AM I DREAMING? (Page 1 of 2)

Yes dreaming, but no one "can read your mind"
reflections within reflections, you are causing your fears to become or seem like reality
can you read your own mind?

chemicals are "off" in the brain, sounds like a halucination you are experiencing
here's to "better dayz"

I don't know who you are. I cannot read your mind.
I have no idea if in fact your mind is being read by anyone, including yourself.
I am just reading your words
and seeing the paranoid drift...it may be very hard but it is possible to realize that this is not happening for everyone else in the same way as you imagine it is for you.
The chemicals in your own body cause this sensation
are you on meds? are you taking them?
Do you have medical or psychological help of any kind?

If chemicals can be balanced somehow
natural or otherwise then some semblance of relief can be attained.
But the question remains
Is this the dream that everyone is involved with to some extent,
called delusion? wrong headed identification with ones thoughts...
or your own private dream even further removed from reality by another layer of personal confusion
then we can address waking up from it when we know what it is for you
peace...

Well, we to get that outta the way. Good.
glad to hear that you are rationally minded and aware of a larger scope as well. there can be touches of paranoia and if we had no capacity for suspicion than we would be more vulnerable to "bad people" and their weird stuff, as you say etc.

The problems can come when the scope of your awareness is too big, there is a lot of information with few clues as to what the priority is and it gets overwhelming.

Never mind that everything seems like an act to you right now, let that go for the moment and come back to being here as best as you can...relax and try to stay centered in your body.

There are several things you can do, but quiet meditation is a good way to settle the waves and get some balance, some energy back to the right circuits if it is possible.

Sitting still, listening passively, letting go of any ideas i am this, that or the other thing.
just watching the mind, thoughts coming and going, and feeling the sensations in your body.
Stay centered in the lower part of the body and stay still for at least 20 minutes for so, with the back upright. If you are using a chair, instead of cushions on the floor, lean forward from the back rest, so all your energy is engaged.
Do it every day at least once...don't try anything fancy just breath normally  and relax... with the eyes open but lowered, listening.

If you can do this i would guess that most of the problems will vanish in a few days. There are a lot of reasons for this.

"QI gong injury" i'm not familiar with but there is nothing new on this earth.
On this end there is no acting, any more than what you are doing is an act.
On one hand it is all "an act" until you know who you are (or are not to be specific) and everything "extra" is seen and dropped.
The mind is funneling all kinds of information and ideas and without being able to separate the fact from the fiction, even on a subtle level, it can seem like there is something external to you acting on you. Let's not assume that is the case yet, let's assume all of this is just an imbalance and can be righted with practice and knowledge.

Let's start from the beginning and see if we can find out what's going on..
what do you mean by "I've been through a lot" ?
and when did this feeling start and how exactly?
Be honest don't worry about what anybody thinks.

Well my friend, i am starting to get the idea of what you mean about going through a lot.
All of this can be looked at from a lot of different levels, although i have had some small experience with forces that manifest that way, i have to say i'm not very big on signs, so much as symbols in the subconscious messages your body is sending.
The drugs change the chemistry of the brain and will definitely take some time to reconnect the circuits. If you see the danger of that kind of extremism then you will avoid it in the future.
some kind of yoga or martial art or exercise would probably be good to get the body conditioned and work out the toxins in the blood.
I am not kidding about meditation...it will "drive out the demons" if you you can do it. This is the most direct connection to the creator you can make.  good luck.
I hope that things are on the mend and will now start to stabilize a bit for you.  Peace, Jay

DEMONS .  DARKNESS . THE OTHERS .  FANTASY

Marlo,
Because you interpret things as dramatic and important in some other-worldy way does not make you crazy.
However i personally reserve judgement on all that.
There is a lot i interpret differently from many people here.
Does that make me crazy?
No.
I am also very strong, and see very clearly, and only trust what i have seen and what i have learned and that does not include war on the astral plane, or any other plane!

Where i am it is peaceful and is harmonizing because i am peaceful and in tune with all realms interpenetrating at once.

But i am a WARRIOR like you. And i have "fought" long and hard to get to this place that is peaceful.
Though i believe i know what is meant by this "war" it does not require our active participation other than to see clearly, and get a grip on WHO WE ARE NOT.
NOT knowing is key here, thinking you know will trip you up every time until you awaken.

Identifying with any characters in the bible or any other book or movie is not going to help you to understand the truth!
We are not characters in a fantasy, this is where your veiw starts to go off and become paranoid or grandiose.

You are in human form at this point and have a brain that is biased towards that interpretation at this point. Question that. Be careful.
There are psychological reasons, and chemical reasons why you are interpreting it this way.

Do you enjoy this conflicted fantastic story that you are dreaming/ living?

If so, then go ahead without my help.
I can only help you in this world, not in the biblical fantasy or comic book interpretation that you are presently insisting on.

There is a dark and light to balance everything, without these seeming polarities, there would be no balance.
I do not believe in "evil", only ignorance. There is "bad", only if there is "good". There is wrong only because there is an interpreted "right".
You live in fear because you do not understand what is in front of you. Because there is a polarity and we are often switching between these polarities, does not make it a war!
Though there is conflict for many on a "soul" level, it is not necessary or "real" on another level.
It is because we identify with one side, the "good" side, when  all sides exist simply to balance each other out.... they are only a part of the whole which is the deeper reality.

You cannot imagine an isolated "good" or "light" side only,
they all belong together. You can learn to see from a greater distance, where they are natural ocurances that do not create conflict, because there is harmony in the totality of "reality".
If we become aware of the WHOLE rather than merely the parts, than fear of "dark or evil" falls away.
It is a play of "opposites", it is an illusion really.
The WHOLE is GOD or "reality"
"It" goes by many names but names are not important.

