montalk wrote:Thanks for finally revealing your sources, Jazzpen. Interesting scenario, one that was hinted in the movie "V" with a few of the reptilians being fifth columnists. I guess the only concern I have is this: the heavy doom element combined with your talk about being a bloodline descendant of one of the original survivors, did that last part also come from the reptilians you communicated with? If so then there's a potential fingerprint of manipulation there...
I've come across variations of the same theme elsewhere, for example Archangel Michael coming to a woman and telling her she's an Angel Lulilala or something, and he needs her full cooperation (submission) in the battle against evil, or perhaps the grays coming to an abductee and saying they have a soul kinship and the person has been chosen to warn humanity against its own demise. You can read in the Ra Material how doom figures prominently in the disinformation tactics used by the Orion Crusaders (reptilians), designed to induce feelings of despair and hopelessness and thus get the person to restrain his/her own freewill and spiritual light or else divert their sense of mission toward a distraction.
If you've considered this possibility and know it is not so, then okay. Just wanted to bring it up for discussion.
This was something I felt when I first read this post.
I had my experience, (something for another thread entirely or PM) I seriously considered that I was being used by someone else. The information I received was so intense, profound, enlightening, and disturbing that I wasn't entirely sure of my sanity for quite some time. It took me about three years of literally sleepwalking through life before I could trust that all the ideas in my head were my own, and that I could move forward towards other goals in life.
The real difficulty for me was because when I had my experience it was 10 years ago, and everyone I knew seemed to collectively indicate that no such experience could have possibly happened, much less to someone like me, and that is when I knew that I was on to something serious. Over time, the intensity of the experience has faded, despite my self-imposed mental compulsions to remember it, but I've also gained a better perspective over what it all meant.
What I realized is that I was granted a vision of what humanity will eventually become, and it is an image that fills me with joy and hope in this world, which really helps because it seems to counterbalance the occasional void. Upon reflection, I know that some of the ideas that I was initially presented with were infleunced by STS entities shortly after the experience ended. Where I began to heal was in understanding that some goals are truly transcendent, and some ideas are so pure that while it is impossible to even think otherwise, it is important to remember that the real plans were made a long time ago and it isn't always a good idea to assume that you know everything there is to know about it all and tamper with it, that sometimes the best thing to do is to consider the value of action vs. inaction and do nothing except observe.
The real key for me was to discern what MY role was in all of it, and what I eventually figured out was that there was nothing that I could do other than what I'm doing right now. I realized that my vision of UNIVERSAL LOVE CONSCIOUSNESS/UNITY will be accomplished within the STO parameters, and for me this is absolutely indisputable since I've already seen it. One of many angles that the STS entities tried to use against me was an implication that my knowledge and ability made me especially suited to spread the good news, and that I should devote myself to serving it exclusively. The funny thing is that it's now clearly apparent that my ability to seperate true virtue is quite pitiful when compared to the structures that are already in place, and that any attempt to tamper with the process was not only self-defeating, but incredibly presumptuous! Nowdays I like to say that sometimes the path finds you, so if it does, all you need to do is be able to do then is walk along it. Not everyone can see the path, but those who can do have ways to recognize eachother.
I think that it's better to unfold a potent message slowly, making sure that you truly understand what is being sent, and to remember that others of (same/different) (mindsets/backgrounds) can provide insight into what something may really mean. Occasionally someone will come out of left field with something you never considered and this alone should make you aware that it isn't all about you. I've also found that most of the unadulterated truth usually has the potential to be ego-busting at the same time! I'm fortunate since my nature automatically treats with caution anything that insinuates some sort of emergency, for obvious reasons.
As for the STS, nothing must give them greater delight than knowing that someone's doing their job for them, as it's an efficient use of resources, and it only leaves to them the option of when to reveal it to them - usually in the end. Spreading fear over ideas is an old trick used by frightened people wanting to control you with their own shortcomings. The fear they generate may be real to them, but it's not universal, and the real question which I always propose to them is if forced conversion and worship exalts their God. If it does, then it's not any god that I'm interested in getting to know better.
, but for the sake of the e-community fluidity here we really need to rein that in before we log on, at least if we plan on communicating with any efficacy we need to 
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