Ayahuasca Visions (Page 3 of 3)

Just got back from my trip to Heart of the Initiate.  This experience exceeded everything else in my life in opening my eyes (literally my third eye).  I wrote down quite a bit of stuff during my experiences while I was still in what I will describe as the hypnagogic state.   The states above the hypnagogic state, I would have been very hard pressed to attempt writing anything down.  On my first trip I thought I was going to die, or get lost in infinity for a while, and on two of my trips I went to places that I could only describe as hell.  Many parts of the trip I felt nothing less then absolute terror.  Despite this I am still sad that I cannot conjure up the direct memories of these experiences, I can only remember that telling myself what I was experiencing so that I could remember it later.   Some parts of this experience I actually remember that I was purposely blocking what was happening from my memory so that I could go on living a normal life without the experiences coming back.  My organization of this message is terrible, but there is just soo much for me to write about what happened.  I will try to write up about what happened on my trip this week while the server is down.

To summarize. 

Myself and others saw the matrix, the and the attendants of the matrix, the hive where the pods are kept, having a plug inserted into someones head by giant praying mantises. 

I witnessed a bunch of friendly beings who I would like to urban hippies during the 60's but I feel they may have been STO beings waiting for us beyond the veil.  They offered me their hand from a place that was like a tear in the reality.  I knew that I could have left this reality and joined them, but feared at the moment that doing so would have led to my death, and therefore didn't go. 

I saw my more of the tricksters.  I think they might have been 4D STS but they were messing with my mind so I couldn't see them well.  Their world was awful, it is the place I describe as hell, it is like if Las Vegas with throbbing lights except everything was built of these throbbing lights.  Their presence felt absolutely awful and terrifying, and was very similar in description to the horrible feeling some abductes remember feeling in the presence of the tall greys or other "evil aliens".

I saw many secens of Bahamet, and other avatars of lucifer built of red, green, and yellow strobing, pulsating neon lights performing horrible acts.  I witnessed the beings bathing in my terror as it was actually like a field of waterlike light being given off from mybeing. 

I get the feeling that the fall of man may have something to do with turning off the third eye, which I am assuming is what was opening during this experience. 

One of the coolest things that happened that scared every inch of my soul for some reason was what I have named the fringe reality.  It is like a limbo area between this physical reality, and the reality where there is no structure and exists purely as a reflection of your imagination.  The fringe is where I saw the unicorn, fairy, elven, and other beings.  I knew this is where beings such as werewolves and things came from.  In the fringe reality things are based on the laws of physics but don't have to obey them.  Like a fairy looks like human but is miniature and has wings, an impossibility here, yet there because our laws don't exist, the fairy can be. 

I also realized that god does not exist in this universe, the universe exists inside of the mind of god, which is all that exists.  I saw so much, and it was more real then I feel typing this message now, yet I cannot really remember it, just the basic concepts of what I was seeing.

These are just the places I went, because they contained the answers I was looking for.  I think it is very rare for people to have an experience like mine. 

Last of all when I was really lost in infinty,  I remembered the time before I was born, and could only remember this life like it was a distant memory.  As I moved through reality to reality I got that feeling you get when your dreaming and you wake up only to realize your still dreaming, and you wake up again wondering which reality is the dream and which is real. 

Crazy stuff, but I saw that there is oh so much creative and fun things that can be done in the universe with a childs endless enthusiasm and excitement.