Topic: I am destined for death...
My life dilemma is very complex. Like most of you here I believe in the end time prophecies. Whether it be anti-christ to world government to illuminati to earthquakes to nostradamus you name it, i have done the reading for most subjects related to end times. What worries me the most is the earth changes prophecies. If true the west and east coast of the USA are history due to flooding. The west coast will sink due to the giant san andres fault earthquake which scientists say could happen any minute now and is long overdue. New York is going underwater along with parts of florida and georgia. All of this is supposed to happen before 2012 or during. If you believe Nostradamus it should happen next year or in 08 (l.a earthquake and new york)
You would think that i would be living in a safe place with all his knowledge of the end times, but instead im too close for comfort to the ocean. Im "indonesia sunami" type close to the ocean (which means i have no way out as im too close to the ocean to react to any disaster). Not my fault, i live with my family and can't leave them since they need my support or else they couldn't afford the rent. Even if i wanted to leave i can't cause i can't afford it and i have noone and nowhere to go.
So now im is stuck in a kobashimaru (star trek 2) scenario that i can't excape from. I can't leave my family since they need me (single mother). It would be different if i had my college degree but i still ain't finished so i have no money and no degree. Even if i left it would break my mother's heart and my brothers that look up to their older brother.
So while I feel blessed to have all this knowledge of what is truly going on in the world (illuminati, nwo etc), to what is coming (earth changes), i am cursed to die by something I have knowledge of and have known and warned people for a long time. It would be different if i were alone but since i have a family that needs me i can't just say 'bye im moving to utah."
I have prayed so many times to keep me away from this soon to be disaster zone but to no availe. I have always had a fear of earthquakes and tsunamis. I have prayed for better luck in another state away from the ocean and earthquakes but nothing. Now im in such a dangerous spot if you hear on the news "the big one struck the west coast' you know im dead. If 'the big one' in the west coast doesn't happen in at least 3 years, enough for me to finish my degree and get the hell outta here that would be my salvation. I doubt it as recent news stories point to it happening any time now.
Maybe im going a little crazy over this and should stop worrying, maybe nothing will happen and the west coast will be intact for hundreds of years. But seeing the news 2-3 months ago about the san andreas fault ready to burst it has me very worried.