Re: HELP! HELP! HELP!
I have been in the same place feeling like I would give up knowing all this stuff if I could, so that I could be normal and happy. I know however it is not true, I will always want to know the truth and will never be content unless I take this path.
I have found out that happiness and sadness are frames of mind that you choose. Reality is a little more complicated then just choosing happiness, but don't allow yourself to get depressed. You as a soul chose to be here, and if there were nothing positive for you to gain from this experience then you would not be here. I don't think that there is any reason to live in misery and depression, and if you can be content while still following your heart or intuition, that that may be all you need from life.
I was just reading the cassiopean material, which I don't know if you are familiar with or not, but the question was asked of them "How can (name of person) recover quicker from their cancer treatment" The answer was PMA, Positive mental attitude. I am seeing that a positive mental attitude is one of the most important things to have in order to do what you want to do.