Looking for a Purpose, part 2 (Page 2 of 2)

Proto: most of the feedback I recieve here is extremley helpful.  Peoples comments here carry understanding of the subject matter, and awareness that can't be found elsewhere.  My only regret is that we couldn't meet in person.  I have an inner feeling that holding these discussions in person would be quite helpful to the soul. 

I had an in depth discussion today with a Holostic Dr. I see every Wednesday.  He is somewhat of a psychologist with a metaphysical viewpoint, but I basically pay him 50$ a week to have a worthwhile conversation over metaphysical concepts.  Today I discussed the state of the world and tried to give him an idea of the powerstructures, and polarities involved on this plane.

Back to the topic of this thread the search for purpose.  With the help of others here I am not at an understanding that quite possibly it is the journey that is what is important not the destination.  My Dr. has told me happiness is not a destination, its the journey.  Its started to sink in.  I have been sitting around waiting for the answers of the world, like my purpose and the universal truths to fall into my lap.  However finding out these things is not a realization, its a journey that must be done piece by piece bit by bit.  The cassiopeans said that "If something is given for free, it is not worth it".  Likewise from the webpage quoted by google, Castenada mentions that all paths lead to nowhere, it is the path itself that can have heart.  I will add one more metaphysical concept to this.  Eckhart tolle speaks that there is no such thing as Past, or Future.  There is only NOW.  There were NOW's in the Past, and there will be a NOW in the future, but the past and future don't exist.  Take a look around you now and realise that is all that exists, things don't happen or exist at any point other then NOW.  Similarly, if you set your sites on a goal at the end of a path, like I have been doing it may never come.  And if it does, what then, you have to set another goal to give your life meaining.  Meanwhile all the time you are pursuing this goal you are missing out on the only thing that truly exists, NOW, or the journey/path you are on.  I need to make sure what I am doing NOW, and that the path that I am on feels right.  Afterall no matter where any path I take in life leads me, when I die I will be in the same place.

I have been trying to apply the above concepts too my life and I must admit, it has made an improvement in my outlook.  I can even look at all these depressing things, and not let them depreess me, as I know that is the way they are and must be.  My worrying will do little more then to drive me into depression, in which condition I am of little constructive use to society.  All these rationalization don't mean anything to a persons emotions, the single concept that is giving me strength is acceptance of the way things are, as the way they are.  For quite some time I have been running from the Now, as I found all the things in the NOW unpleasant.  The more I have allowed myself to accept the situation I am in the more my state of mind has been allowed to improve. 

I have been trying to socialize more now.  I used to think it was unproductive and pointless unitll I discovered absolutely everything is unproductive and pointless.  This concept first led me into depression, but I am beginging to feel that if I can learn to accept this concept, I will begin to gain the freedom to follow my heart with no worries of wasting my time. My dad told me the other day to "hurry up, your wasting time"  I was pleased with the response, "There is no such thing as a waste of time", because everything is a waste of time.  It's quite liberating once you can accept it.  Once you realize these principles, then there is the possibility to realize that there is nothing more important then that which feels right to you. 

If you are interested in how I arrived at the conclusion that everything is waste of time, I can elaborate.  I have been jotting down more and more of my ideas recently so that I can learn to communicate my ideas better in the written form.

Capitan-- Just wanted to say that I resonate with your words a lot and can always relate to your posts.

I did the quit-your-job-and-don't-worry-what-comes-next thing back in April of this year. It was the best thing I could have done at the time. I came across a job position online and had another job within 5 days. But I was also able to take 4 weeks off in between and do nothing but unwind and relax. Now I have a very easy, stress-free job where I'm getting paid to do something I enjoy and would do in  my free time anyway. How sweet is that?

I trust my intuition now more than ever and I've found that you should always follow even the slightest hunch. You'll always be happier that you did.

I too have taken in an interest in things that I used to consider a "waste of time," including small talk socializing, and also just sitting and doing "nothing." Just sit, turn off your mind, and stare at things. Even still objects can be fascinating to observe when you're in a playful frame of mind. Or close your eyes and just listen to the sounds around you. It can be very relaxing at least and at most entertaining.