Stuart Wilde (Page 8 of 17)

ok--read it.  yep.  he never said hes innocent.  he may look like a hypocrite, i think thats what bugs ppl, in general. and thats what always gets to fellow humans.  there's alot to that.  there is no way in hell, on this planet that one can truly LIVE, imbibe, experience, BE, taste, eat, have sex with, get naked with, swim in, travel to, hear, see, use all the senses here, that will leave u thin, glorious, rich, thrilled to be alive, guiltless, sane, and all-knowing without 'payment' of some sort, one way or the other.  anybody who has lived hard and well, IMO, is gonna show show some road-wear and tear.  i hate the idea of ppl thinking the austere human who's reached 'nirvana' or enlightenment, or even self-acknowledgement, has to look like paris hilton in a monk outfit.  bullshit.  if one eats cheesecake late at night, delves into sensory EXPLORATION and experience, rather than sensory deprivation, and then has sex with strangers, after drinking and smoking all day--tasting the 'mysteries' of life, ur gonna end up looking like a well-worn horse, whose been ridden hard and put away wet, sooner or later, if thats the diet ur on.

theres no way outta here wherein one is all thin, no bad breath, shit doesnt stink, all is well scenario unless ur totally not LIVING.  and its all fine and well that some ppl can do that stuff, or at least have tried it, and now have stopped it or whatever, im all for it.  meat vs vegetarianism too, but i say, truly, to not dabble in the first place, or to fear such dabbling, is sensory deprivation.  and that deprived state most likely, does not and cannot lead to a state of self-acknowledgement. or increased awareness.  it takes climbing those mountains, and then falling off, and getting up again and again to know oneself, and to understand the journey.  thats why so into love of self and self-empowerment and forgiveness, or whatever on that genre.  i rode this baby hard, the body i came in with, as stuie rides his.  if they killed me tomorrow, or i croaked by accident or whatever, i can say i tried it all pretty much. and i have no regrets that i held back and didnt give it a whirl.  some of my stuff i wish i wouldnt have done in some of the settings, but the rage against the machine prepped me up for such falls.  hard to keep that tamped down.  makes one understand humanism. investigated the crap out of things, experienced.   had to, couldnt a done it any other way. all the societal warnings and abhorrance to such dabbling made my ass tired.  still does.

interesting tho, read him yesterday and he says "keep ur damn mouth shut"...and i was sorta floored and disappointed by that.  that fear and fear of reprisal from others kinda bugged me.  did anybody else see that?  it looked a little difft than his usual, but he is on an escape them lately and is doing warnings more and more, and advising.  i smell fear and that something's changed. and then the pics today, so im thinking he's smelling an end coming closer, and is preparing? or at least doing an amenensic/amenesis thing and is seeing stuff.  didnt know what to think of that. 

i think/feel that 'reality' scenarios are warping constantly now, and he is taking that in and processing, but i didnt like that outcome.  im way more confused on that now.  and what to do about that, in the middle of it.  hoard or not hoard and what to do came up on that, yesterday, esp after reading what u said about that in ur movie thread.  got me stumped and worried a little again.  and then i went 'oh well'  as i hate worrying. and have tried to do it less over the years.  way less.

i dont know about the icke camelot deal.  i believe in it.  i even put up a sword/sort of excalibur avatar days ago, and remember what the ELF transmissions say.   then i read an article from that godumentary site about SWORDS that said they must be weilded at times, and i cant find thst now, to show it.  (went to work in an emergency, like i said i wasnt gonna do, and couldnt find it in spurts of reading on their computer).  it had meaning.  i will look for it today.  there are powers at work i feel, and it does go back to taking a stand of some sort, soon.  on ???

Read some of his stuff reposted here, was very impressed, went to his site... big disappointment. He's very rigid and doesn't realize it. Talks about the "shadow of the elite" becoming visible but his posts are full of unconscious judgements against fat people, Jews... he can't see his own shadow. And you're right, Zenden, his stuff has become very fear-based.