This is where the meditation comes in.
IT is looking with out judging, without being fooled by interpretation.

Yes i have had astral dreams all my life , OB experiences.
They are wonderful and peaceful because i have spent many years learning how to harmonize the realms. It was not always this way, as a child i was afraid of some it, and this sh*t freaked me out!
Now I don't find "another side" that is scary in it.
It is the same world but outside of our 3 dimensions, with out the
friction and strict rules. WE are in all dimensions simultaneously.
That is why you are drifting between them. You have lost some of your "grounding" in this dimension and weakened your connection with the strong chemicals that have changed the balance for you and how you perceive. Now your chemicals are "off", and fluctuate.

Drink lots of water, avoid alcohol and keep doing your art, it will help.

Here is where we differ in interpretation.  I have been "touched" by so called "demonic" forces in the past and have had to make an effort to deal with them...
I may be able to help you with how you can do it.
They do not control my reality at this point, do not play havoc with my life.
I do not fight them because i have defeated them by absorbing them back into the nether world they came from.

They are merely the dark side that accompanies the light and this is not our world...They come to teach...respect them, do not fear them.

Your consciousness belongs to the light, but because you have played with it, been tempted by it, and strayed into areas where you made yourself vulnerable...
you have been connected to the dark in some way.

You did not know it at the time, but now you bear the traces of playing with things you did not understand or know about.
You have no choice but to face them now...DO not fight them!
Fighting only makes them stronger.

This state is not permanent, but you must make an effort to return to clarity and freedom, and IT TAKES DISCIPLINE, patience,  and knowledge.

So far you have not shown much interest in any of that ..
and you are making a spectacle of your "self".
You must commit to finding your "ground" and reality again...
you must resolve to do this!

You are making yourself vulnerable to hellish realms by imagining you are something grand.
of course we are all special and have unique talents but....
The fact is:
They will chase you down until you come to terms with the inner truth that you are nothing other than a reflection of the source or "god",  though i prefer the source, because "god" is a loaded term that has associations that also sound very grand.

Think of it as "WHAT IS"...
you must come into alignment with
"what is", and this hallucination world, this "hellish realm", that you have stumbled into, will slow down enough and you can step out of it.
This is serious business and you must take it seriously, without whining and do the work necessary to return to the land of the living once again, a stronger and smarter person.

I am merely one spirit who has done so and am now free to the extent that i remain clear... it takes constant vigilance!!!!

We are never done working on ourselves, but there is a point where we actually accept responsibility for what is manifesting in us, and BEGIN WORKING in earnest.
Drop all this "believing" in things right now, and stop, look and learn, where you have fked up and try to get it straight.

#1) we are NONE of us special.
We are simply a reflection of the ONE that includes all.
Accept this truth (it is not a belief!) and you will begin towards freedom and become clearer,  different from the deluded masses running around in conflict ...do you see how this works?

#2) You DO NOT know who or what you are, because you have not experienced that directly for yourself yet. You are on a path to something more incredible, beautiful and fulfilling than you can possibly imagine.
But until then, realize that you are not awake and until you awaken, there is nothing else more worthy of doing in this life.
If you are a true "warrior" then that is what you came to do...awaken to the truth and drop all this "service to self" nonsense!
You cannot become what you truly are, until you drop the grand illusions of "being somebody" and begin to look humbly and simply!
You are spirit, but blind until you learn to see.

#3) The Way to learn to see is to become quiescent, remain still and alert in a circle of light and awareness.
This awareness begins with points 1&2 and progresses through the noise that now fills you mind. The visions and fantasies are not real in any fundamental way! Listen to it, but do not run from it.
IT CANNOT HURT YOU!
Don't turn away from it, watch it carefully and question if it is real!
You have the right to Question anything that appears to you!
You cannot escape it by running!
It will only pursue you wherever you go.
You must stop...turn and embrace all of it as YOURSELF.
There is nothing separate from you, no matter how strange it might seem. This is true strength and understanding

All of it is a part of reality, don't believe the separate seeming manifestations.
Prove you are a warrior to yourself and to "them", by standing your ground. NOW! do not fight. Nothing can hurt you inside yourself because you are what ever it is you are seeing.

I am not suggesting that you can stand in traffic and not get hurt!

But in the layers of confusion and conflict of your own psychic reality you are the only thing that can remain after all of it tries and fails to move you! Do you understand?
You are supreme in your own realm and everything else is chimerra.

Do not ascribe reality to the demons and beings in your psychic world, but pay attention to, and respect them all!
If you respect all, you will embrace all... and when you embrace them, the false will vanish, dissappear, go back to the mindground from which they came.

They are all merely parts of yourself that have become estranged from you.
If you fight them, you only give them strength by proving their existence.

The Tibettan book of the  dead says:
"Neither move towards or away from whatever appears",
whatever appears to you is only the one mind appearing in many forms and disguises.

Neither worship nor malign the spirits that inhabit your world, in that way you will find the balance to find your own ground again and be troubled by your visions no more.
ASK simple questions if have to...it is good practice...
then listen for the answers...in silence...
the truth does communicate in words in your head...you just know.
if you hear some one talking to you... question it's reality.

the silence is your friend, do not be afraid of it, but learn to listen, silence and questioning is your MOST powerful weapon!

Demons cannot stand actual silence. they live in confusion, noise and chatter and cannot survive where there is peace and silence.
good luck, Jay

Good attitude!
You are pretty smart and it takes all of what you've got to get beyond this "rough going" and move out of "the basement"....patience and practice. steady on.
Don't give up if you have a bad day, that happens to anyone, just get some rest and when the sun comes up again,
get up and do your best with what you've got and the gift of a new day.
Peace, Jay

Not a picture of me.
it is beautiful though