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Thanks Kathy (((hugs)))

I went to that website linked with your profile about giving up tv.

I must say this, that t.v. helps me escape ordinary (dull) reality, and I am addicted to it.  I am more selective though.  I have a Tivo now (a month now), that helps me be more selective by choosing only the shows I want to sift through the mass of gross tv shows (reality crap, media brainwashing, sensationalistic channels).  Although, I have discovered that Tivo just enables you to waste more time sifting and selecting.

I am mostly now a shut-in (after going on a manic-like roadtrip 14,000miles, whew!).

The medicine I was taking for a year allowed me to travel and sleep less (be more active and lose weight).  After a recent three weeks trying to let it work, I had to go back on my old med (that I took for a total of five years and which causes extreme weight gain, potential diabetes, high triglycerides and chronic fatigue).  Therefore (also in credit card debt again due to travel expenses-yet it was worth it, the journey i took), I am homebound now for the foreseeable future.

I think movies (dvd or theatrical) let us escape the problems we are stuck in (balance is needed, some time on the computer, some reading, some journal writing, some drifting, etc all can be overdone and need balance).  By projecting myself into a good worthwhile and entertaining movie, I can escape for two hours (I'm a dreamer! and poet!).

Thanks for responding.
--sincerely heartfelt, -indigo

(((Indigo))),
Thanks.  It's not my intention with the website to tell people how to live their lives.  There is one thing you might wish to consider, though.  TV puts you into a susceptible alpha brainwave state.  This might make you more vulnerable to attacks of various sorts {insert subliminal you want to throw away your tv}.  It might also make it harder to stay grounded.  Rereading your post, I have to wonder why Meg Ryan, Bruce Willis, and Nicole Kidman were used {insert subliminal: turn off your tv};.  They would have no effect on me (Bono maybe ).  I am just disconnected from anything they might represent, although I might recognize their voices.   I wonder if there is a reason their voices were used.   Just speculating though.   It is your life.  I am not going to tell you how to live it {insert subliminal: get rid of your tv}.

About your efforts to be "saintly" and "angelic":  I think those words carry more baggage than they are worth.  You just need to be the best you that you can be.  That is enough.  "Saintly" and "angelic" are like boxes that can confine you, even if they are boxes with halos and wings.   Given your bizarre circumstances I would suggest avoiding any boxes.   The lack of hatred in your writing and your continued desire to help others in the face of what you have suffered say more than any halo ever could.  But that is just my opinion again.

I wish you the best, and I hope you stick around longer.
Kathy

Thanks for the input Zonabi & Kathy & Ladyvixen,

Zonabi:  I am fine at the moment with what cd's I have.  I really got rid of a lot of the old dark/gothic ones... I feel more liberated from them now.

Kathy:  I understand what you are saying about giving up t.v.

It is something I could never do.

I am a dreamer, I find release in it.  I have a lavender/magenta aura/personality (dreamer).

Movies and music bring me joy and vicarious escape (by projecting myself into the hero's role in a movie).  I can find romance, action, comedy, compassion, strange new places/locales, etc...

There are worse addictions...

As far as staying here and posting or continued interplay, I had a difficult time just considering posting what I already have (my final follow up).

I want to get away from the whole new age, paranormal, speculation, spirituality subjects.

I will spend my future time saving up money (to travel far and wide on), reading plain spiritual books (no more paranormal), writing in my journals, someday again more poetry writing, watching t.v. and movies, listening to soothing music, surfing the internet (mostly reference), and maybe a few other activities....

I went to a concert for the first time (for about three years) the other night, Keane, a British soft-rock band.  I actually teared up in a couple songs (about romantic relationships).

I am not comfortable in the body I reside in.  I will never overcome dysmorphia (my body was young and healthy, and lean once upon a time).  I am not good at relationships (friends or girlfriends), I suppose I am too self-absorbed.  I WILL someday find my true love (on the other side, I feel she is waiting and watching there for me).

I will try to shirk the whole saintly/angelic mission/message kinda thing as best I can.

It IS who I FEEL myself to be, I will merely put it in the back of my mind and try to maintain a modesty about it.

