trauma based mind control (Page 4 of 4)

Apparently the "99% Inactive Ingredients in most (but not Tom's of Maine) toothpaste is aluminum dioxide. Aluminum has been long considered the chief suspect in the development of Alzheimer's.

http://www.royalrife.com/toothpaste.html

Alzheimer's has stolen much wisdom from our elders. It would seem that facilitating this disease may have been done on purpose to deprive current generations of knowledge that might have helped us. Alzheimer's breaks the links to our lineage.

As for me, I'd rather see bad teeth than a blank stare any day.

A quality water purification system like Berkefield will eliminate almost everything undesirable in your water. Ozone therapy and negative ion generators might be useful to alleviate the effects of air pollution. EM manipulation? I think Montalk wrote an article about that some time ago.
Regardless of efforts to protect oneself, there will always be new tools for the Inbreds to use against us.
(I'm resorting to calling the 'elite', 'the illuminati', 'TPTB', 'They', 'the brotherhood', et al, "The Inbreds". I refer to the practice of these perverted bloodlines of intermarriage to "strengthen" the bloodline;  we all realize what happens as genetic contamination accumulates through this breeding method. The Inbreds.)

I wasn't sure where to post this, because there are quite a few threads regarding abductions and MILABS stuff;  I did a search on NR using "MILABS" and decided to choose this one because the title was most fitting.  I've got material posted in all the threads relating to abductions and MILABS here at NR, but haven't updated with any new experiences or information in awhile.  Two nights ago something intriguing happened which I thought I would pass along for consideration.  Maybe somebody else has experienced this, I don't know. 

I was tossing and turning around 5 - 5:30 a.m., unable to sleep, which is really unusual, especially considering I went to bed at like 12 a.m.  I sleep well, and don't normally experience insomnia.  So this night / early morning as I lay there I decided well shoot, since I'm just laying here, maybe I could try to connect with my Higher Self.  Make myself useful!    Be productive.   I haven't done that in awhile, but in the past I've had a lot of success when I have tried.  I've definitely connected with it and received valuable feedback and useful information which changed the direction of my life in a positive direction.

I soon drifted off onto other thoughts though - it could have been a light sleep, I'm not sure.   If so, it was light enough that I was able to snap out of it and be like, "Oh yeah....gotta connect to my Higher Self!  Okay, here we go, connecting to my higher self...."

Then I began to try to "tune in."    I do this by thinking a declaration of sorts, "I'd like to connect to my (STO) higher self..."

WELL!!!   As soon as I did that, BAM!   My body felt like it was being electrocuted.

I lay there in bed, feeling immobilized by the electrical feeling that coarsed through my body, jolting me.   There was also the sound of a far off "growl" too.  Like some low, short burst of growl.   I couldn't pinpoint the location.

WTF?  I thought as I was jolted in my bed, ears trained on the dark to the sound of the growl.   WOW!!! 

Me being me of course, tried again!   "If at first you don't succeed, try, try again!"

"I want to connect to my Higher S...."

BUZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ   Electrocuted.   Again.  Body immoblized, the bizarre feeling all over my body of electrical energy.

Anyway, to make a long story short, I oddly enough wasn't fearful, and just persistantly, doggedly kept trying, over and over.   So much so that at one point I was mentally YELLING over the electrocution feeling, "IIIIII - WANT - TO - TALK - TO - *MY - HIGHER - SELF!!*  (DAMMIT!) "      No fear though, just persistance.  Almost like a little kid, persistantly insisting on something, over and over, knowing they will get their way eventually.  After trying over and over again, I did finally get to a point where I did NOT experience the electrocution feeling, and even paused in my mental yelling, looking around, thinking,"WHAT?   Nothing??  Oh come on!"  kind of joking like, where'd you go?  Did you already give up? 

I also did a mental scan in my mind's eye to find the source of that growl I heard at the start of it all.  I did expect to see something.........yet came up with nothing.   There was nothing there, no "entities" around, no "Grays" or "Reptillians".  Nothing.   Just me, my bed, and the electrocution feeling everytime I uttered the no-no words.

The next day it was suggested to me that maybe that was in fact, programming I was experiencing.  I nodded, like "Oh yeah, definitely, I'm sure...."

But it didn't really "click" what that meant.  Not until a little while later in the day. 

I remembered first off that I've woken up with the tell-tale bruises over the past couple of weeks, as well as unnatural "skittishness" and "jumpiness", which is not normal.  For instance, Tom came in the room, and I fully expected for him to be coming in the room, and yet I practically jumped out of my skin when he did.  Something about the sound of him coming through the bedroom door so suddenly just freaked me out.   Again, I'm not normally like that, that's not a normal reaction for me, or probably for anybody!................but I do get like that, skittish, jumpy and anxiety prone, in the days / week following an abduction.  The littlest noise will make me jump out of my skin and create an instant adrenaline surge and panic feeling.   My cat will have it too at the same time...and she was like this lately as well.    So, I knew that I'd most likely been abducted during this time period, probably not just once, but several times.  I have signs of programming in my day to day life, stuff to keep me from doing productive, positive things that I need to be doing and other stuff.

