well free * world, an entire huge posting completely disappeared. maybe i can do it again later. and hey blue--u cutie, that site newage thats been shedding some LIGHT on stuff came from YOU! anyway. i have a theory on why and how the ancients/ancestors need our help, which i can show later, about how and who we r in relation to them, and gods and goddesses, and original ancestors, and what maybe fits. thats why i was running on and blabbing so much on the halloween gig about the half-breeds and the creations, as ive tried to trace all the way back to the beginnings/thru human history looking for answers thru religion (it was SPIRITUAL in the old days). thru symbols, MYTH, lanquages, phrases, rituals, rites, beliefs, archeaology, on and on. the magicians, and others, carry the memories, the talents, the HONOR and DUTY. i thank the ancestors on thanksgiving. i would love to meet them. they had hard lives and survived anyway. talk about fearless. my god. one had to kill or grow to eat. took alot of work, and balls. u had invaders breathing down ur neck all the time. the f'in matrix, from the start. always doing the work, had to hide, had spies even in every culture, warriors, magicians, BARDS.
go to http://www.paganspath.com/magik/norse/gothar.htm read about the priestesses, the gothar, the goddess freya. i have a theory on the whole deal with gods, goddesses, ancient tribes, and US. and of course, ties in with biology, genetic codes, glands (they secrete--the SECRET, hormones and proteins that r electo-magnetic), and the WIH thread. oh yeah. i wanted to show a cpl of connections here.
and speaking of psychology 101, and stuff from those hard-working guys like abe maslow, and jung. i was always very suspicious about that first stage of Developmental Theory from erik erikson="Erikson recognized the basic notions of Freudian theory, but believed that Freud misjudged some important dimensions of human development. Erikson said that humans develop throughout their life span, while Freud said that our personality is shaped by the age of five. (5== 5th root race, the progeny of the ancestors, some live in America--the idea of east to west and back again). Erikson developed eight psychosocial stages that humans encounter throughout their life. The stages are Trust vs. Mistrust, Autonomy vs. Shame & Doubt, Initiative vs. Guilt, Industry vs. Inferiority, Identity vs. Role Confusion, Intimacy vs. Isolation, Generativity vs. Stagnation, and Integrity vs. Despair." that last part. i dont think he was kidding. we can apply this..."Erikson defined trust as an essential trustfulness of others as well as a fundamental sense of one's own trustworthiness. He thought that an infant who gets fed when he is hungry and comforted when he needs comforting will develop trust. He also said that some mistrust is necessary to learn to discriminate between honest and dishonest persons. If mistrust wins over trust in this stage, the child will be frustrated, withdrawn, suspicious, and will lack self-confidence." one has to HAVE it / the confidence ( to confide in/ as in secrets) altho the matrix would try to talk u out of it every moment, if u dont have ur armor on, and see thru the bull. and maslow's hierarchy IS A PYRAMID. now take that, and this eriksonian first stage. with that big bottom (basic physical needs stage as the platform, where ur always foraging so to speak, and paying/earning ur way (as the C's say all the time!)-- u cant play the game adequately. one must trust in self.
"The first stage, Trust vs. Mistrust, occurs from approximately birth to one year". when u cant even talk, or communicate, just scream, cry, poop and pee. this is the earth world/matrix/3D at work, and ya just got here. this is STEP ONE, and this is the BIGGIE, and it's number one 1--that always threw me, u have no idea who ppl r and u gotta trust them. ur at ur weakest, u r a foundling, an infant. how can this be? is this a set-up? id say so, but we have made it thru impossible odds, ridiculous rules, games, obstacles, set-backs, we've gone in circles, we've been lost, found, re-invented, cornered, ruined a few times, but still we rode on. we have yet to ride further. there is a WAR IN HEAVEN im tellin ya. we have yet to RIDE but we're in active training/gladiator school. u KNOW u LOOK good as ur fav archetype. pick one and be it, its safe, its an image, u can discard it later, its a costume and for me, its halloween everyday. (it's fun to imagine and be picturesque). we have our minds even tho theyd like to invade them, they dont know who EXACTLY WHOM theyre dealing with yet, as we grow and grow and evolve, as we speak, think, imagine, dream, jump trajectory points and merge. we're not stagnant, we vibrate, we r developing as we go, and yet somehow those stages, levels apply.
never gave a shit about "family values" all my life. thot bull, who cares about that father knows best kind of family, its all made up anyway. it was stepford, so need not do comparing to others, it can hurt, so must steer clear, go ur own road. when we ask who r we/ who am I REALLY? thats the search, that's the KEY that often spurs the seeking if i/ was/ we were to be honest. whats it all MEAN? where did i come from? the stars look like home. im not from here, how did i/we get here? even tho i was so pissed at those greys (and i remembered the other day, they came to to 818 (8 + 1 = 9 every way u do it) South Church Street, that nite. i finally remembered i was 11. that whole street in midwest illinois was a street full of churches. every church was on that street when the toen was built. pioneers built that town. i thot those greys almost killed me, the deep depression that came after their viist, i felt like i was dead for awhile. im still working on what that was. yet, if it hadnt a been for them, i wouldnt know half the crap i think i know, so that worked out great anyway! so to the family of us--maybe closer to the real family for some, i know the water and blood run thick here on NR. some ppl search for that sense of belonging and family all the time, but it can be found in the oddest of places.
"a fundamental sense of one's own trustworthiness". he also said mistrust was NECESSARY "to learn to discriminate between honest and dishonest persons." i take that/see that as DISCERNMENT. its all in the training. we've needed everything thats happened, good and bad, we're a product of all of it. no regrets either, even if it looks or feels like it sometimes. its hard to live here. its not about faith, thats an insert, its about innate trust= TRUST. trust in self, in honor, integrity, in duty, the mission, and YOU. its inspiring to do this, to be here now. we must have known to be here now. even if it looks dark. it smells like something else, not death.
and u cant skip stages, with these guys/games/set-up--THE SET, u must go level by level, one cant jump ahead in these hierarchies. u must "get" / accomplish each level in order to progess to the next. theres no slipping back either. when ya got it, u got it and u move on. it is a GAME. and we're playing it. talk about video games, this IS one helluva one (on that other thread, games that havent been figured yet as to what will be the outcome and all that). we know about the matrix game. it will require the INTEGRITY quotient, just like erikson said up there. this whole gig is an active, action passion play. with all the bells and whistles. far out for lack of better terms. i love it as it APPLIES. no matter how u shake it, we can be very grateful to self, to higher self, and to the ancestors, who kept going and going and going. the ancestors brought us here, somehow. now the thot of the originals needing us, in the future 9as the C's said we're us/them/r us in the future, the love for self, from this game, from within, is really THAT VERY LOVE REFLECTED BACK. from the stars, whence it came.
GNOTHI SEAUTON "Know Thyself!"