What interests me is his experiences. From personal experience I know you don't have to be any kind of "ascended master" to do amazing things. So is it possible to learn from what he's done without swallowing his moral judgements? And what does that teach us about our "normal" human abilities?

just wanted u to know.  i am an OLD BAG,  lived hard, and had a ball.  i still LOOK quite good, damn good, for that matter.  way way better than most women my age, and have no wrinkles, no cellulite, no grey hair thats all shitty and im tan and tight.  HOWEVER--i quit alot of my old behaviors long ago, because i didnt want my guardian angel, whomever, to have to work any harder than it HAD to, protecting me.  i even gave that entity a break.  when it took 3 and 4 days to sleep shit off, i turned the tide.  and its some damn good DNA too.  and the thinking i do that keeps me going, and alive, and YOUNG.  i aint no paris hilton though.  long and blonde and thin, with 3 ft long femurs.  nope.  i did the best with my stuff as i could.  i could starve again, like i used to, deprive myself of stuff, be all going to the gym and that crap.  but then id be wild again, and im RETIRED from running the streets.  so ur RIGHT!   one can live great and look great.  its the image of the "perfect monk" that lives in a cave somewhere and eats sunlight and pure oxygen that bugs me.  id love to meet one though.  that's what i meant.  not the hags that look like hell on cigarette commercials.  that actually were put away wet.

imagery and its memes.  thought forms and their consequences.  its all in the head, and the DNA.  what u think==what u are, and thusly look like.  acceptance of self, either way, all ways, is what made me what i am.

One thing that I admire about both Stuart Wilde and our dear Zenden is this cool thing of how you both come across as having LIVED and LOVED and LOST and LAUGHED in your writing, which has a tone of age about it, yet at the same time in both of your writings there is this incredible childlike glee, too. Like pushing yourself to the point where you've lived so much that you have to start over again and are reborn into your childhood energies again.  And we get to share the journey with you by reading your words. Something contagiously beautiful and joyful about it all.

Stuart gets more into fear-based stuff, though, and Zenden is always the torch-bearer of passion and warmth.  You go, Zenden!

I agree Zenden about what you've written here about that particular alcholic type or overdoer of STUFF who lives right on that edge.

One thing I see about you, Zenden, is how you are FULLY HERE! 

And unfortunately, in that photo of Stuie, I can see he's not here anymore.  Very strange stuff going on in his energy field.  He's on a path where he's working hard on dematerializing the physical body and trying to teach others to do the same -- but at what price?  It's like his energy is a pale, flat ghost of a self, and somehow, I don't think that's normal or healthy for a human aura given these current bodies we're running around in. Maybe chasing the Morph isn't such a good idea. I don't buy into the idea of chasing anything. Everything we need is here, at this juncture of realities, probabilities, and energy points. Me, I intend to enjoy the ride

And Zenden, I'm glad you've been able to find balance in your life.  It IS so important to have lived and loved and felt and failed and triumphed and experienced....all of it.  I don't think we really learn anything by "proxy," by living in our heads, living out fake experiences through the intake of movies and media or videogames. The only way to learn is to do stuff, feel stuff, and pilot your personal course based on what you discover that you like/don't like.  Too many younger people now are being completely programmed NOT to live.  TV watching isn't living.  24/7 immersion in ipod, music, video, Internet, etc. isn't living.  It's all a fake sort of proxy life.  Funny that the big buzz word these days is reality shows - the least "real" thing in the media bubble.

You've got to get up on the horse, go for a ride, fall off, count your bruises, learn to ride again, and dare to take whatever journey you need to be on.  I think so many folks now are being programmed to fear (a combination of overprotective parents plus also the school Matrix and the child services controllers making parenting this endless knuckle-biting process where you constantly feel that you can't let your kid experience anything.)  (And by the way, kids DO need to be protected from a lot of stuff, and I applaud the parents working their asses off fighting to keep their kids off vaccines and out of harm's way! But it's all about balance.)

I hate to say it, but the only thing I learned from my parents was love. And that's a grand, wonderful, blessed thing.  But everything else I had to go out, sniff around, fail, succeed, fail again, mess up royally, love, hate, explore the light, the shadow, the agony and the ecstasy until things became more balanced within me and I understood the energies within me that I could call upon and could better discern the energies WITHOUT (external) and which ones I wanted to plug into.

That only happens through living.

Leaving college to be a gypsy actress was the best thing I could do. Later on working for myself, with all its unique challenges and joys and sorrows, was the next best thing for my personal path.  Neither were "encouraged" by the Matrix!  And thank Gods I didn't listen to it!

