Fringe Knowledge for Beginners - book by Montalk (Page 4 of 5)

I sent this to my friend.  He loved it, even saying "I think he broke into my mind and wrote my book."

An interesting discussion arose when he reached the part on anticipation though, and I think it bears repeating, cause I'd like more perspective on this.  He said:

I responded with:

Whachiall tink?

I agree with your response. The emotional charge does appear to have attractive power as in "puller, caller, beacon, homing signal, radio tuner, advertiser" while a thought in itself is more form-oriented as in "selector, rudder, switcher, blocker, director." If they are in conflict, the stronger one will win. Like if my thought says "I choose success by preventing failure" but emotion says "I dread the inevitability of failure" then maybe the dread will be stronger and I fail in an unexpected way. Like sealing off a pipe, but having so much pressure that it breaks through an unseen flaw in the pipe fittings.

I tried to clarify this subtlety with what I said a couple pages later:

I think the problem is a semantic one. What do we mean by "anticipation" or "expectation" - purely the intellectual awareness of it (which is what I meant) or also the emotional charge? When anticipating a mistake, dreading it fearfully and obsessively will draw it in.

Actually what's interesting is that the actual feeling of dread has a life of its own... as though you were being tugged in by the gravity field of that particular future. That's how you know you're accelerating towards it, because the tugging is distracting and preoccupies your mind rather than being solely the function of you choosing to think about it. Positive futures don't have gravity so much as levity...they don't pull you in, rather you rise toward them like a bird toward the sun. That is why maintaining or repeating a train of lofty thinking can shift you towards something more positive yet this takes effort and devotion, whereas shifting towards negative takes no effort at all...there you're just falling by default.

I think another way to put the "anticipation" thing into perspective is to realize that some forms of anticipation contain seeds of doubt by their very nature.  For example, if I'm excessively obsessed about getting something, depending upon the nature of that obsession, I may really think I can't have it.  It's hard to explain, but I feel a difference inside myself when my strong desire is laced with a deep-seated feeling I can't have it.  If I know I can have it or do it, I just get it or do it.  I don't obsess over it. 

Say you get a desire for a candy bar, and there's a convenience store just a block away.  If you really want it, you'll get up and get it.  You have a choice, and so there is no obsession.  But if you have a strong desire for, say, a famous person, that can turn into obsession because deep down inside, you know your odds of having that person are slim to none.

There is a thing you can whip around that makes a whrrrrrr sound, a bullroarer. See a video of one. I made one and named it "the kitty-caller" because no matter where the cat is in the apartment, when I swing it she comes into the room to check out the strange sound, haha. Cats can purr around the same lower frequency. The Egyptians, Celts, and numerous other cultures all had versions of these. I think they were used to create portals via their low-frequency sound waves radiating out in a vortex. So if what you described as a portal makes a prrrr sound, I think that is an interesting connection. Also see this interesting article about bullroarers. Just saying that a portal might make a similar sound via some vortex effect.

Are you sleeping in the dark? That can get creepy if you expect something to step in anytime. As a kid I slept with the lights on, tape player going, and back against the wall. Now I just use that voice-activated tape recorder and sometimes turn on an LED light aimed at the spot in the room where astral critters have occasionally entered/exited. I think creating a comfortable and secure-feeling atmosphere can help you get in a more assured mindset which cuts off any unwarranted fear-based attraction of these phenomena.

Right on, and doubt contains fear of the consequences (hunger, lack, pain, shame, etc...) if things don't turn out as desired. If strong enough, that emotional charge can attract the feared possibility.

Good observation...this phenomenon is so common. I think often such cases are motivated by an unrealistic fantasy that despite all odds, they can still somehow hook up with the famous person. So maybe worse than not getting to have something, is possibly getting something if you're very lucky. Like gambling or the lottery. The odds are pretty low of winning, and you can't force a win. But there's a slim chance you might. And there is where anticipation might really play into things... not only can a person get obsessive, but the repulsive effect of anticipation might ensure they never get what they want. Like a carrot on a stick -- donkey sees the  carrot, goes for it, and the carrot moves away just as quickly.

Awesome, I'm glad that distinction clicked with you. As the sayings go, "Paranoia will destroy ya."  and "Just because you're paranoid doesn't mean they're not out to get you" - so if THEY don't get you first, paranoia will. Hahaha.

I have experienced the sound on two occassions.   The first time it was in my closet right accross from where I was sitting on my bed.  I seemed to feel like it was some sort of tear in the curtain of time.  Like something passing thru touching my world very briefly.      The second time I was half asleep, in that state that you weren't sure if you were awakened or were already awake when it happened.  *It* bieng the sound, only this time it seemed to take the shape of a circular motion around my neck area of the body.   It made that sound described above, or like you are spitting tobacco off your tounge.  A read fast tututu flutter.   It entered by circling around my throat and surging downward thru me.   I woke up, sat up, and said WTF.    This is the last time this happened.    The descriptions above are fairly accurate at describing the sound/feeling.   In and of itself, no big deal, but then again.  It is a big deal, it is an indicator of something.   I like the info on the bullroarer, it may be related as far as suggesting a medium for transport of some kind from realm to realm.

The only thing I related to a possible OBE was one night about a year ago I was awakened in terrible fear feeling like something was on my back trying to kill me.   I was terrified when I woke up.  I couldn't move.   This is the only time I can relate anything close to an OBE.   Recently though I did wake up with what would be described as a "scoop" mark on my arm.  It was a hole in my flesh which healed from the inside out.  It had two marks beside the hole, one on either side of the hole.    I have had the ear/head ringing for a little over a year.  It is very intense at times.  High pitch ringing.   I also did a color meditation which involved dividing the four quadrants of the brain by color and meditating on them in a figure 8 design which resulted in a puncture mark on my arm (near the place of the scoop, but prior to the scoop) which was bleeding when I came out of the meditation.   I also am frequently woken up of late by pressure sounds in my head.

Interesting that bit about the "necronomicon". I only have 2 books by Grant (I read lots of fascinating snippets, but after 2 books he really didn't catch my fancy) but don't remember that being in them.

If it's true, Lovecraft prolly got the idea from the meaning of the popular name of the Legemeton grimoire,  "Goetia",  meaning "howling" (OOOOOooooo...), this synch (or not) throws ear tones and evocation in an interesting light:

The "Legemeton, The Lesser Key of Solomon King" is a roll-call of 72 convocable "evil spirits", reflections of the 72 Angels of the "Shemhamphorash", the "name of God" divided amongst the quinaries of the zodiac.

Perhaps the name "Goetia" stems from ear-tones resulting from it's use? Many modern occultists adopt the quite Jungian idea of the cacodaimonos (or any other invoked/evoked 'entities') representing parts of the psyche condensed for a session of 'therapeutic artificial schizophrenia' if you will. Maybe the psychic states involved are similar to (or caused by) the same sort of realm-meddling applied in abductions?

In evocation, who abducts whom?

My experience hasn't touched invocation/evocation, beyond middle pillar exercise, but ear tones have always come and gone.