This is kinda like my angry poem.

I wrote this recently when I was in an emotional battle.
I very rarely post at NR.
This seemed like a good thing to show here because I know I'll be understood.

NO, THEY AREN'T ALIENS

I always dreamed of beyond.
They say the grass is greener on the other side and you can see for miles.
It's still worth a look.  But stay in your cage, you don't know the way.
You probably can't breathe there anyway.
Wait for the 6th, not the 4th, to show you the path.
I heard 7ths become One, don't jump that far in math.
Don't go backwards either, 2s suck and will hurt you.
Enjoy your 3D while it lasts, because one day "Boo".
You'll see why Egyptians drew their pictures that way they do.
Black and fast they'll come along with Ogre Cartoons.
Take them seriously and run or they will brain rape you.
Trust me, I know, it still hurts when I think about it.
They may be foreign, but not by far.
If you see the lizards, I feel sorry for you.
If those offer you food, don't eat it, no matter how tempting.
Thay're like Christians, make you pray to Jesus, but plan to eat you someday like lemmings.
And please, for God's sake, will people stop committing sucide so we can prove thay exist.
What will happen when we finally do it?

Bring your equal with you on this quest into the wilderness.
Make sure she's real, because people want to live out there.
The fence is worth a lock, build it like the settlers from the Mayflower and befriend the Indians,
and never let Imperializ-i-m
oh God, will you ever let us in?
Why did I choose to be American?
Wait... when did my pride cometh?
How come nobody real ever lives the American dream?
Wait... I'm falling.

I was f*cked in school.
Those bastards taught me things out of their correct order,
but it looked cool and I was miserable.
So I went to my Momma and was homeschooled.
It was fun, but I never learned how to cope with distractions.
My Momma helped me GED and I went to college at WITC.
I hated it, I was taught too much at one time and the books were like jewlery.
Expensive, heavy, previously used, and USELESS! VAIN!
It was great, I was always sitting in front of a computer.
Everyone said I was good with them.
But all I did was look at porn with the teachers lectures.
A habit I'm still trying to break by not master-WHATIN!
Then one day, I stumbled upon this website that made me dream of worlds beyond.
They said the Matrix had me and the reptiles were comin.
Wake up?
f*ck you!  Masons, why are you trying to wake up Cthulhu?
The website told me 4ths were eatin my juice like a battery.
This would eventually lead to my breif insanity.

So I quit college at it fealt great,
then I quit church at it felt greater.
I was so proud that I wasn't scared of God anymore.
Oops, where am I at?
Then I found out America worships the Devil.
They have a building called the Pentagon and some streets shaped like a star.
And when you play their songs backwards...
I was proud that I discovered this.
Did you hear about 911?
Why does it sound like the Devil is laughing?
Leaving me haunted... wait, why does everyone give this guy so much credit?
He made us the way we are today and like it.
When I believed that, I was angry.
When I realized it was my own damn fault, I was sent to St. Luke's - Crazy.
After a week, I came to.
Then from out of the blue, they put me in a residential home, where I kissed Jesus's ass because I was scared.
I met some rappers named Chris and Jay, who inspired me to these lyrics I'm writing today.
I don't know, maybe they were evil, it might be why I lost it again after.

Then I became a Deist.
Someone didn't like that, and tried to trick me into...
oh, no.... where is my nose in that webcam picture?
It's black and white and unlike a mirror.
I almost went loony again.
Then I realized it has somethin to do with moon fazes.
The guy who wrote that article in that website is probably right, blazes, I need that chart for 2007.
Then I saw them.
They were black and invisible as lightning before you see it.
Then my Christian friends gave me a tip, "I should go back to that farm of crazies."
f*ck you.  Why do you stick insane in with more insane?
I think I figured it out, they want us to kill each other.
We're in a prison and we've forgotten our mission.
The real God is protecting real people.
I've always been sheltered, I didn't need to ask.
Why?  The real God doesn't ask you or ask somebody else to ask you.
He just does it because he made you immortal.
And if I am freed and not sent to hell, I will pledge my soul to the true God of all worlds.
The memory is there, we've all been to 7th, and when I return I will bow and return
Aaaaa.  I will be in Awe.

Don't learn how to astral project or use your third eye,
maybe you'll have some trouble explaining your soul.
I hope I learn all my lessons on my way back.
I hope you learn yours too before it's too late.
If you are a true creation of God and not some imitation, then I love you all.
(a few line here are too personal for me to post)
I always dreamed of beyond.
I'm scared now, because I spoke my mind.
I'm ashamed of what I was before.
I'm still not perfect, thank you, but I feel better.

Will all you Christians stop speaking stuff like you're speaking it into being.
My shit actually happens to me.
I don't have to believe it before it happens.
You think you're waking people up to the truth?
Why can't you get me to hear your god?
Oops, I forgot, he doesn't speak to your eardrum,
he sends incompitence to you in the form of people beleiving they can only do wrong.
What?  They can only do wrong, but they think they are right?
Don't beleive what I say because I make somebody else sound bad, you might go wrong.
This is not stated fact, I like deniability.
My words come from experience at life, not by ability.

Stop watching broadcast television.
The commercials may seem random, but somebody knows what they do to ya.
And no, they aren't aliens.
I still don't know what's up with fluorine in the water.

I wrote this to myself.
It's not directed at anyone else.
Feel free to comment or question.