ok then, im resurrecting this baby and im going to research this more exclusively, and weave in more and more entangled threads, because somehow, the mission, the task, the big deal, the big cheese, the secret of this damn TRIP thing here, this last journey to earth, the "planet of choice" (right....) has got some wrap up trick deal in it that HAS TO DO WITH THIS.
im at work, been thinking of getting back on this thread/topic specifically for days and days and weeks. havent had the time, nor the SPECIFIC inclination to be back on it til now, menatlly working on it quietly for sometime, formulating, but it was coming, and i need stuff from home to be more pictoral on it, but it does include the shadow side of stuff, and how it all connects. hard to illustrate and put in words but its mostly about TIMING. i really see that now. it waits for the forum to catch up and get in a certain mood that will carry it onward. alot of the understanding of that is hooked in with our actual threads. like..it doesnt happen til u see it urself, or 'reality' doesnt exist til u see it urself by Starling, and the internet crackdown thread, quantuum physics and abductive theory by montalk, and then today where i saw Z3, pinky, Free, lono, (and fter talking directly to Blue yesterday and indirectly to everybody else), speaking of the mission and i went ape. wow--ur on IT completely and were in the MOOD for it, so its coming, the greater picture, with the specifics. im tellin ya, it haunts the back of my mind all the time, its there, breathing, sighing, snorting a little every now and again. and my dreams sort of have battles about dumb stuff on earth in them, lots of conflict from old junk, stupid, that are geared about earth being messed up but from a POV that only id get. in a very abstract really weird way that embodies 'left-over' crap about myself. like evil ex-boyfriends, and their brothers even, and theyve turned into rastafarians (with dreads--of course), and bare feet where i havent washed them in years and theyre all hard and worn and thick, and turned orange brown. then i drove my car into an ocean and it was huge and green and so close to the shore any minute it was going to be up and over land. i lost my car in it and walked down narrow chinese streets with stuff overhead, like cloth flags, and hanging thingies--u know, like in chinatowns and stuff. looking for a shaman to help me get it out, found him and he asked me why i needed it. he was the brother of the evil ex-criminal boyfriend (used to make bad choices). what? tried to find meaning. (cleansing of old bizness and stuff from recent days). felt so tired yesterday and wanted to sleep real bad last nite and was thinking of u guys and what to say or do next. then i watched the ghost whisperer per chance and sunnaofaB--the dead were in a war and they wanted to take over the "realm" and "be stronger than the living." they were being guided by evil strong forces to fool everyone going to the light that were lost, still felt guilty about stuff from life, had no idea where to go or what to look for, and were confused. there was a welcoming committee that lead them astray, fooled them, then TRAPPED THEM. and the bad force was --get this--assisted by living ppl on earth. the whole thing was about a guy, who will be one of many in the show (maybe), that keeps spirits trapped and surrounded, attached to him, he promises them things and doesnt deliver, so then theyre held in places they dont want to be, and reluctantly side with him. the big PLAN is for them to take over earth, and ruin heaven and the afterlife and run the show. there's a battle for souls.....
so HERE WE GO. now--heres the dark side, and the heaven and earth concept, (just go from there) so i tried to think of bible passages that say things like this, with WIH concepts weaved in, and prophecy that literally, specifically mentions the dead and the living, and all that. and the final battle. not a bible quoter so couldnt come up with much, but i know theyre there, and apply. so then im thinking, u know how TV and the writers of shows and movies sneak in whats going on and i go--well well, maybe we'll hear more on this and maybe, here we REALLY go--aha. its begun with this now. and then i thot--oh just wishful thinking (impatient--want everything kick-started and quit messing around and get this show on the road GAWD) but it may be a sign. so need to go back and meld stuff together and keep being intuitive and feeling stuff out. even the children gig we talked about the celebrity thread has something to do with it. like theres tons of new "presents" gifts for the almighty crat overseers. from the breeding programs, and everybody trying to keep up with the baby jonse's--ya know? like its the thing to DO. when it certainly isnt for those reasons. looks like a contest even sorta. feeder system. they know theyll die, and heres more for the quota. i cant stand it. (havent seen the heard george carlin take yet but will). i feel this real deal is so huge, it will and does, encompass everything somehow. and that baby deal is in it. as is almost everything, it its "secret...'
