Lightwave, hang in there. Oh, yes, there are others out there. It's just that we seem to be relatively few and far between.
Fortunately, I do have friends near me who I can talk to about my experiences and perspectives and suggestions of possibilities. And although many of my friends are spread across the country and the world, they do tend to be an open and aware group of people.
Still, there are very few, if any, who share an interests in the topics discussed on Noble Realms to the same extent that I do, so perhaps I can identify with you there.
I've thought a lot about how to align my ideas and values and perspectives with the "job" or income source that I pursue. Right now I work at a conventional job, but with my research into work possibilities it seems that I am steadily heading in the direction of books. It seems to me that there is still integrity and economic opportunity to be found in the book industry.
By that, I mean everything from writing to printing to publishing to distribution to retail sales. If I were starting out at entry level and looking for work, I might just look into an independent bookstore or even one of the chains like Borders or Barnes and Noble. I regularly visit them to look at the New Age, Metaphysical, Speculation sections. Plus, of course, there are all the other sections as well.
It is my opinion that 2005 will be a huge turning point. The conventional society has seemingly reigned dominant for a long time. Either this year or very soon after this year, I think that we are going to see big big changes. Yes, we could be looking at something akin to economic collapse plus a whole lot more.
For "conventional" people who are not at all ready for this type of change I think it is going to be a very difficult time. People are going to be freaking out. But for people with a broader perspective, the changes may come as a form of relief. Yes, there will be suffering, and probably inconvenience because there may not be steady electricity (for example), but the mainstream story that what is important is "getting ahead" will take a huge blow. The idea that our "economy" is working will be exposed as a lie. Alternatives will become necessary.
So, lightwave, I bet you will do just fine through those changes, and I just thought that I would share some ideas with you.
All the best to you in peace and love.
P.S. When you say that what you say is misinterpreted and that you are not even saying controversial things, I bet that people are reading your energy field. They may not realize that they are doing so, but I bet they are reacting to the sense that they have that you are different and have different ideas.
It reminds me of a story that I heard about Jim Morrison. A middle-aged guy saw Jim Morrison walking down the street and without knowing that he was a singer or anything like that, the middle-aged guy said "Look at that guy- he's dangerous."