Dreaming the Council Ways

“It would be so much easier if I could remain as ignorant as always.”
But you just can’t go back. You now have to ask, “How?” You have to ask yourself, “Why?” You must start asking the real questions. By asking how, in searching for why, you have to go forward and jump into the mysterious abyss that the mirrors reveal to you. You have to jump into the mirrors of your shadows and meet your true power, your very spirit. For once, you have to be brave, because you are now facing the demons of Earth, the dark entities, shadows of the world about to kill you. And one particular shadow is a huge one – your fear of death. This is what the obscure entities on this planet wish for you, and for us all, that all humanity reside in this place of spiritual deprivation, bound to the mundane and materialistic fascination of these ego-mirrors, forgetting once and for all to quest for your soul’s advancement. Now, more than ever, you see the abyss and you are aware of these dark forces, hissing in your eyes not to jump, not to find your liberation. They rejoice in enticing you with these appealing mirrors of mundane interests, keeping your mind busy for the rest of your life. With your mind busy on your vanity, they make sure there is no place left to look at your deepest self. The day that you awake, completely bored with this superficial world you have adopted, the day you awake, at last, with a true spiritual anxiety in front of the abyss, they will try to make your life impossible. They will impede you by all means possible, from breaking out of your chains, from breaking these mirrors.
This is when the inner struggle comes upon you, resulting in spiritual depression. This is when you start becoming quite aggressive. They are everywhere around you, constantly taking advantage of your weakest self, often appearing as merciless people, harassing you each time you wish to dedicate yourself to the true retreat into your spirit. They appear as dark influences within and without, as distractions, temptations, as endless problems, inciting you to destroy yourself by any means, inciting you to be angry at the whole world. They may go as far as providing an appealing life for you within this palace of mirrors, offering you total security and prosperity, so that you no longer desire to better your spiritual condition. If you undertake to fight these entities, you feel you are losing your mind. You can become paranoid. All these voices shout in your mind at once, making you crazy. This is when you meet your second big shadow – the fear of insanity.
You are now in a state of complete vulnerability, so weak. You are a hungry and needy soul. It is now that you need to seek a spiritual teacher. But you must proceed very carefully, for the dark forces may even hide in the disguise of a false spiritual teacher, who may do everything to possess your spirit, or even to create for you more temptations toward spiritual power. If you fall for all of these obscure entities and their telepathic enticement, they will have won you over. They will know you are now under their control, and will begin looking for other subjects, just barely awakening and of fresher taste than you are now.
But you have to be strong. This is when you are called to become a spiritual warrior. You have to be in the world of mirrors, out there, and yet you have to pursue your solitary quest with great veracity. For this, you learn spiritual strategies, because you cannot let this happen. You cannot die to your spirit. You learn to recognize these dark entities, and you also learn to preserve your pure essence. You learn to hunt as a true warrior, because you know, out there, all of humanity is submersed in their influence.
You can now see them everywhere, at all levels, on television, in magazines, in the supermarkets, in the food your society tells you to eat, in the people who say they are your friends, at work, in a glass of whiskey, in drugs, in the downtown streets, in the school systems and education, in governments. They are there, creating despair, insanity, death, and illness, in the common people, impeding them to awake to spirit. They can be incarnated in absolutely anyone – fascists and liberals, communists and capitalists, intellectuals and psychologists, doctors and artists, false shamans and common people. And you know now that you are alone, completely alone in this vast world. You learn to discern and this is your most powerful guide.
You learn to go in Earth, for your tunnel within is a safe place. There you can embrace your reflections of terror within, your mirage in the desert of your soul, and transmute all of this. If you are afraid of your emptiness, afraid of realizing you are alone and that you are absolutely no one, you will never see the passage. Once you have realized the presence of these terrible mirrors within, seeing them echo a thousand images of you, projecting intolerably your narcissism on a giant screen, you cry and scream in horror. You cannot live anymore with the perpetual illusions of yourself, disconnected from reality, where everything is centered around what you like, dislike, want, or need, as if only you exist. You cannot deny anymore this distressing semblance of yourself, never able to give of yourself, never able to lose yourself in the great void, always seeking more and more palliatives and justifications. You now have to jump. You cannot live in a secluded world anymore, a world in which you think everyone is watching you all the time, a world in which everyone is thinking everyone else is watching them. And, in the end, no one is watching any one. They are all to busy thinking they are being watched. This is a dehumanized world. But now, within, you learn that in the world, only death watches you.