cbrand-- talk about intuition! I haven't visited here in months and was just thinking about entity attachments and how I think they are messing up my life. I haven't been able to find much help in this area. Thanks for posting.

You might also want to check out "Practical Psychic Self Defense" by Robert Bruce, (really nice guy, have met him in person discussing his book at our local metaphysical bookstore in town) along with an obscure book called "Close Encounters of the Possession Kind" by William Baldwin, Ph.D.  Robert Bruce's book deals with all around psychic attacks and entity interference and manipulation/possession and how to tackle it.  His book is great because he's really down to earth and speaks from first hand experience, using his personal life stories as examples.   Dr. Baldwin's book is interesting in that it deals with ET manipulation into humans, possessing and controlling them and so on, with case histories from his clientele used as illustration.   That particular book is actually all excerpted from a much larger book he wrote called "Spirit Releasement Therapy - A Technique Manual" which involves all around entity attachments, not just ET. 

I think most people have acquired entity attachments over the years, via all sorts of avenues.  Drinking, using drugs, (both will weaken you allowing for stuff to attach while simultaneously attracting them in via the lowered frequency that comes about from it all) being in close proximity to negative people who themselves have attachments, living in an area that has paranormal activity with stuff coming and going on a regular basis, even ET abductions, and so on.

There are several threads here at NR that talk about it if you want to search them.

Good summary at this link:

http://www.atlantisrising.com/issue18/1 … irits.html

this will be short since I think alot of the other posters hit the mark with what they said. I wanted to add that de-gunking your life is crucial. Eliminate toxins out of your life will help out alot. I am currently doing that in my life- mental, emotional, physical, spiritual toxins. Out they go. Also, some people in my life must go, especially ones who subtly put down my interests and me for pursuing them and those who simply aren't on the same wavelength, etc.

One step at a time. Take it easy.

I just want to say, I am there with you, totally. We are similar age group, and much of what you've described I experienced as well, over the period of the last several years. I have been fighting depression since I was at least in 3rd grade. To be honest, I have been really miserable and sad almost every day for the past couple weeks, beyond rational thought, just a feeling that I wake up with. I posted a really long post last year about my own upbringing/life-before-NR and it sounds similar to what you posted in a few spots.

I was stuck living at my parents house after I graduated, and after five months of being miserable and working bad jobs, I relocated to the other side of the country and started a Masters Degree program. School was a bad idea this time, unfortunately. My first degree was practical, and this second degree was totally impractical, because I had seen the practical degree not be worth SHIT, so I though maybe if i followed my creativity and my heart I would have more success. HAHAHA nope!

My own advice for myself is that I want to find some people who are active in establishing self-sustainability for themselves... whether setting up a farm, or an intentional community, or something like that. All I meet are people working dayjobs with no money, and no ambitions beyond picking up McDonalds on their way home and seeing what their TiVo recorded that day. So, I know everything can change for the better, and I have focused on being very healthy and educating myself on what is important in my own life (you can always go vegan if you want a change, that changed a lot of things for me). I'm currently planning to move AGAIN soon, and this time relocate to go to a school for an associates degree in Sustainable Agriculture, which will hopefully give me the opportunity to work outside and interact with the Earth, and do something positive for people like grow food. Simple, necessary.

Not much insightful to tell you now. But I wanted you to know that there are definitely people like you who are going through stuff like you're going through. I don't know what it means, and what it adds up to. I feel very cynical and bitter and sad some days, but I also know that everything can change and that I love life.. I love living.

Ok, good luck
Tim

You know, we are all probably worth $20.00 in the ol' pine box..anyone can get there if they choose...it is a greater feat to be capable of remaining on the Earth with your 2 feet planted...taking it step by step...

Reach out....enjoy the happiness you can give a stranger on the street corner...you nver know..maybe he ust found out he is ill, etc.

It is a mystery..for sure...

a.   After 3 years of post-natal depression I was ready to take me and my babies into the forest and just 'leave'.  Instead I went to the doc and had a good chat.  I confessed my party drug years and my penchant for the herb.  I asked him if this was what was causing my 'depression' (more like a bomb crater!), I was so sick of fighting those demons.  Know what he said?  "It's not the drugs, I think it is the result of exceptional pressure on an intelligent and enquiring mind."

b.  What zenden said.  Ascension symptoms.

c.  Ask yourself "who am I really?" and keep asking until you have all the answers you want.  You will truly be amazed.

I'm sure many here can relate to this: As children and adolescents, we had tremendous inspiration and ideas that we believed could make the world a better place, and that the world would adopt these ideas. But this world is filled with old energies, stuck in a deep rut. It's very slow to change direction. I think every human generation experiences this somewhat. Some people on the other hand don't have grand visions for this world or even their own life. These are the people who revel in mediocrity, accept things as they are and just try to fit in with the "herd."

I know a lot of people have been talking about losing interest in the things they used to enjoy. This has happened to me too. I don't know if this is a result of changing planetary energies, or if it's just a common human experience. I have a feeling it's related to the former. It seems as though we're being reborn, and first we have to purge ourselves. Part of that purging includes re-examining of WHY we do certain things or why we had an interest in something in the first place. As we evolve, our priorities will change. If we, and the planet, are really evolving and moving into greater dimensional experience, our desires are likely to change drastically. When you become an adult, do you still want to play with children's toys? Probably not, because they are so simplistic and don't challenge you anymore. If you've lost interest in something, it's for good reason. Don't be afraid of leaving behind a once-cherished hobby or toy. The reason you don't it enjoy it anymore is because you don't enjoy it anymore! It's that simple, in my opinion. Find something new and challenging instead to spend your time on. Spend a few weeks conquering one of your fears. That can be fun and exhilarating in itself.

