Just kidding around, I don't mess with any of that stuff; goetia, Qlippoth, The Tunnels of Set. I put a very small part of my study to the works of Crowley. In a subject/object or Joseph Campbell style, which means I maintain a shell around me. That which I truly want to know, I have to become it, in order to deeply understand. The greatest difficulty I have is my resistence to following the Noble Eight Fold Path. For some reason I have a strong pull on me toward Buddhism, with an equal force of repulsion keeping me at a distance. It is probably due to the fact that I study Theosophy above all else and much of it is filled with Buddhistic priciples.
The saying, "never trust a man who does not know what he wants" is revealing in that you can discern this type of person by their graspings and gropings to possess things. Gurjieff mentioned that knowledge is a thing. It is material. Not knowing what he wants being apparent by the daily life of a person engaged with fulfilling desires. This type of person is known by their drive to acquire, to possess. It can also be a natural thing, in that this greed to possess knowlege is merely a manifestation of a person wanting to know why he is here. It will always be known as greed, in that many of these types usually trample others in their quest, when they should already realize that we are Self, One, and in certain steps, this is literally true. So, a person who doesn't know what he wants, usually reveals this in the fact that he appears to want everything. A person who does not know what he wants, means it would probably be a bad thing studying Crowley's particular endeavors. Realization by a person of what is the highest goal can keep a person safe from becoming immersed or enmeshed within whatever successes in these Crowlian style endeavors might lead him to.
If blood = semen, and death = ecstasy, and kill = ejaculation, then there is no evidence of sacrifice, but it points to a deviation from the original tantric ritual, which did not entail sexual relations as part of the ceremonies. I realize that I may still be inaccurate in that a communion with a divine spirit has been compared with the extreme pleasures experienced in sexual relations. So there you still have something pointing to virtue, in that there is only being stated, a comparison to some feeling which we are familiar with, in describing the sensation of communion with your own god, your personal spirit.
Good judgement comes from experience; experience comes from bad judgement.
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You have to believe in the impossible in order to become.