so im driving to work this am, and this thot comes--everything has been a secret. like when ur a kid--sex is so secret. what is it? whats it mean? whats the deal? then u find out all about that. because u sought it out. thats what seekers do. look for stuff, reasons, meaning. theyre designed that way. it will come sooner or later, the seeking calls out and draws u to the seeking. then the next biggie (gotta go shortcut here--am working) is about the self. looking in instead of out for answers. can even use archetypes or labels or stories, or allegories to figure stuff out, the roles played in situations. big meaning can be figured out, and ur role in it. lifetimes go by and u get better at figuring stuff and urself out, over time. so the next biggie--the ultimate secret is then, DEATH. yes, thats another human biggie. its always about YOU/SELF, LIFE (sex is in here, lessons, roles, etc.), and DEATH. the BIG SECRETS. so were hot on that , and have been. for me, its a real large one, one of majestic largesse. im supposed to do something about or with that and it COMES TOGETHER with WIH, the end, the spiritual battle of souls, the dark side of self (this is so hard to explain), meeting u guys, learning more and more, quoting cool knowers that we have to depend on for coneptual interpretations (so thankful for that and what everybody has turned each other on to) and the warrior, knights templar, wanderer, queen, priestess, prostitute roles; healer, then magic (back to it as the number one psi skill in an 'overall') and the wise woman crone ties it up at the end, out in a mighty flash of lightning bolt PSI=to end in a spiritual battle with the crats. not only end or get to play in the earth's endtimes deal, but its even bigger, once u know or work on the secret TO know it, the battle gets so much bigger and we/i actually participate in the war in heaven, as it goes there and they try to ruin/wreck/change the real ways out. thats why so hot on the portal thing. sunpower, heart, remembering, all of it. talk about service to others, not little service cycles anymore, they were training on how to heal, love, accept, care for: that drops down in size and leaves the mother of mothers--real service to a race, a species. a whole group..my god. all has been training, summation, preparation, remembering, acceptance, realization & actual application and intervention.
i want to support what Z3 said (and loved ur tinkering comment belljar--that was great) because WE ARE IN THIS and its US. we dont play no little hero's journey game. r u kiddin? not even. thats not how we do things, how we roll, its BIG what we do, and were in it for the long run just like pinky said, leave no innocents behind (god--loved that). we came all this way, we have done this before, weve been searching for our roles in this, (there that is, again, just easier to say it that way), and im all hepped up on this, real bad. i KNOW this. thats all there is to it. and it clears up, its so big, the problem in heaven. I, and i capitalized it this time, WE, do not do anything small, little, half-assed, chicken-shit. WE WIELD baby, we dont go into stuff scared, lost, confused. we can be frightened and DO IT ANWAY. so we gotta get it together and get crankin on the finite minutiae (ill do that and keep researching for us) so we can recon, recap. recapitulate, clear, cleanse, heal. purify, understand, accept, neutralize it on out--say what the "F / Hell" and get ON IT.
im saying this OUTLOUD in revelation, in real time, in the here and now, and let any crat, any, see it, wonder, laugh, squeal, run, plot, whatever. not hiding a f'in thing. and aint afraid, but prob will be, and will do "it" anyway. know what i gotta do and u guys are feeling it too, and its about the WIH and the way out. its never been done before , i know weve said this before, but u SEE, thats why THIS TIME ITS US--WE, ourselves, or "they" the GWB, the "ones" or the whomever is helping us, cant go into it now--SENT IN THE PROS. the professionals. so know ur role, get into it, hone that baby, shine 'er on up, sharpen ur points, go deep within and love the mighty almighty hell out of yourself, since were counting on YOU, each and every ONE, each sovereign INDIVIDUAL to catch the ball that will be pitched. each one has their own thesis, we know this, and each can individually work it, as it fits, and resonates. thats it, and im going over old WIH notes, will weave in stuff that jives, and will have to do it as it comes. here a link now that may help us. and i have a cpl more but heres at least1, gotta be home to work on other stuff and post. got on a roll on this this am. will cheerlead, peptalk.
http://www.zeitlin.net/EndEnchantment/WarInHeaven3.html advise go back to zeitlin and the old old forum they had there
maybe even bible basics, theorize, throw in anything that fits, and revels secrets, comes intuitively, cuz thats how that works. sometimes is slow, doesnt hook/connect up right away. way hard to put in words. troublesome concepts dont go easily, and is sounds so wild, crazy bizarre. and JUST LIKE Z3 said--why cant it be us? why not the "little" ppl--well, if u look deep and remeber and claim it--u'll see it isnt so little. thats not who we are. i say dont get rid of any ego either, thats aploy. dont believe it. u need every sector of urself to get out of here. all parts of self with no fragmentation. every sliver. this is real..aceept all of u first and the rest falls into place. everybody will be where theyre supposed to be.
i might not get to all the pieces of this puzzle everyday, or even all the time. just like i can say i love everybody easily, but theyre not movin in tomorrow. fundamentally here, ppl on NR know this, and its ahead.
GNOTHI SEAUTON "Know Thyself!"