Anticipating Terminus- A Program

Hey there transient,

You know, I ask myself the same questions alot. Especially this evening. I think the events going on in the world fall into two categories. (Sorry, I cant format how I want cos Im on a german kerboard and they drive me nuts)

One stuff you hear about on "The news"
Two stuff you experience yourself.

I really dont think the "News" stuff can be brought into your reality tunnel in any meaningful way because A) you dont know the real story and B) it ´s probably been designed to provoke somekind of opinion or reaction to TPTB ´s agenda.

for these reasons I think the biggest emphasis must be placed on your direct experience in order to expand your definition of reality. That said - any information or theories which come into your circle of awareness, (via "news" the internet Etc,) do so for a reason (in my opinion) so these should also be "felt" or "sounded out" to see how they could be assimilated into your reality tunnel. 

If that makes any sense, well, could you explain it to me? (hehe jokes)

My thoughts for the moment.

Cheers mate.

Spiderman, z3, both extremely insightful posts.

You both do understand very well!

It is the same hamster wheel, maybe at some times my illusion of purpose is easier to maintain.

I must mention think I found out what a true (sub)human attack vector is about last week/ this week. I'll just say my normally pretty subdued self was really put to the test.

So that is having a bit of an influence on my overall attitude, but I really did not mean to vent, if anyone wishes to, please do.

What I said above is relevant for me 90% of the time, just get along with the get along. Not depressed, and damn well not fake-happy.

I have often wondered, if I am to believe we all 'chose' to come here, and if we create our own realities, I still see no possible reason why 'I' would have.

I have had some awesome experiences, and maintained incredible friendships, and if not for those, things would be vastly less tolerable, I am grateful always.

Dammit we're still here tho!

This cannot be it!  We have this entire universe we know NOTHING about, yet we stand up like amoebic fools and spout "we have confirmed the Earth is not flat"

Halle-fing-lujah

Nope, we get this here speck of soil.
This is home, it never felt too homey to me.

It does feel like I get more "homesick", for some other home, more with age.

The title of this thread could easily be interpreted as 'wanting death'

But I mean it more the way Jim Morrison did, "break on thru to the other side".

Terminal 4, offloading, don't forget to leave your baggage.......
                                                           J

I've had the thought many times that one reason I came here was to experience exactly what I described above: the chasm between the inner and the outer.  I'm a gemini (also supposedly chosen by me).  I can always see both sides of an argument and so forth.  So taking this that I know about myself to a higher level, maybe I did come to experience this exact thing.

As tedious and annoying as these 31 revolutions around the Sun have been, the contrast between this and the inner reality has taught me a great deal.

I guess in the end we each have to know ourselves thoroughly in order to bridge the gap.  But, not just bridge the gap but be the gap and the two sides.

For me, I get homesick for my sovereignty; my freedom.  It has been the underlining theme in many of my life decisions.

Exactly.  It's not death that I seek.  It's Life that I yearn for.  And this isn't true living.  That's something I knew inside before I got jaded.  Hypocrisy, dishonesty with self, and mental laziness.  That's what I found from going to church as a child.  What I found at home was emotional feeding.  What I found at school was egotistical haughtiness and cruelty.  What I found after spreading my wings in this world was a smorgasboard of ever lower vibrational states of being.  This life to me is death.  Or at least the road to it.

Thanks for the responses everyone, very insightful and meaningful.

Interesting you mention this!  When I first moved out of my parents hose I moved in with a fairly old lady who was by definition very spiritually oriented.  The most opposite thing we've experienced was when we'd talk about imagination.  I'd be on one pole expressing the excitement of spirituality, and really going at full speed with the synchronisities that happened at the time.  I would quit my job, spend all day playing not worrying about what she called "the real world" and "reality", on her pole she was expressing that because I am young I haven't learned responsibility and how the world works, a prime example of duality.  I don't know about astrology that much, maybe someone could answer but my sign is Aries.. standing for fire correct?  So maybe that is why I kind of dive right into the matter without thinking of the consequences?  Also, I am born on april fools day, would that have any connection with the tarot card named 'the fool'?

Back on topic, as an example of this I kept telling people that I'll never be getting a credit card!  Never ever.  But they answered with "Well you have to!".  For some reason, I feel as if I can do with out one.  Funny thing too, when I went back there last weekend to pick up a few things I had left behind, she again told me "how the world works" and this so called "reality", and my response made me feel quite peaceful as I said "It's my choice which reality I live in".

I've got a question.  Most times when I hint at the idea that the world is messed up to others, they always respond to me as if I am blaming the world, why is that?  I feel that our idea of the world needs to be seen from different angles, and that if the world is insane, then we should know about it, and dissociate from the negative cycle.  Maybe its just a defence reaction on the part of the program within the other, or maybe its the program within myself acting out against the other.