If someone were to examine the entire context of my life so far, they would be truly astonished (as I am), yet, we must all face our demons and hang-ups.  Confront and overcome our dark/shadow sides and let the Light of Christ shine thru and cleanse us.

edit: some grammar corrections and I forgot to thank Ladyvixen for her input...

I am familiar with the argued existence of Jesus Christ (David Icke's claim, and the author Archaya's book).  Just because you write a book about Christ being a common type of myth (ancient Egyptian savior archetypes etc.), doesn't mean you are truly correct.  Anyone can write a book (especially one for which there is a market for, and which some people will believe in anything weird/bizarre, and arcane).

So what if there were other savior figures of which Christ resembles?  Maybe Jesus Christ came to fulfill the role of savior for real this time, while the others were merely attempts or fabrication to mislead people into believing- well you see, there were these other mythic archetype/saviors and they were merely inventions and never occured-so do don't believe the real thing when it comes along... ???  Intentional falsehoods to deceive people when the real one genuine Savior-Christ appears on the world stage.

One more point in regards to an actual Jesus Christ, why are there  numerous ancient paintings depicting strange aerial discoid objects in the background (one such object appears in a painting entitled 'The Crucifixion' from the 13th or 14th century)? I'll tell you, because there was a real miracle performing teacher and savior who really did manifest in our timelines to fulfill a genuine role(s).  There are time-travellers who have gone back in time to witness these events.  Heck, they follow me around everywhere I go to try and understand what they are dealing with, and the how's and why's that there are saints/avatars/holy people....on earth today (and in the old days as well).  Techno time travellers observing spiritual time travellers.  Everything is being recorded and studied in higher or parallel dimensions.  I answer to the ultimate records- the Akashic Record Halls (where all my deeds/actions/efforts/struggles are reviewed/shown/studied).  It is my understanding that a man known as Jesus Christ really did exist and perform miracles (miracles which could partly be explained if one knew that Christ had help from the trans-dimensionals/helpers- the angels (some et's? too?)).

I know many street people can seem very outrageous and loony with their over-zealousness, but what if they are ranting and raving because they strongly feel they are correct?  That the evildoers will be punished and held accountable someday.  That if they can save just one person, it will have been worth their efforts.

I used to subscribe to the view that Christ was an invention of the rich to give out false hope to the poor and suffering (you can't have a good life this time, but wait, you will be rewarded in the next life-heaven, always the next life, never this one --is something Icke was trying to relate, and I understand his new age stance-- it's better to be a hedonist and enjoy your present life, since that is all there possibly is... or rather make the best of this life --I understand his stance and he has a valid point, yet I attest that there are rewards for suffering and strugglings and good works and good words in the next life --a heavenly dimension of benevolence among other prior saints and former/present angels/spirits).

I am trying to relay the point that (after my own experiences and perception) Christ did exist and will continue to exist and play a valid/genuine role in humanity's course and future.

I do understand that there are many other avatars out there (Buddha, for example, and the prophet Mohammed), but I still understand that there is one narrow way to salvation, and that is understanding and practicing the teachings of Christ which are difficult yet attainable teachings-- faith (not blind faith, but a leap of faith), hope, charity, forgiving, non-violence, compassion for the poor and sick and struggling and meek, and unconditional love.  I used to believe there were numerous paths to God (the Great Holy Spirit), maybe one can find their way by following other avatars like Buddha, or Mohammed or Native American teachings.... I am merely saying that from my personal experience (after studying other paths) that Christ seems to be the one true path.

edit: some grammar corrections

Abayo! (Luck!)
--indigo

Yeah, you're right Haven, no point in arguing this topic.

I was trying to convey my newly confirmed understandings (without dogedly attempting to convert), my change of heart.

I understand it is difficult to teach some new found belief (which came about through experience and reflection) when those being spoken to have not had similar or perceived experiences.

I do convey that one can learn through direct experience and the subsequent reflection.

It is rather hard to convey to someone already entrenched and firm in their belief structure(s).

Peace and Hope, sincerely good wishes to all, -cloudkeen (indigo)

Preaching to the converted. Enlighten yourselves and you will raise the vibratory levels of the Universe! Our task is not to enlighten others through our insight, but raise our own awareness and thereby raise the ambiant frequency by that simple fact: we are all connected.