I am having difficulty finding purpose (Page 1 of 3)

We are in a very difficult time.
I want to respond in more detail but I cannot today.
Try to find some beauty in sacred nature and realize we came here to experience being in this type of density or dimensional reality. The negative forces became overstated in this realm. That is all going to be undone.

You gotta play the game to find out why you're playing the game. That's paraphrasing a quote from the movie "The Game." If you had no purpose, you wouldn't be here right now. Finding your purpose makes it sound like a worrying chore. Figuring out what gets your juices flowing and having some fun doing that is easier. Just doing nothing and waiting for the answer is putting the game on pause... instead, make a move, cue the script, and new clues will come your way.

But it does sound like you're in a rut. I get into these kinds of ruts periodically. To get out of this self-repressive feedback loop, try doing something new and different no matter how small. Make it small enough that you can successfully do it.

Rearrange some furniture. Visit and hang out some place you haven't before. Do something a little daring. Write yourself a short essay on some interesting topic. Give a couple dollars to a homeless guy. Spend an hour or two in nature. Email some website author with comments and thanks. Read about something interesting that you previously glossed over. Ask a metaphysical question and brainstorm some answers. Write down and ponder over what you feel to be the truth, what you stand for, what would make your soul happy.

Feedback loops are self-sustaining but getting them started is the hardest part, so getting the momentum going with something small but new and refreshing helps break the hold of the old. Once you do that, you're telling your inner babbler/slacker "ha, I did something and you couldn't stop me" which chips away at its power and makes it easier to keep going.

Someone once told me my problem was thought, that I caught myself thinking again, this in response to my not doing what my heart compelled me due to my rationalizing away my procrastination. He said thought follows action, and action follows thought, and in this I could go on knowing it was all a battle of opposites. In other words, carrying out an action based on a thought must be done without letting further thought interfere with the act. Often we spend more time mentally vacillating about what we should do and whether we should do it, than simply doing what is immediately before us to do. The trick is to just make up your mind on something doable, and without further deliberation get to it.

I missed this before I replied. 

Yes, you can lay there and die. . . and if you did so you would experience your greatest act of power.  I'm not suggesting that you choose to do so, but rather I'm saying that, if you are going to lay in bed all day, take the time to contemplate death and what it really is.

From one perspective, your entire life is a preparation for the moment of your death, and that can serve as a focus to recall the sense of purpose that you are searching for. 

Personally, I don't believe that the world is completely pointless and illusory, just the vast majority of it.  Reality exists here and it begins with who you are and what you value.

Everything is connected.

Not less than two hours ago, I witnessed a couple having an argument over whether or not anybody can really "make a difference".  So the issue is "out there" floating around somewhere, and it is on the minds of many, not just yourself. 

So, you may ask yourself, what connection do you have with random strangers eating dinner hundreds or thousands of miles away?  Therein you may find your purpose.

Capitan,
I just ran across a new book that came out recently called "Reader of Hearts: The Life and Teachings of a Reluctant Psychic" by Darrin Owens.

www.darrinowens.com

This book is about a young man, who when only 17 years old started to give psychic readings.   It's an amazing story of how he was lead into a very spiritual life by following his inner urges, which for him were very obvious.  Without going into the whole story, in this book, after having been a professional psychic for a long time and having seen how people go through life and learn spiritual lessons (plus the fact that he himself found out that his lessons were not that different from others and in turn could draw a map of how to navigate all this). 

He also gives, in the second half of this book a very practical series of simple exercises you can follow to greatly enhance your own spiritual development.   He calls this a sort of "spiritual ancient mystery training", and this is a very easy reading book and also very enjoyable.

I would highly recommend this book for anyone interested in taking some bold steps forward.   I'm sure you would enjoy this, and hopefully at least go look it up in the nearest bookstore.

I didn't buy this book at the time I read part of it in the bookstore, but plan on picking it up soon.

PH

To paraphrase C.S. Lewis, spiritual progress always comes in waves, everyone knows that.  Most people think that when they are at the peak of a wave, i.e. feeling really in touch, inspired, spiritual and in love with the world, they are making great progress spiritually.  While that is true in a sense, the true test of spiritual progress, and by far the best opportunity for growth, is in the troughs, when you feel lost, isolated, lonely and depressed, with no connection to the divine.  If you respond to these times with discipline, and courage and don't give in to the temptation of self-pity and apathy, then you will be amazed at what emerges from the other side.

I don't mean to sound preachy or anything, cause to be honest I have been in a major trough myself for a while now.  I think I am speaking mostly to myself here, but it helps to see others in a similar space, and to share what I already know but have lacked the discipline to enact.  It is really strange for me, because I am at a point in my life where everything seems to be falling into place, and my dreams are just around the corner, only to realize that the external circumstances don't really seem to have any effect on my being, and external success is leaving me feeling emptier than ever.  A big part of it is also feeling overwhelmed and trapped in a chain of responsibility.  It seems my freedom has evaporated, I am getting what I always wanted, and only now realizing that means I have far fewer choices available to me.

Capitan 2 things help-me a lot with depression.
-Physical exercises(body builder stuff)
-See the sun rising.

I go to the yard, stay on the grass with the bare foot(to change energy)
and look at the first sun rays and think in Christ, talk and ask for help
than I go to the gymnastics and at the end I took a hot shower.

People tends to think in the Jesus in the cross, I think into Christ
energy and associate it with the sun.

Good for you to find anything artistic to distract, go play
with photographs and PhotoShop, painting, clay making stuff or music.
If you got the money, go travel to New Zealand, Bali or French Polynesia.
Go paragliding and feel the freedom!

Or start doing some charity, I do not mean giving money and forget
I mean involving more personally like artists, psychologists who goes to the
hospitals, asylum and stuff like that...
There are a lot of  “bastards" with a much worst life than our f*cking ones...

I play with image manipulation software to distract like putting an
UFO into this photography...

This simple things help-me a lot to keeping going this f*cking life of mine.

Thanks heheheheheh

Depression comes from many factors even chemical body imbalance
that is why body builder helps so much, plus the time to observe your thoughts
in a better view helped by the influx of the endorphins gained by the exercises.
Here they started treating depression with acupuncture and have being
achieving good results too.

I do not think that a “step above"  creature have depression, because when we are
connected to the whole we are in “ecstasy", so depression is impossible.

Hummm...
Maybe bored neg one, come here and start to play “war games" ...