So I knew that I had recent abduction and programming going on.  To try to summarize what I think was actually happening then -- as totally crazy as this sounds, I'm sure -- I think that I was programmed, via electro-shock treatment (because that's how they do it) to not do certain productive, positive things anymore.  And connecting with my higher self was one of them.

Because the second I tried to do it, it was like my body relived the programming, and I felt like I was being electrocuted in my bed.  Every time I tried to utter the words in my mind I was cut off with the feeling of being electrocuted.   

I used to engage in a lot of positive type behaviors that are beneficial for positive soul evolution, and over the past few months, things have been very wacky.  I can practically feel the programming, "You have no will to do that...you won't do that...you can't do that....you have no energy to do that...."   I used to have enthusiasm and a draw to persue these things, now, if the thought does manage to cross my mind the feeling I get is heaviness, immediately pushing it aside and blanking it out and feeling numb, blank and empty, immediately finding something else to focus on instead.  That's not natural for me.

But that's how programming works.   

Until you get awareness of it.  Then you can break it.     Anyway, just wanted to pass that along, as totally nutso as it sounds. (I did confer with my pendulum, which sadly enough, confirmed what I just relayed here.  That's why I decided to post it, because I'm 99% sure this is what the explanation is.)

Tell me about it, it's just not natural.   When that happened to me, I was so jumpy about it I couldn't even talk to Tom at first.  I just stared at him, bug eyed, my nerves standing on end, heart racing.  Finally I managed to say something, and all I could say was, "You scared me!!!!"  I mean, it was just so weird.  The reaction, me saying that, it's not the normal me.   It's a sign of something, that's for sure.

Finding ways to combat this is a good goal I think.  I'm at a loss, because it's so powerful that even when I KNOW it's happening, I can't seem to fight it..........which is programming in itself.  "You are powerless to fight back...you have no will......you are weak, you can't do anything about this....." and so on.   

I had a creative energy surge this weekend, and finally decided to sit down and begin writing the content for my website which is in the works. 

ALL of my creative energy suddenly was sapped.  I mean, I was on "E", seriously.   I felt SOOO blank, empty and numb.  I couldn't do ANYTHING.    I had no will, no drive, no desire, no energy, no nothing.  I ended up having to go to bed, because I was useless to do anything.   The pendulum confirmed that I've had programming to not move forward with my website plans.   Everytime I normally try to do it I find myself sitting in front of the computer with repeating thoughts going "YOU ARE CRAZY.   YOU'RE INSANE.  EVERYBODY WILL THINK YOU'RE INSANE, LOOK AT YOU, LOOK HOW STUPID THIS IS, YOU'RE NUTS, YOU'RE CRAZY, YOU'RE STUPID, YOU'RE INSANE, EVERYBODY WILL THINK YOU'RE CRAZY, EVERYBODY WILL LAUGH AT YOU....."  ahhh.  I end up just feeling deflated and then never make any progress with it.

I know that I've had related programming before, because I've woken up in the middle of it and "busted them" in action.  I caught them programming me with "YOU WILL ONLY SEE WHAT'S WRONG AND UGLY IN THE WORLD..." or something to that effect, trying to get me to only focus on what's negative and bad.   So, this programming is very real, I know that.   Anytime anybody has even mentioned me having my own website over the past 2 years my instant reaction has always been to get these big wide eyes and practically back away from them, immediately going "NO!  NO WAY.   Absolutely NOT.  I don't want to be one of those crazy chicks you always see on the 'net."

??  In retrospect, I'm finally seeing that it was programming.   That wasn't my own response.  It doesn't even make any sense when you think about it! 

You're welcome.  I'm glad it helped someone.  Sometimes one can feel nutso posting this stuff. 

Hi Sedna....eek!   Yeah, that's weird that you've had such a similar thing.   I figure they've got the smack down in place for pretty much anybody who poses a threat to them, no matter how big or small, or what the nature of it is.  It's certainly not foolproof though.  Especially once we're aware of what's happening.

The only thing I can offer up is to suggest to try to not get mad at it, them, what's happening to you, etc.   (weird synch as I was typing this....I'm in an office on the second floor, have the window open, which has a screen on it.  A bee of all things was hovering outside my particular window, moving up and down and all around, trying to find a way in.  !   There's a long row of windows to choose from...I find that interesting...I went over to the screen, like Hey, how's it going, touching the screen, and he/she took off.  Weird!)  So ANYway, yeah, when you feel rage or anger or frustration, that only eggs them on.   The key that I've found from personal experience is to not feel anything at all towards them, or what's happening.  That's how I got all of my overt "stuff" to stop.  I had a lot of obvious out-in-the-open craziness going on, which stopped abrubtly the second I no longer cared and saw through it.

Now, my stuff is covert, but I'm still not mad, not in the least bit.   My attitude is, "Hm, well, just gotta find a way around you..."   And when I do, it will be a calm side-stepping, on my way, thank you very much. 

Try to see them as mosquitos.  We don't get mad at mosquitos, because a mosquito is just trying to survive.  We know that, it's nothing personal.   Well, so are "they".   "Just doin' ma job, ma'am."   So, get yourself some Hyperdimensional Deet, and find a way to side step them.