I think I am being watched.... (Page 1 of 2)

Dude,

You need to heed your uncle's advice: don't let this stuff consume you to the point that you can't go on a date or have fun with friends because you are too busy thinking about it all. Part of the awakening process is a natural transitional period of shock; how long this lasts varies from person to person. During this period, it is very easy to fall into a deep, dark hole of paranoid reasoning; a feeling of being watched and a general sense of, "Help, they are out to get me!" What you must learn to do is simply say, "Well, so what if they are?" Sounds hard, but it isn't as bad you think.

Yes, there is a lot of nasty stuff going on in this world. Yes, it is good that we all here acknowledge that it is happening and that we talk about it, but there is so much more to life, and not all of it is so negative. Yes, I'm sure this website and many others like it are being watched. Don't let your knowledge feed the kind of fearful mentality that these people want: instead, go deeper still until you find the knowledge that will truly set you free.

Learn who you are. Figure out what your own purpose here is. Realize that life is forever, and there is no need to be afraid, ever. Watch the setting sun. Listen to the rain. Feel the breeze of the wind passing over your face. Gaze upward into the heavens and out into the blackness of infinite space. Think of the billions of years of linear time that have already passed here, and the billions that lay ahead. Think of all the empires and civilizations that have risen and fallen, and have long been forgotten. Everything here is temporary: everything, including our own brief existence within this place. Put things into this deeper perspective, and you'll see how your viewpoint will change.

Jason.

It's great to hear about you being so passionate in your quest for truth and intent to enlighten others. But I must echo the caution about possible burnout and the danger of staying at a fear frequency.

I've learned that awareness can bring on paranoia that will consume you unless balanced by a nonplussed and even light-hearted attitude. The latter tends to come about naturally with time as you grow tired of being scared all the time and find out you're still alive despite all your worries to the contrary. But in the meantime it can take its toll.

Back when I researched the hardcore conspiracy stuff, it was a circuit overload and I became very paranoid. But in time the paranoia just faded away, leaving only a humorous attitude matched by cautious but practical sense of awareness. Nothing much shocks me anymore. Being centered and grounded is something to shoot for as soon as possible because being neurotic, paranoid, and fearful drastically lowers your spiritual defenses and that's the last thing you want as a seeker and disseminator of truth.

We know about thoughts and emotions influencing our reality and affecting the nature of our experiences. Well, feelings of hopelessness, paranoia, and fearfulness vibrate you at a frequency that invites experiences that reinforce these, and also attracts entities that feed upon negative energies or else find the spiritual vulnerability highly exploitable. I'm not talking about the awareness so much as the negative emotional reaction to it -- you can be aware but have a courageous/nonplussed rather than fearful attitude, which is having your cake and eating it too.

For example, if you study the Matrix Control System, artificial synchronicity, and hive mind subjects but let yourself get freaked out about it, chances are high you will start encountering people who act very strangely, who say strange things to you, or who have something watching you through their eyes. Reality will get screwed up and make you even more scared. Your life becomes like something out of "The Mothman Prophecies". Why? Three reasons: 1) your perceptions filter your experiences to confirm paranoid thoughts, 2) your altered soul frequency attracts such experiences, and 3) hyperdimensional entities see you as vulnerable enough to scare into submission. The moment you change your attitude to one of empowerment, courage, and indifference to these scare tactics is the moment they stop.

But left unchecked, this feedback cycle of negativity can lead to all sorts of harmful consequences. One is that you become a paranoid schizophrenic. Another is that your immune system gives out and you become frequently sick. Or your soul frequency becomes increasingly discombobulated and thus your life experiences reflect this through an increase of accidents and misfortune. On the hyperdimensional front, you may experience more paranormal activity than ever, perhaps more abductions of greater severity if you're prone to that sort of thing.

All this I have learned from personal experience and observing the same phenomena in numerous others over the years. So all I can say is, keep the awareness but throw away the fear. There is great benefit in humor, levity, and gratitude, in seeking the beauty in all things, in perceiving life as a challenging game or adventure, and especially in adopting a nonplussed but aware attitude. There's no formula to do this, and most of the time it takes experience to learn the right balance between caution and levity. Nevertheless, I'd be curious to hear your thoughts on this.

Not much to add to previous posts except that, as far as I'm concerned, all of us on this forum are being watched, but it doesn't mean that they can do anything about it. Their scare tactics can be pretty funny at times.