As for practical advice: take baby steps. There's nothing wrong with being unsure or undecided about your future. This IS something wrong with being afraid to try something to break free of the indecision. Take a small step in one direction, but don't commit to it unless it feels right. For instance, don't move 2000 miles away on a whim without first visiting the place to see how it feels to you. If it doesn't feel right, go back and try door #2. And keep cancelling out options until you strike gold.

http://forum.noblerealms.org/viewtopic.php?id=2870

so, u realized ur old crap, methods, shit wasnt working for ya as well, so u knocked it off/down a little.  good strategy--do what WORKS. do what works.  what doesnt work--get rid of.  anybody who lives on this planet and has feelings, emotes, SEES things is depressed as hell but keeps goin anyway.  believe it.  we all cant stand it yet we see its beauty, the magic of it.  were travelers here, wanderers, we wanna go home but the suitcase is still packed and were living out of it.  U HAVE A MILLION CHOICES.  so ur ANGRY.  good.  u should be. look on the bright side--if all goes well, theres only 5 to 10 more yrs of this shit as we know it, after 2007. yippee. whaddaya worried about then? 

we all get up every sucking day, ANYWAY and do bodily functions, eat a little, go on the net, talk a little to others, pay a few bills, and LAUGH ALOT HOPEFULLY.  theres not a great msytery to it, other than our studies, our loves, our relationships, what we have done for ourselves and others.  do for ur mom, help her out, talk to EVERYBODY, go and hook up somewhere wheres theres suffering and smell it.

so consider ur probably ascending--check out signs and symptoms of ascension.  u got em.  who in the hell would wanna live here in 3d?  jesus christ--give urself a break.  ur a spiritual warrior like the rest of us here so go with that and find out what ur job/role is with that.  read INTO ur past--do more self-discovery.  that is all that matters. develop ur heroic talents.  ur smarter and more worldly than ur naive therapist(s). u have apparently been around the block, and its pointless to see someone who does not have the same or similar life experiences as u in that vein, so u r wasting time, energy and money and those that have not seen "the world" and will not be helpful to u. u have 'tested" them and they failed ur test.  good one, nice game, so u can move on from that now.

u r powerful, and young.  not an easy predicament. can tell by ur writing style, u have a high IQ.  ur talented, a thinker, a wise man, who is sorta forlorn, but mainly DISAPPOINTED most of all. eh?  do a gratitude journal, a worry journal, and a dream journal for a few days.  write everything down.  get carthartic with urself.  stare ur demons in the fuckin' eye, call em out in the shower.  make em show themselves. then watch "old yeller" and then cry a little and see how u feel later.

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law

I am another here that's been through some years of depression. No substances contributed to or worsened that, in fact in my case I think the reflection brought on by some cannabis in solitude helped me get something out of what was otherwise a rotting, internally and externally.

If "regular use" means wake'n'bake, then stop it.  For realz.  If you're in a rut, the constant alpha wave state of weed will keep you in it.

On what to do next: perhaps forget all the plans you've made, studies you've done (as far as "staying on track" that is) and try imagining yourself content, growing and healthy. Get a nice solid picture in your mind, then ask yourself what you're doing to be that way.

If you know that an environment drains you, don't go into a career there! I have a lot of hospital impressions in my memory, and I couldn't agree more on the nature of those impressions.

Feeling of disinterest and drifting: Here (and on montalk's site) you can find all sorts of info on the effects of strobes, EM feilds, etc. and how they contribute. My experience with "internet overload" was this: sleeplessness, muscle tension and cramping, irritability, lack of focus and attention, constant sense of craving (generic, no object).

Get more sun, be serious about breathing (no, I'm not being silly), and if nothing piques your interest at any time, try to make the most of nothing and discover meditation ;-)

A societally-induced problem in my opinion is that of forcing people to define themselves, and build dreams on those definitions. Forget definitions, observe yourself like you are doing a National Geographic on some unique beast and judge not. Find what's really there and heed not the hasty conclusions you've been forced to make, for you knew not what you did.

You shouldn't discount your "self" too quickly, as you may not have made full use of that rescource to date.

You're not alone and no "lost cause" either. Every man and every woman is a star.

In fact, I think I hear a coccoon cracking... I love that sound.

Welcome, and Khabs am Pehkt!

Andy

Thanks for opening up.  This is a place where there can be much help to the discerning seeker, as you're no doubt finding out.

I can relate to your experiences of feeling low at times.  Two natural-ish things that I've found which seem to "rise the tide" a bit:
- St. John's Wort - this is actually a mild MAO inhibitor as said in another recent thread.  One capsule, 3x a day seems to help.  (Makes me wonder... mao inhibitors allow for more lucidity or 'vision' type experiences... St. John purportedly wrote 'revelations'... lucidity/visions... st. john's wort... )
- Cod Liver Oil - this contains vitamins a & d, in a more naturally absorbable form.  Vit D is particularly important for those that seem to be affected by what they call 'seasonal affective disorder', which is basically just a fancy way of saying not getting enough rays from our great healer agent, the Sun.  In addition, it's a good source of omega 3.  It may be worth it buying a good brand, as opposed to the cheapest thing on the shelf.  cod liver oil for those further north/south in the winter, can be an effective ally.

cheers