Re: Confused and Troubled
Hey Matthew,
This is what I wish someone could have said to me when I was your age:
Follow the clues and connect the dots. That action will grow your awareness into a shield, and inside that chrysalis, your fractured self can fuse back into one. But you have to be willing to find out what the truth is about everything no matter what it turns out to be - that's the secret ingredient. It's a process, it takes time, it is painful, it is worth it.
Make sure to get your 3D needs met - especially the diet you need to be healthy, which may not be what other people need. Also, a cleanse might be appropriate if you've had vaccines, industrial chemical "food", etc. AM/PM Ultimate Cleanse by Nature's Secret is a good one, just follow the directions in the box.
Gender, IQ, temperament, and aptitude largely determine adult identity (Conscious choice is the 5th element, but you have to achieve that). It takes a lot of energy to be someone you're not - that's energy you need for your life.
Soy is not food. Zinc is a component of testosterone. Appreciation isn't attraction.
Have you seen The Matrix?
And always remember: In your own time and in your own way.
Good luck. 