Action Plans

...I was feeling a bit glum when I wrote that post yesterday.  A couple of days back I showed one of my best friends a clip from the Alex Jones documentary "Martial Law" and I think he's avoiding me now.  He was silent during and after the 15 minutes or so we watched, and afterwards, he looked at me with this look (and vibe) of: "Why didn't I know my best friend is a total wacko?"  I think--though I could be projecting some of this--that he was far too shocked and offended to say anything.

It got me down.  I've been searching for positivity ever since, but it hurled me into a realization I was scarcely ready for.  ...I feel somewhat stupid admitting it, too, on this forum...

I've been realizing in the last 48 hours or so that, to a degree, I've been considering this issue of the NWO, Negs, mind-control propaganda, all of it, from a safe distance.  I mean, I've been looking at as something that is beginning to happen or will happen.  In the last 48 hours I've been really feeling to what extent it already has happened.  The New World Order isn't a probably future reality--it's here, now.  It just hasn't gotten as bad as it could.

I knew it before the last few days, but I only knew it intellectually--now I'm really feeling it.  Before, I intellectually conceived of people who were (purposely) programmed and psychically led around by the nosehairs, and today I'm *feeling* it. 

I'm busting through the grimness of it.  And today, on the bus, I saw the most positive, bright, smiling man sitting in the baggage stow talking to the driver.  It made me smile.

And, to the credit of the phenomenon of awakening, I surfed over the Amazon.com reviews of the "9-11 Commission".  There are about 150 reviews and most of them are 1-Star reviews telling people in bold letters that it is a lie and a whitewash. 

...Essentially what the STSers have done to dominate as much as they have is to sever communication.  It's all so simple, really.  They're military thinkers.  A social structure has been created in which people are expected, encouraged and/or guilted into living in small boxes, cut off, never knowing their neighbors or communicating to them in a meaningful fashion about meaningful topics. 
Of course, controlling radio and TV and print and history helps, too. 

The internet is a snag in that plan.

If the non-compliant (in thought or action) masses *communicated* more, there would be the validation and courage and feeling of support needed to direct their non-compliance in a constructive way leading to a restoration of balance between the profit motive and compassion.

Just walking your path of awakening is enough, really--I believe that.  Choosing to see truth and care and feel love and integrate your own negativity changes reality. 

I am, however, thinking about the quote lately of there being two types of "evil."  There's the evil and then there's the evil of letting the evil flourish unchallenged.  Most of me thinks this is a lower, dualistic kind of thinking that only serves to invoke judgment and thoughts of right and wrong. 

A small part of me asks, "What am I going to do?"  Or rather, "What MORE am I going to do?" 

I don't know...What flashes through my mind is the possibility of another big, prearranged "terrorist" attack--a big one--generating enough fear to lay the groundwork for 21st century feudalism.  Surfs and kings, again.  And, in that flash, I think of my parents or friends saying, "How did it get this way?  What happened?  How did we miss the signs?"  And in that flash I feel pretty guilty for staying so silent.

I mean, I have loads of friends I talk to about all this--but there are as many I don't talk to about it all. 

...Sorry for being so glum...This is miniature dark night of the soul.  A week ago I resolved to integrate my shadows, and lo and behold, I am immersed in negative emotions.

<Matt breathes...>

I'm going to write a play...(I write plays).  Maybe a play about a couple (one 4th denstity STS candidate, one an STO candidate--but that would be subtextual and unconscious).  She tries to understand him, help him--but he's made his choice; he wants power, and power-over.  It won't be evil and good, but lover and lover, believing they must separate.  And there will be a second couple--same situation, but maybe reversed (the female STS and male STO)...they reconcile.     

Did you ever think about your friends or lovers choosing the STS path and having--at least temporarily--to say goodbye to them?

I have thought about this for a lot too.  I am torn between an instinct to evacuate and also the duty I feel to try and stop what's happening.  I don't think what's happening is necessarily a new phenomenon -- history shows that democracy often ends in tyranny -- and in many ways what's going on with our country is an eerie mirror of the politics of 1930s Germany (substitute "terrorist" for "Jew" as enemy of the people and so forth). 

I don't know if any of you have ever read Hannah Arendt but she wrote this really exceptional book called "Eichmann in Jerusalem" about the trial of Adolph Eichmann in the 1960s (he was one of the key figures in implementing the holocaust).  She has this passage where she describes how resistance seems futile against tyranny because totalitarian governments have a way of killing its openings in silent anonymity.  To resist means to expect a knock at the door at 4 am taking you off to die. 

But she ends the passage by arguing that resistance is never futile, because no system of oppression can ever be completely perfect.  Some people will escape, stories will be told.  Knowing that people might have resisted  what was going on in Germany in the '30s (and there were those that did) is in many ways inspiring because it means that even against the Nazis people resisted. 

And I think I"m coming to the conclusion that at least for my decendants, I would like to say that I resisted and did not succumb to the stifling conformity of this age.  I don't think history will judge this period very kindly, but it remains without our power now to do something about it.

As for telling others about what we feel -- dreamosis I have to say I admire you for taking the chance with your friend.  I totally agree that the most we can do is adhere to our Truth.  Truth always triumphs over falsity, and by speaking our minds, even if we are incorrect about some of the pieces of the puzzle, we add to a discussion that sorely needs to take place.

Microchipping.  For me, that's where the line is drawn.  If / when it comes down to that, and I'm being told that I have to take the chip "or else" be locked up, or, I'm told that I have to take the chip or else be left out of mainstream life which will now only accept those with the chip, then I'm done.  That's when I walk away from my life.  My apartment, job, my life as I know it.  Done, bye.  I will become just like I've seen in my dreams.