About the Arthurian stuff and the sword stuff....not sure myself about the Arthurian mysteries, although they are certainly a part of my Irish friend's culture and system of wisdom, but the original Celtic stuff is pretty different from the Anglicized Arthurian whitewash, from what he's shared with me. So I'm not sure what all is going on at the heart of it. Mostly he says distrust those endless English "scholars" who purposefully distorted half the real stuff. Although he also says that the true keepers of ancient Celt wisdom have NEVER TOLD their stuff to outsiders.  So how would the Oxford-educated Brit know what the hell he was talking about?  The funniest story was of how one time my friend attended a workshop on Celtic healing and mythology held by a self-proclaimed Celtic shaman (female) at a local bookstore.  True system buster that he is, he just sat quietly in the audience, listened to her lecture, and at the end raised some pointed questions in that firm yet deceptively gentle voice of his.  Basically, he'd ask her about something, and she'd give some airy-fairy explanation, and he'd say, "How do you know?"  And she'd get all flustered and say that her spirit guide was Irish and he taught her, yada yada. And again he'd say "How do you know?"  And in the end, everyone saw that the Emperor had no clothes on, but more importantly, the damned fool woman realized that she really didn't have the right to be teaching the traditions of an entire living yet ancient culture that she had ZERO authentic connection with. Sure, she might have been there in a past life, but in her current life, she had nada true facts about stuff.  Because the real stuff was never shared.

One thing I can say about swords and knives is they are VERY USEFUL in lucid dreams for fending off greys and reptilians.  I sleep with a hunting knife in a sheath beneath my pillow. The shamans teach that if you have your weapon near you when you go to sleep you will be better able to wield it against attackers in the dream realms.  And sure enough, after my Irish friend taught me that, I began experimenting with the knife. I've lost track of how many lucid dreams I've had where I've woken up right at that point where they want to mess with me and been able to materialize the knife (or sometimes it manifests as a sword, dagger, or katana style blade) and chop the critters to bits. The greys have a horrible rubbery skin that is almost like a rubber doll -- yuck.  I figured long ago that  if they're able to give ME bruises and marks on my physical skin, by somehow messing around with my energy body at night, then by golly, I'll have a piece of their hides.

When I don't have the knife near the bed or under the pillow, I'm more subject to harrassment. 

And when I need the blade in one of those lucid encounters, I'm (oddly enough) not filled with rage or hatred. It's more of a clinical, fierce, goddess-like righteous clarity that YOU WILL NOT MESS WITH ME. THIS STOPS NOW.

So -- to wield a blade rightly, appropriately, when the situation calls for it, but to remain a creature with love in her heart - that's the challenge I think we are facing in these wacky times.

LipstickMystic aka Jennifer

PS My shaman friend sleeps with a real, sharp, ceremonial, sacred sword above his bed.....and you should SEE who he has "taken out" when the critters have been stupid enough to mess with him.  He's really a spiritual warrior who goes to bat for all those who cross his path, like a true hero, and he wields his sword on behalf of the innocents who are being troubled by the negs.  And they run when they see him coming!

I think LM has the right of it.  Anyone who spends all their time here trying to escape will become vacant.  I've always been uncomfortable with escapist theories myself.  I want to become more and more here as the years go by.  Still walking between worlds like a Shaman, but those half-step dimensions are still HERE.  They're not somewhere out there.

Actually that photograph is extremely misleading. There is clearly a strong camera flash that is making him appear incredibly pale and unhealthy. If you take a look at the actual video clips he looks fine and doesn't look like a zombie at all. Granted, he is a bit overweight, but not excessively so and probably not as a result of overeating. He's actually given a reason for his health problems:

I think Stuie has always been an 'acquired taste' and I can see why he rubs a lot of people up the wrong way. What I've always loved about Stuie is that he's always come across as very human (warts and all!) and he's definitely not someone you should be putting on a pedestal and worshiping. He's far from perfect and in my opinion he frequently gets things wrong or misinterprets stuff. Despite that he's still one of my favourite teachers. Like with anything else you've just gotta use your discernment, take what's useful and leave the rest. In my opinion there aren't that many writers out there providing as much useful information as Stuart does - and the vast majority of that information is available for free or in cheap books you can buy from Amazon.

I don't exactly remember, but I think I must've been disrespectful or mouthy. Something like that. I probably should have kept my mouth shut until I knew him a little better.