see that phase 1 is the opposite of Phase 2: whereas the desire in phase 1 is to receive, in phase 2 it is to give.
The Light in Phase 1 is "Orh Chochma", "The light of wisdom" and the light in phase 2 is "Orh Chasadim", "Light of kindness." When the desire to receive in phase 1 begins to benefit from the light filling it, it immediately feels that the light is the giver-and he the recipient, and wants to be like the light itself: not wanting to receive, but wanting to give. Therefore, the desire to receive in it disappears and remains void of the light of Wisdom, for pleasure is not sensed without the desire for it.
The desire to receive cannot remain, though, without the light of wisdom, because that is its light of life. Thus it is impeled to receive a bit of the light of wisdom. This new will, phase #3, actually contains two desires: 1 ) the desire to resemble the Light, 2 ) the desire to receive some of the light of wisdom.
Thus she senses two kinds of Light: the light of kindness, with the desire to bestow, and the light of wisdom with the desire to receive. When phase #3 feels that from the two lights that fill her, the light of wisdom is her life-light by nature, then from independent decision she receives the wisdom in its entirety.
We see that the light which emanates from the essence of the Creator creates a vessel in 4 steps. Thus, the final desire, termed phase 4, is the only created being. All preceding stages are just stages in his development.
In truth, all of the Creation is only phase 4: all that exists except the Creator- falls in to phase 4. Phases 0-4 are also called: root phase, aleph, bet, gimel, and daled respectively. Phase 4 is called "Kingship", for within it rules the desire to receive.
The desire to receive the light, abundance or the pleasure is created to exactly match the light that wishes to fill it...meaning the desire of the vessel is 100% in correspondence to the amount of light that wishes to fulfill the desire...Creator wishes to fulfill creature totally. Now herein is where we can start talking about the origin of evil and what it is. I am not talking about its myriad of manifestations but the intention behind it. What intention lies behind every evil act we see in the world...what causes the suffering etc.? Don't tell me I suffer...I know that as does every person in the entire world! Children know that. I need to know WHY I suffer and if or what purpose it could serve.
If you want to perceive the Creator, or the next level of your development, you must increase your desire, which flies in the face of alot of mystical teachings that attempt to lower desire. Desire gets bigger and bigger and teh world just seems to get worse and worse. Bigger desire, thus more ascension is required. The desire builds and increases every generation whether you or I find anything to actually fill it with that will last or not.
There is nothing in the world except for the Creator’s desire to please and the created being’s desire to receive that pleasure. Everything is ruled by it. The entire creation in all its possible stages of development, in all dimensions of reality etc. This is a constant.
The Creator has brought forth the Creation so that upon receiving the Light it may experience infinite and everlasting pleasure, not in a selfish way, but rather in a perfect and an absolute way. If the Light enters the Vessel and fills it up completely, then this Vessel can no longer receive because the desire is saturated by the Light, and in the absence of a desire the pleasure passes away as well.
It is only possible to receive endlessly when you do not receive for your own sake (STS), i.e. you enjoy for the sake of the giver (STO). Then the Light entering the Vessel does not neutralize the desire to receive.
Through experience we all know that when we are hungry and begin to eat, after a certain time we no longer feel the hunger even if the most delicious dishes are made available.
Pleasure is experienced on the borderline between pleasure itself and the desire for it. However, as soon as pleasure enters the desire and starts to satisfy it, this desire slowly fades away. And if the pleasure is stronger than the desire this can even lead to repulsion.
How can pleasure be converted into something perfect and unbounded? A specific scheme has been devised by the Creator. If man feels pleasure not within himself, but while pleasing others, this pleasure is infinite because it depends solely on the amount of pleasure he can still give and to whom he is giving it. The more people I give it to the more pleasure do I feel myself. This condition produces an eternal existence, the perfection, which is one of the attributes of the Creator. This is exactly the state the Creator wants to usher us into.
If the created being wishes exclusively to receive, it finds itself trapped in a vicious circle. It can feel only whatever is inside of it. If the created being could feel the Creator’s pleasure from delighting the creation, it would endlessly experience the pleasure, just like a mother, who selflessly gives to her children.
The optimal scheme corresponds to perfection. The Light does not only transmit simple pleasure, but includes pleasure procured by unlimited knowledge, infinite existence, self-knowledge and self-analysis, a feeling of eternity and harmony, which pervades everything.
The ideal scheme includes the Creator relentlessly pouring the Light on the created being. The created being consents to receive the Light only if by doing so it pleases the Creator. This system is referred to as Returned Light or Reflected Light, as opposed to the Straight Light emanating from the Creator.
For this scheme to be, there must exist first and foremost a desire that attracts the Straight Light towards the created being. Secondly, the created being must place a Screen on the Light’s path. This Screen prevents the experiencing of pleasure for one’s own sake and enables the created being to receive pleasure, but only in proportion to what he can give for the sake of the Creator. Then the created being becomes completely like the Creator.
In other words, the following exchange takes place: the Creator procures pleasure to the created being who accepts it under the exclusive condition that by doing so it pleases the Creator.
I hope this will bring on some questions. The language is a bit different than we may be used to but I can translate the terms. Creator and creature and light and reception etc. all have specific meanings according to the language of branches which can confuse things if we think these words equate to branches and not roots. I hope this helps a bit. It should give us some things to discuss. Can you see the origin of evil and how it comes about here?