Emotional Freedom (Page 2 of 2)

I too, had to pull away from a group that I found wonderful support and cyber-friendship. I haven't posted there, or even read threads, since last january. The synchronicity of your reference of Don Juan is remarkable. Just yesterday a friend from that board emailed me to ask what i was up to. He refered to me as his Don Juan--as he called me a yaqui mystic a year ago. He is now writing a book on spiritual beliefs. I helped him along his path at a time after his mother died. On the board we would do creative dialog in poetic format. Others joined in and we had a great bit of fun. Many on the board had been offended a year earlier when I posted "peace and love" original poetry and original philosophic aphorisms on the site. It is a  site  owned by a celebrity and i was repremanded by many for speaking in words that some deemed offensive. I was later banned after a three month poetry project which had acummulatively predicted the death of a famous comedian: Bob Hope. I called the series "The Road to Santa Cruz". In it I wove in the characters of the board and created a fun play. Not everyone understood what the bigger picture was and I think I scared many people. I did not intend to do more than to document my spiritual journey with poetry. My writing did not seem to offend everyone, yet it only took a small group of complainers to get a person banned. Usually the offended ones would complain to the moderator or start a fight and blame the victim--after the victim could no longer defend themselves. Common practice on many sites, I'm sure.

Those who seemed not to understand the humor and creative aspects were aparently offended by the original work that flowed out onto the board. After my banning and "tar and feathering" I became much more aware of the "cult" dynamics that exist on many boards.  This friend recognized over a year later, when I rejoined under "titmouse_" , that I had originally come for purposes of expanding the awareness of other posters.  My friend took the lead and we went back into creative fun and sponteneity.  We had great fun and others joined in. I am not sure if the "cult" had much power by that time and I was not banned again. In order to effectively ban me the celebrity wiped out the entire site. She responded to an email after an in-person request after a concert to return to the community. In later comments on the board she justified her decisions with untruths. In the case of a celebrity it would be fruitless to even try to defend one's rights to speak on their board.  A famous voice who speaks for individual expression and artistic freedoms was not so charitable with a poet that she found offensive. I believe what she found offensive was the truth in my philosophies that challenged the paradigms or her fan base.  Her fans are generally those who seek security in the protection of a group lead by a dictator of sorts. As an independent and free soul I represented a example of thought that brought to light the responsibility of self accountability.

"Small fish swim in schools; the great white shark swims alone"

I understand how uncomfortable some people are when you speak from a truthful perspective. I never intend to do more than grow. My friend has winessed  the phenomena that I drew from, and found my spirit to be honest and loving. He now is writing a book about spirituality, whereas I continue to  research my own inner world. I plan to write a childrens book relating some of the miraculous events and insights I have gained. I take some heat at the local coffee emporium where we daily talk philosophy and spirituality. Haven't been kicked out yet, so my pursuit of truth continues. i plan to end it this month, although I will continue to journal my life experiences for my benefit. If I am truely a yaqui mystic I will gladly share my experience later in other books.

For example: yesterday I had about 5-6 rather interesting psychic events and have talked about them today with others. I predicted synchronicity a few times during my journey and have documented numerous examples on message boards.  I wouldn't think that spiritual people would be offended by truths and empirical evidence. I do think that the "powers that be" are nervous about maintaining the hierachal structure based on material accumulation.   

"Change is neither good nor detrimental to thinking people; it is what drives us to growth and transcendence, and therefore we are eventually pressed into awareness, voluntarily or not. This is the dynamic quality which creates the static certainty of things."
~~carefulcarpenter

Maybe the only freedom there is. Otherwise we are 100% subject to conditioning. In my own experience it's not the event itself but my own interpretation that causes extreme emotional states and the impaired judgement and poor decisions which follow. It took me many years to realize that I was living like a ball in a pinball machine, reacting off every little thing. Conditioning told me that this was the way to survive. I later learned how to question these beliefs.

Right on, reminds me of a favorite saying of mine: "Only through discipline can we know freedom." - Justin Girard  One of those lovely little paradoxes of life.