Any idea's on how we can live in physicality where everyone can do what they please?  Or will that be a trait of the new *something* that most feel is coming? 

I am thinking of one solution - instead of using the land to build grocery stores, and fast food joints, why not use that land to grow natural foods and some "fruit and vegitable" sites.  Surely that would help our diets?  Like I had a saying, "you know something is wrong when our biggest buildings are shopping malls", well in the town where I live anyways.  Is that not a little off?  Lets say someone works in a sweat shop, they work all day and make many many shirts and then right after they get off work they go to the store and can only buy 1 shirt!  It's the same thing in the western world.  If you work at a restaurant you could work one shift and afterwards after contributing to 100+ dishes you can only afford one or two.  And that is sane!?

Alrighty, I just thought I'd type out my thoughts.  I myself enjoy the act of writting, it is both fun and creative! 

As do I.

Enjoy this creation All, while we're still here

The world is indeed messed up, but only because of the particular polarity we are choosing.   If we weren't leaning towards STO we wouldn't give two shits about what's going on because {insert edit}we would probably think that{/edit}when we die we're not responsible anymore anyway.  Most people seem to understand the idea that the world is in an imbalanced state to some degree but usually without understanding the deeper reasons why.  They probably think you are blaming the world because they are unwilling to accept their own part played in the crapulence.  This is the creation of all of us as we are all One when it comes down to it, and we might do well to accept the responsibility for all of the madness even if we're not "directly" responsible as individuated beings.  I believe that the state of the world is a symbolic reflection of the mind-state of the present and past psyche of it's inhabitants. 

This is exactly what I plan on doing, and think many others are starting to want and do the same thing.  It really sucks not knowing what you're truly consuming (pesticides, low-nutrition produce, other crap).  I would personally like to have a closer energetic relationship to the food I'm eating and I think that by growing it myself I could accomplish that.  While cultivation isn't ideal as it seeks to manage nature for personal reasons, foraging isn't exactly an easy thing to do these days  

I hear ya bro!  Since I was a kid I was focused on freedom and I could never understand why others sought  to deny it to others.  I think that spiritually we relish the idea of having our freedom taken away temporarily so that we may value it more when we have it once again.  Being without freedom is a great catalyst for spiritual growth, though often a painful one as we all know.

It's my opinion (an apparently unpopular one among peers and parents) that at SOME level we have chosen all that we experience, whether it's a choice of our higher self or our conscious lower self.  A friend of mine often wonders why they would have chosen this life and all that it has offered, but I think that that very line of questioning is what will bring about the desired answer of our personal incarnational purpose. Denying choice is to claim victim and the Way of the Victim is the most stagnating path that I can think of.

We do seem to be headed towards some massive change on all levels and the polarization is the mechanism to separate those who seek freedom and those who seek to enslave or perpetuate a slave consciousness.  IMO, the very act of shedding the victim complex (snake skin?) will precipitate a lot of the changes that we are seeking.  How many of us could actually survive alone in the wilderness if forced to?  While dependancy has it's place in a complex society, it ultimately takes our sovereignty with it.  The problem is we are almost fully dependant on broken systems of the STS variety.  I would think that dependancy in an STO society would take on a whole new dynamic as the free for all aspect of modern society would be replaced by a mutually beneficial system where we would only be subservient to our own will and the highest good for society rather than the will of those with money and therefore power.

This thread is very timely for me as I start a new job next Wednesday after many months of unemployment.  Funny enough it is for the same company I last worked for but in a different town.  I am actually going to be doing a less skilled and lower level position than before but making more money.  Apparently I didn't learn what I needed to the first time 'round!  At this point I realize it is pointless as far as freedom and enjoyment of life goes but at the same time realize that it will be a highly beneficial stepping stone for my goals which will require money, especially with the potential overtime.  I'm accepting my "slavery" but only because I realize that I purposely chose an incarnational setup that would provide me with relative Canadian economic security (though living near poverty most of my life) at the expense of survival skills and freedom from the capitalist system.  I'm definately not welcoming the unhappy faces that you mentioned z3n, especially since the blue collar faces of desparation seem to be a lot more unhappy compared to their white collar counterparts as they lack the financial security of the upper class PLUS have physically exhausting workdays.  The upside of it is that workplaces are GREAT schools if viewed as such.  One is exposed to all different kinds of people with different outlooks and personalities and if viewed objectively one can greatly benefit from such interactions (with appropriate guards up of course, spiritual safety in the workplace!)

I think we all suffer from this dislike of our present world at least to some extent.  Whenever it really gets me down I just try to remember that I (or the one true "I") created all of this so I could experience myself in a myriad of ways.  In the now moment I try to remember that I'm here to learn so what can the moment teach me about myself?  Sounds a little "self" centred eh?  Oh well, it's tough being an individuated portion of the larger whole sometimes