Back in the 60’s we were all protesting the war and doing drugs.  It was common to have “narcs“? infiltrate the groups as well as informants for the fbi.  We were all understandably cautious.  At one point learned that one of our very best friends had gone the narc route and that there was an extensive file on me(among others) with the fbi…even found out a lot of what was in the file…all accurate.  Through cleaning of the apt found planted stems behind a battery wooden clock…used to be a common tactic of the narcs, future bust insurance.  Got so tired of being paranoid, as with all the new info it did reach a crescendo.  Then decided to just call the bluff…my phone never worked right as it was being tapped…tapped phones in those days did common things, like no dial tone for a minute or more, things like that.  Called up the phone co and raised hell…was given a supervisor.  Said look, I don’t care if you tap my phone but make sure the f***ing thing works for god’s sake.  Put the info out on the loop that the planted stash had been located.  Made a huge flashing peace sign  of Christmas lights(many feet in diameter) and hung from my balcony, which was a major intersection with a traffic light in a neighbor of old folks and counter culture.  Left the peace sign up till the day I moved years later.  In making a mockery of the surveillance and deciding not to hide I never had any more problems.  The best way to be invisible is to be visible. 

"At the time I did not know what the freemasons were about, It wasnt until after the funeral I found out about what the freemasons were really all about"

Well lets hear it then - what are they "really about"  Menses?

Wow...Thank you for all the responses...Its great to hear so many different viewpoints on how to cope...

There is much work to be done........Where else could I have gotten this advice...?  Living without fear....a noble idea....I will be dedicated to it.......

Menses,
a couple years back I had the same feeling about me not being around in a few years. I used to always think I was going to die tragically, some how. But it wouldn't be till later, when I found out more.
Back then I was so eager to find the truth, but didn't know where to turn. I tampered with Satanism, then moved on to Paganism and the neopaganist religion of Wicca(e). I was kicked out of my house, moved in with my dad, met my friend Palulukon online, who opened up my world to a whole new understanding, and where to find the truth.
I however don't have those feelings of something happening to me in the future anymore, you wont understand this now, because I wouldn't have, but I do believe that it's a stage you go to when discovering...something. For me it was truth, and finding it. i think you have some things yet to know. I still have not read entirely in the cass system, the matrix, etc. I know basic principles is all. hell, I haven't even finished the Wave Series yet. but for me it was the awakening that I finally have found where to find the truth, and I felt overwhelmingly protected, so i guess you could call it my feelings of future tragic events insecurity.

for the past 2.5-3 weeks I had been getting anonymous phone calls from a man with a southern accent simply stating "I'm sorry, I have the wrong number.", I asked some friends about it, they thought it was weird, but nothing unusually weird.
for the past 4 days I have been tracking where I was in the house, what I was doing, wearing, etc. when he called. These were my figures:
1. I was always at home (he didnt call when my parents were home ever, just when I was alone, at home.)
2. I was always at the computer
3. I was always looking at something purtaining to the government, politics, scandels, etc. (I found this weird because most of the time I am fooling around on email or looking at something related to animals.)

The other DAY I was looking up more gov't control sites and right before the phone rang I heard a big bang in the kitchen. I rushed int here to find one of my sugar gliders getting into some cereal and they happened to knock over some dishes while they were doing it.
The phone rang about 5 seconds later, I turn around and see a man dressed in grey with a black trench coat and a long black hat extending over his face with a cell phone, peering into my kitchen (which youc an see my computer from in an angle through the kitchen window. I go WHAT THE F*** and just pause there for a moment peering out. Well he kind of paused a little, dropped his phone and went into his grey lexus-style car. About 5 minutes later (too scarred to run out) I went outside to see if I could get his call phone he had apparently dropped. Well it was nowhere to be seen. So maybe I mis-saw it and he dropped it into his coat pocket or something, it happened all too quickly.

Tonight is the first night I have been on any site portaining to anything, which was this site. I came here because Palulukon sent me an email about the pool scams of this past election, which reminded me to come in and stop by. Nothing has happened ever since, but like you Menses, i rally do feel there are people watching every little move we do. "Citizens" are like their blind bulls. And what would happen if all of us became unblind. There would be a major stampede. I dont know why they watch us, there are too many of us to kill off or threaten. I just know that they are out there, watching most of every move we make.

I wouldn't let your studies consume your life. Things will happen as they happen, just go with the flow, study all you can so you can know and protect yourself from upcoming events, but don't let it consume you...
that's what I do.

a good history.

~Abra
(once again, have forgotten password and the new p/w I requested is still not working)