Now, my second experience was not on any drugs or anything but it was when i was meditating and a sudden flow of rush came from the bottom of my chakra and felt vibrations and an electric current flwe threw me and made me sexually excited not in a way that i was fanatsizing anything wrong but it did and then with in like 1 minute it was all normal. And I was really tierd so, I decided I don't mess with the energy anymore before i do some research what one should do after awakening and retired for bed. When i lay down on ma bed I pictured myself in the light of the ONE coming thru clouds and shining on me as I sleep protecting me from anything that is against my will and intent. And just right then this beautiful image came in my vision which was more beautiful than the one I had pictured in my mind and it was amazing one of the pictures that i cannot forget. It was all silverly lit sky and clouds and a bright mercury like lign coming through it..

After, my first experience being sober I thought now it would be easy for me to awaken it as often as I want. And it was like 3 months ago now.

so, As i try to meditate now I feel vibrations on my chakras from the root to my third eye. But then again I have a serious problem that i cannot find a place to meditate and I put on this huge head phones with theta waves playing on them with some musical notes that keeps repeating and I close my eyes and just go deep in it and feel this vibrations. But, I cannot pull this energy up again as I did not knowingly before.

About, any significant changes in my psyche, I can say I have my 3rd eye pretty much working cuz I see flashing lights all the time like on peoples hearts sometimes on their heads or on my shoulders or lazer like lights making shapes in air. Now, when I see the sky and observe it starts vibrating with this lights everywhere flashing and going like even at night it opens up like a star and goes away. And am pretty sure am not talking about stars its the light that I always see when i meditate or see it all the time so to speak. Now since my first kundalini expeirnece these lights have been happening more often. And i have the most vivid dreams at night that i never did. I even had a dream about my kundalini awakening and i was filled with light and light was passing all through me. I still cannot see people's auras but I do their light bodies sometimes surrounding them and same goes for the trees and animals like i see their light bodies and on some there is this same light shining right above their heads in their light bodies. Even tho! i decided to go with the term light body but its more like i can't explain but its like aura like body with this light either shining by their hearts or heads.

Sometimes, my ears are very sensitive and react when am meditating like feeling some kind of bad vibrations or something. And, I don't doubt this but the whole place seems to be against my kundalini awakening which reminds my why all the sages and prophets choosed caves over populated areas.

Now, the vibrations in my chakra that are extreme are the lower ones the root and the one above it. Manipura vibrates pretty good when i don't break my meditation for atleast 15 minutes and then heart chakra too vibrates but it doesn't vibrate that fast and same goes for throat and 3rd eye that vibrate kinda slow.

Sometimes, these theta waves create a hypnotic like lights around my 3rd eye region and i feel a sensation in that area but never did i see any pictures or anyting when am meditatin except for couple of times where I saw hypnotic shapes and some guy that i can't even recall.

But my dreams are way too vivid. Like sometimes I learn these new yogic postures or am in some different alien lands where i could see more than 1 celestial body like moon. LIke I had a dream I saw like 3 to 4 moons and celestial bodies and stars it was a strange dream. Then I have dreams like where people are always trying to scare me and I do unbelievable things like flying running on waters or jumping off from great heights. Yesterday, after meditation I prayed to GOD for any potent dreams of what to do about my life and went to sleep and I had a dream that was soo moronic but it was soo vivid that i woke up from the middle of my sleep and asked myself to remember this dream and went back to sleep. I had a son where am not even married and someone telling me that he is Jesus Christ. Ok I seriously don't want to make any kind of stupididy here but thats what I literally heard and he had his hands like him how he shows his 2 fingers and there were all these people of different races and religions looking upto the sky and asking for help from GOD.

but anyways, that was all I wanted to mention to see if anyone can make out how far I have manifested in my kundalini awakening. Now, the question is most people say one shouldn't try to awaken it without any guidance from some guru and am at this place where i don't trust anyone and even when i want to it doesn't make sense to trust anyone that i see cuz they give me this bad vibrations and manipulative talks that shows their true colors and eyes that cannot look into mine. But I have decided to go on my own to manifest this goal but some people relate kundalini awakening to rebirth aswell. Like people die in their kundalini awakening and are re-incarnated and stuff and evryone around me is trying to sell me themselves. Just like how i saw on LSD copies of my own and different versions trying to sell themselves to me in every way possible.

I need some feedback if people have their awakened kundalini's and if anyone see any flaws in my methods of awakening thru the symptoms and achievments that i have made so far. I do the 5 tibetean rites and cobra pose, bow pose, fish pose and do the breathing exercise from alternate nostrils. I meditate and try to keep my mind quite as best as i can or listen to this theta waves and music which does work good but sometiems i have headache after listening to those waves for too long.